i'm not dead, YET

:)
HIYA.
i know, i suckie suck suck.
i reached MAS safe and sound.
wanted to blog so bad. took many photos, but had no time.
);
because i'm too caught up with stuffs here.
i feel that there's too many stuffs to do, but too little time!
but i will blog within this week. (;
muacxx.

another emotional freak.

' the memories change as i grow older. it use to be on purpose'

i found it in one of the blog randomly. love it.

feeling blue.
i actually wanted to blog in my other blog,
a blog i miss so much..
a blog for 4 girls..
a blog full with friendship, love and dramas.


a blog that reminds me so much of my high school,
the goods, the bads, the worst, the best..
we've been through a lot.
we should be closer to each other right?
but how come...
when i look back to our posts..
i can feel nothing but depress..
i can't smile but tear.


looking back,
momo always revolves around us, jumping up and down demanding for something we should do together,
cind will just suddenly hug me from the back and smile so brightly when she'd startled me,
qian will try sneak out from her class as many time as possible to come over to ours and have fun..
ying will always be the one socialling with everyone, but be my baobei when she's with us..


but what is happening now?
yes, we do still talk and all..
but the times we talk?
not what bestfriends will have.

i really miss those days.
we were once that close, and now..
sometimes, i hate it but have to admit that,
we maybe only just friends that looks really close from the outside..
but what are we inside?
i don't know, i don't dare to think..
of course,
to me,
you girls are still who you people used to be.


what can i do?!
what can i do to save my friendship?
i wander at all times,
what is the proper way to maintain a friendship?
i suck at maintaining friendships..
a total loser!

always using annoying ways to maintain..
they don't even work a bit.
do they?

我真的很不愿意去承认，我们好像都只是空有虚表，就是所谓的‘金玉其外，败絮其中’。
告诉我，
我能做什么？

不是的，

我们没有吵架，

只是我在反省。

总是在反省，

总是拼命的去做好一个朋友该做的本份。

却，每次都用错了方式。

我好讨厌这样的自己，

总是在扮演朋友的角色里，

感到很挫败。

为什么，我竟让自己的友情，一次又一次的从我身边消失，

却依然无法把它掌握好。

....

是我的问题吗？

i'm so stressed out.
Corporate Law is killing me.
but a call from my uncle from Sydney today,
made my day.
he called to ask me to study hard and wished me luck,
something i really need from a family.
...



it's getting late.
i better go..



love, cong.

No men in the world.

我说，‘世界上没有一个男人会比爸爸更爱我...’

他沉默了一下，说到 ‘那...我前一世一定是你的爸爸...’

for those who can't read Mandrin,

:)

i'm willing and want to share because my friends say it's sweet. (;

i said : 'no men in the world can love me more than my daddy does.'

he paused for a while, and said : 'well.. then i guess i was your father in your previous life...'

honestly,

at first we both thought it was funny because we couldn't stop laughing about it.

plus,

we were having a joking-happy conversation instead of those deep,emos heart-to-heart talk.

when i heard it,

i thought to share on facebook because it was hilarious.

but when i told me dear friend - sing, about it, he said it's so sweet.

and then i get likes and comment from baobei ying that it's sweet.

(:

really?

it is?

when i told my mummy and daddy,

mummy laugh. :) but she means no offense, just laughing ..

maybe at our childish thought?

anyway.

my point is..

when i thought of it again,

it hits me.

it is something really sweet. :)

way much better than iloveyou, youaremywholelife kind of talks. o.o

i kinda think those sweet talks are too cheesy! *NOT WHEN IT'S SAID BY EDWARDCULLEN,though. o:)

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i did my studying the whole freaking day!

and i'm proud of myself!

i have four more chapters to go, and then i'll be typing notes hardcore! T.T

pity my poor eyes.

while i was studying,

i have this problem. o.o

my eyes felt super dry, and i need to close my lids to let it rest..

this goes on and on until i get frustrated and decided to take a nap.

of course, i did not.

but i'm wondering why? what happen to my eyes?

not only that,

when i'm studying,

i keep having the urge to consume sweet stuffs.

i don't care whether it's chocolate, vanilla slice, brownie, glazed cinnamon, macaroons, milk tea, coke, chocolate milk, fruit juice or whatsoever, I JUST WANT SOMETHING SWEET!

o.o

i feel much better after i consume sweets, like i can finally focus!

:)

so i did.

while the STUPIDFREAKINGIDIOTIC line wasn't working from 5 just now.

i decided to get macaroons!

afterall it's just a 5 minutes walk!

i went to Lindt Cafe in Collins Street. :)

OH MY.

those macaroons are so colourful and pretty!

my happy happy stomach.

♥

the brown one - milk chocolate ; yellow - passionfruit; biege/ivory - champagne ; green - pistachette ; hot pink - strawberry ; baby pink - rose ; white - vanilla. ♥ ♥

mmm-mmm!
my favourite was champagne, strawberry and milk choco. :)
and i have a feeling, very stong one, that i'll be getting it again tomorrow!!!
yes, i've finish it, in like 5 minutes?! haha.

speaking of Macaroons.
:)
i have friends,
qualified in
Diploma in Culinary Arts and Patisserie,
just started a small internet business!
he and she sells MACAROONS!
i don't think there's any official seller of Macaroons in Malaysia. o.o
are there?
anyhoo,
CHECK IT OUT!
i fell in love already with just the pictures!
it can replace cakes for birthdays, anniversaries, or even gift for any celebrations!
i heard it's a new trend that replaces cup cakes! ;p

http://enchantedmacaroons.blogspot.com/

:) TRUST ME! i'm so eager to try the Blackcurrant and Chai Tea. (:
muacxx.

i have to go back to study now. with a happy vibe! ;p
xoxo.

love, cong

i should be studying.

i was stressed the whole day!
sometimes it's so frustrating to live in cold countries!
seriously, when you wanna leave the house, you'll have to change to jeans, wear a jacket, apply moisturizer on your face, lotion on your whole body *especially in dry cold countries! -.-' and then socks and shoes.
brrr. this is so annoying!
back in my home country,
all we need is just short and flip flops! ); pfffft.

okay, so i took all the trouble to get dressed up and head to my uni to ask about the tuition fees.
guess what?!
it's closed! o.o
i was like, what the hell?! how can a university be closed on weekdays!?
was it because of the Melbourne Cup everyone is talking about? or Halloween holidays? o.o
urrrr.
but it wasn't that bad. i tried this Milk Tea in the new shop, ChatTime, if i'm not mistaken. not bad not bad. :)
it's was on promotion, opening promotion. (;
so i get to buy 1 and get 1 free of any drinks.
usually, people will love it!
but i hestitated, the thought of me drinking 2 cups of Milk Tea is kinda sadistic.
haha. ;p
so i just made 1 ordered, purposely ignoring the buy1 free1 promotion.
but the girl was so nice to remind me...
hmmm. -.-
so i ordered ChatTime Pearl Milk Tea and Grape Smoothie.
it kinda sucks for me to carry two cup of drinks on hand with no one sharing it. T.T
NO WONDER people always say, Sharing is Caring.
i now know, LITERALLY. haha.. doesn't make sense? ;p

so, i spend my whole day studying Corporate Law, ugh.
it's not that i don't like it, you know. it's interesting,
but the fact that i don't have a textbook and i'm doing extra work than the others to write down allllllll important points into words so that i can bring it into the exam hall kills me!! *finish one whole sentence with no pause in one breathe*
D;
i got so discouraged when i look at all the 12 topics i have to study...
i'm still in the crisis of whether to purchase a freaking-119AUD-just-to-use-it-once&only-will-use-it-once textbook or type alllll of the points into the computer and freaking print it?
any suggestions? anyone? WILL APPRECIATE MUCH!
(:

my blog has been so un-picturetified, since the last post where i'd been back home!
i'm sorry. );
first of all,
i don't seem to make up here, or even doll up!
second,
i seriously don't see nothing i can take picture with. i live in the city! what is there to take? cars? or traffic lights? o.o
hmm, but of course, the main reason is no one to take with melarr. ;p as i'm SO NOT A camwhorer. o:)

i miss dolling up for parties, dinners, and dates. (;
i miss wearing lens.
i miss putting on mascara, eyeliner and lashes!
i miss putting on glossssss! :D
i miss heels!!

teehee. (: this was taken last year, before i left for a wedding dinner!

miss that cong? ;p

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我认为，

每个人都必须至少有一次的放任自己，

丢掉理智，

抛弃顾虑，

全心全意去完成一件自己一生只会做一次的愚蠢事情。

不在乎别人怎么想，

只想着，我不要后悔！

对不对？:)

我有想要这么对待的事情...会为我加油吗？♥

♥ ---------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥

p.s//my earnings has increase in like a day! muah first time!! xD though not much, but it has increased! haha. :) thank you people!! xoxo *please keep on clicking! nyahaha *evil laughs* o:)

价值增加了~~虽然不多，但谢谢大家~~ 继续哦~呵呵~ ;p

love, cong

One down.

One down, Two to go.
I've finish my FIM exam.
it was great, turns out the questions i studied all came out! and i manage to finish it within the time given, nah, better! i finish it before the time ends.
but oh my, the words of mine are so horrible!
i had nothing in my mind but all the answers pouring out like a spoil tap - waters kept flowing non-stop.
i sketch, scribble..just to finish it fast.
even i myself cannot stand the handwriting. what to do? limited time.
i wrote two booklets, maybe about, 12 pages?
pheeew. supposingly the time ends at 4.15pm, i finished at 3.55pm.
left the hall, and realise that melbourne's sky is so beautiful on that single moment.
seriously!
the sky was clear, there were breeze, and i was walking on a large green field.
i fell in love with that moment. (;
just that.
because when i travel back to the city.. -.-'
then i thought, nah, maybe i don't really like it afterall.
yes people, i prefer the suburbs so much more!
but my campus is in the city centre. i don't have a choice..);
or else, i'll be living in a small delicate town house, apartment now.
mmm, just the thought of it makes me smile.
C;


anyway, i'll be doing hardcore study from tomorrow onwards for my Corporate Law exam on the 11th. the one thing i'm grateful about? it's an open book exam!
as for Accounts, i've finish it in 2 days before my FIM.
hmm, everything is going okay for me now...
i can't wait to be home.. in like 2 weeks?


i had a deep talk with xen xen xen, yesterday.
it's been so long since we had such talks.
he's been busy, i was busy..
so yeah.
it was great. to know that you still have friends that can talk like that, and what's more, he's a friend of yours fo 8 years. (;
...oh yes people, i sacrifised my study time to talked to an idioit, a.k.a my best buddy!
it gives my heart the warm thrills to think that we were friends for 8 freaking years,
i never thought we could be friends when we were 13.
i mean, we were 13!? and now what? 20?
time flies.
maybe i don't remember everything we've been through, but i know. it's not little, not at all.
i remember we argued, so bad. we laughed, so loud.
i cried, and he was there..
we talk about my wedding, he said he'll be there as my 'ji mui/heng dai'a.k.a Maids of honour, mentioning that i will definitely have more 'heng dai' than 'ji mui'.
he even ask me whether if it's possible for me to be his 'heng dai'? haha.
it's so sweeet that he actually thought of me in his future. (;
i'm feeling nostalgic. isssh.
it really made my day you know?
even sin said, i was smiling as if something really good had happen. ;p
this is not what a normal being who's having finals tomorrow should feel!
haha.

though...
);
i wasn't able to make everyone happy.
i wish i can.
but i just can't seem to wipe away the sorrows from her.
how badly i wish i could.
i tried to talk, tried to comfort.
i know it hurts so bad.
of course, even i can't imagine how will i be if my .. my.. sister left me.
it ached my heart so bad..when i saw her eyes filling with tears.
my heart,quievering ; yet, i could do nothing.
but just to see her in pain...

您落寞的眼神，让我很心疼。
我却无能为力。
多么希望我能够为您分担您心里的痛苦，
时间是世界上最有力的矬子，
把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，
不再搁人。
我不知道我可以说什么，
但我会一直在这里。


love, cong

Halloween Post.

i'm feeling better already.
because,
she's in a very good place now.
and,
my mummy told me, she left while sleeping.
she didn't suffer from any pain..
and that's a relief.
if she had to leave,
praying for her to not suffer from pain before she leave it's the only thing we want, and wish for her.
i'll always remember her.

i guess i really learn now.
i no longer want the feeling of regret and grudge to torture me.
so, yeah.
seriously, guys.
appreciate the people around you.
and when you think that you have,
ask again,
are you really appreciating?
or just barely enjoying the moment?

if you ask me,
what can you do to show you truly appreciate?
honestly,
i have no answer either.
i guess this is a self-judegement thing...

HAPPPY HALLOWEEN, people!!!
back in my home country, we don't really celebrate.
but,
according to my list down there,
i realise there are readers for other countries that celebrate?
haha. :)
oh well, celebrate or not,
still,
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
what will you be this year?
ENJOY!!

though i'm in Melb now,
i still can't celebrate!
first of all, it would be a disrespect for my aunt to celebrate now..
and,
i'm having my finals tomorrow!! );
how in the world will you expect me to have fun tonight?!
brrrr.
VU arrangements for exam are so sucky! *at times -.-
....a slight moment of wild imagination,
i was just wondering what will i be if non of those happen..
and i still have no idea. o.o
oh well.

good luck for my finals!
i'll be home soon.
and to all my readers, thank you! CLICK CLICK CLICK okay? ;p
thank you..

love, cong

至挚爱的大姨姨

又一次的分离，

又一次的阴阳相隔，

到底，

上天还要向我应证多少次人生的脆弱？

到底，

要我承受多少次撕心裂肺般的疼痛，

才肯罢手？

。。。

我，

有心无力，

爱莫能助，

百般无奈，

遥不可及，

完全无能，

我连和您见最后一次的机会也是个奢望...

我到底还能为您做什么？

。。。

明明。

明明，在经历了无数次的分离，

我应该已懂得学会去珍惜，

可，

为什么我现在竟会觉得愧疚？

竟会觉得，如果当初我多学着点珍惜，那该多好。

我到如今才发现，

原来对您的了解，是少得那么的可怜...

那些往日所相处的时光，

我不曾忘，

却也没真正去感受过...

这种感觉不停的折磨着我...

。。。

人总是这样，

以为自己和别人都有无数个明天，

所以才会忘记了珍惜，

才会让自己挥霍一去就不再回头的光阴，

总要到失去了，

才后悔，才学着珍惜。

我明明就和自己约定好，

不会再重蹈覆辙，

却还是抓不住...

。。。

我知道您一定会到很好很好的地方去，

却还是忍不住地揪心...

我放心，

却还不能释怀。

我面对，

却还不能原谅。

我明白，

却还不能谅解。

为什么在我们都那么的努力的时候，你却放弃了自己？

不是说好要等我回来一起过新年？

不是说好要做年饼让我吃？

不是笑着说好要目睹我所谓的梦想婚礼吗？

我都还没有能力孝顺您!

您甚至连您自己女儿的婚礼，都还没看,

为什么还是放弃了？

就差那么一点点，

你就可以挨过了...

我真的无法谅解！

。。。

我...

不！

我们，

都不想失去您。

可，

谁又能将离去的您挽回？

谁又忍心见您痛苦？

...

所以，

我们，也放手了。

我们，所有人，

所有爱您的，和您爱的，

都会为你，连着您那份未完的人生，

好好活下去。

。。。

你在那里，一定也要好好活~

不会忘，
因为忘不了。
不会爱，
因为无法再更爱了...
195* - 2010，我们永远的亲人

love, cong

sweetdream

考试即将来临，

首次，

我完全对考试没信心。

也不知道为什么,

是因为我现在身在何以往不一样的地方吗？

还是，因为我不在家里？

。。。

我慌了。

该怎么办？

如果考试考不好，

我该如何面对爸爸妈妈？

我该如何面对他们对我的期望？

他们失望的眼神？

他们必须反过来安慰我的温柔？

。。。

我不要，

我不要那种事情发生...

我不允许自己会有那么的一天，

我从来都是可以独立面对一切，又让他们放心的小孩，

这次，

也一定不列外，

我可以的！

对..不对？

加油！陈子聪，加油吧~

。。。

也不知道是不是因为这样，

‘她’昨天对我特别的眷顾，

让我发了一场美梦~

那梦，真的好甜，

我知道，在熟睡中的我是微笑着的.. (;

但也清楚知道，那，只会是一场梦。

不会实现。

我多么希望醒来时，会不记得曾经有过这梦，

因为他们说，若醒来不记得的梦，就会有可能成真的一天...

哈哈~

所以，梦就梦吧！

我依然很珍惜~ (:

。。。

刚才忍不住，和自己玩了个游戏，

如果在MallWorld的Wheel of Fashion 幸运抽到的是 mall credit，

那梦一定会成真，

结果，真的给我弄到了！

;p

平常都很难的哦~ *对我来说啦 (;

我很幼稚，对不对？

虽然，只是一种安慰自己的方法，

但我很开心。(;

加油~

。。。

对了，

最近超喜欢听泰国歌，

尤其是深情的。

现在已被ZEE 的一首I'm easy but lonely 迷倒~

you might be thinking, 'WHY!? WHY THAI SONG?'

haha, honestly, i don't know.

i really LOVE their language,

(especially their LOVE songs!!) *AND BABY SIN LOVES IT TOO!!

since i don't know when!

maybe since the day my daddy brought me to HatYai,

which is like..mmm.. i honestly don't remember.. -.-

cause i've been going there all my 20 years life!

though i never understand,

but their language fascinates me,

just like how French and Korean does to me! teehee. (;

i do know how to speak abit,

haha. nah, just 1 to 10 in Thai, 250.. and how much? haha. ;p

oh oh, and Sugar Cane in Thai as well! haha.

not only i love their language, but their food as well!
yum yum!

let's hope i'll be going HatYai again this year,

and maybe this time, i REALLY can take photos of how HatYai is.

*yes, i use REALLY because i failed back in June. my camera spoilt on the moment i reach there. -.-*

。。。

还有，

吴克羣的‘没关系’，和‘我能给的’！

两首超棒的~

‘没关系’是诉说一个男的和自己深爱的女子分手了，

却责怪自己没福气，却又异想天开的爱上她...

我完全被他的歌词打动~

歌词真的好好~

竟然有种似曾相识的感觉... 呵呵~ ;p

至于，

‘我能给的’就是把男人的心声实实在在的写了出来，

每个男的听了，都应觉得超赞的吧！(;

因为，身为女子的我都觉得动容。

赞~赞~赞~

Hmmm, which song should i put into my playlist? (;

p.s// Zee is NOT a boy, but a TOMBOY. i'm so shocked when i heard her voice, totally sounds like a guy~ she's a mix britain and indo but live in thailand. ;p haha.

love, cong.

深夜之反省篇

今天是我来了墨尔本，第一次到街上逛街，

也是，第一次一个人闲逛，

感触很深。

才明白，原来身边陪的无论是谁，

自己都是幸福的~ (:

。。。

逛街对我来说，从不陌生，

但来到这里，

真的觉得有点别扭，

也不知是为了什么...

找了好久，
逛了几乎一天才买到爸爸，妹妹和姐姐的，
弟弟和妈妈，还有阿姨的，今天暂时放弃了~ -,-

赶紧回家上skype和妈妈分享，

感激，兴奋他们都喜欢。(:

目前可以给他们的，真的不多，

但我会加油~

将来一定可以给更好更好的~~(;

。。。

刚才，做了个决定，

这决定让现在的自己和昔日的自己显得很自相矛盾，

说真的，

我好像真的有点讨厌总是那么‘冲’得自己，

以前的我，

每次说话都说得很绝，

才导致今日如此尴尬和不真实的情况，

因为没留余地，

所以显得如今很做作。

。。。

来了这里，让我想了很多，

以前的我，

总是爱用自己的偏见去评断某个人，

这样似乎有点过分，

所以，现在后悔了，

应该要改了。

如果，他们真如我‘偏见’以为得那样，

那，

到时才放弃，也不算迟，对吧？

这样，最起码，对自己，对他们，都是公平的。

至少，我现在是这么认为。

所以，

在这里，

我代表以前的我，为我曾经说过很过分的话，

真心道歉。

;)

对不起。

子聪，错了。

是所有人噢~

爸爸，妈妈，姐姐，妹妹，弟弟，姨姨，sin，我所有的love ones, 认识的朋友，甚至不认识的陌生人...

对不起。

。。。

或许我可以改，

但我的率性应该改不了吧~ 呵呵~

到最后，努力了，相处了，

如果和我的原则有落差的话，

我喜欢就喜欢，憎恶的还是会讨厌吧~

。。。

毕竟，

我总不能因为配合某人而委屈求全，

失去我的本性，

放弃我的原则！

那不是陈子聪。(;

。。。

可能或许因为这样，

会有人受不了我，而离开..

但留下的，都是我真正的朋友噢~

因为喜欢我的坦率，接受我是个直肠子，

才会了解我，

才会一直待在我身边~ (;

。。。

我只要希望待在身边的人，一直待在身边，

就够了。(:

。。。

妈妈，我想，我渐渐可以明白，您和‘她’一直坚持要我待在这里，不让我回国的原因了...

因为，好像连我自己，都喜欢上这种慢慢摸索进而改进的感觉。(;

。。。

晚安。

love, cong.

wae? means, why in Korean. (;

YES!

My first question,

last one,
goes round and round in my head for ga-zillion times!
WHY!?

WHY are Korean Guys SO HOT!?

WHY!?

WHY are Korean Dramas SO ADDICTIVE!?

at least,

it makes me go insane everytime. ;p

I LOVE KOREAN DRAMAs!!

TOO BITS!!!

ooops,

and i LOVE KOREAN ACTORS. :)

i don't care they had plastice surgery or what,

i just love them!
looking at them makes me wonder,

how in the world do such BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE exists?

how come i never meet one myself? );

teehee.

so,

cong fell in love, once again. :)

with, Bek Seung Jo - JiHu( from BOF)'s name in Mischievous Kiss!

aiyor, actually,

his real name is Kim Hyun Joong. (;

Picture Puuurrfeccctto!! Of course!! (; there's my junpyo and my jihu! C;

the way he smiles, awww. (; you can fall for him in like what? 1 second?


and of course, he looks great even when he's emotionless. ;p

Seung Jo! :) he even looks great in curly hairr!
i wanted to post more of his photos on the later episodes of Mischievous Kiss, but i can't find it yet. Maybe some other time. (;

Okay.
Kim Hyun Joong/Yun JiHoo/Bek Seung Jo, you guys have met him, like way back on my previous posts.
But,
this guy here, it's his FIRST APPERANCE in my blog!! (;
he's not the sunshine kind of cute guy,
STILL BREATHE TAKING!
seriously, no joke.
especially in BLACK!
black is like, made for him!

i hereby, introduce my new love. (;
*or maybe i should say, introduce another new love into my list! xD

NO MIN WOO!!!

i really love this picture of him! :)
first, he's in black.
second, he's hair is black.

third, he's eyes are black.
fourth, he didn't post for this. i like!! x 10000. C;
teehee.

he acted in My Girlfriend is a 9tailed fox.
as the second male lead.
yup, then again,
the second male lead are always the sweetest!! yet, never gets the girl..
);
in this drama, it's much worst.
because,
the female lead was his lost love few thousand years back,
the grandmama god used her spirit and made the current female lead.
and he never gets her love even then..
what's worst?
he has to suffer this heartbreak for many many thousand years,
since he'll never aged. *yup, he's half demon half human (;
that's what makes this drama so COOOOL! C;
A MUST WATCH!
more more more...



too hot to resist? :)

he's a vet in the drama!! A BONUS!! :) hot compassionate guy. C;

drooling... ;p

!!! (*;


DANG! BLACK makes HIM HOTTTER!!
i ain't joking right? :)

HE SINGS TOO! the SoundTrack for this drama - Trap. Oh my! addictive! ;D it's the song they played everytime he's on screen... verrrry niceeeeee...

speaking of this drama,

i believe you guys have seen the male lead?

Lee Seung Gi.

No?

hmm, well,

i don't know issit just me or what,

but i really think he looks like one of my fav entertainer, Huang Hong Sheng a.k.a Xiao Gui.

YUP! he works with Show Lo in the 100% Entertainment News. :)

COMPARE alright?

this is Lee Seung Gi. C; cute boyy~ love him too!
and i love the female lead, Shin Min Er. :D she's ubbberrrr cutee!!! (;

and this is Xiao Gui.
maybe its the way they smile?
or because, they both have dimples?
they just look alike. o.o
for me lar.. ;p

do they? :)

i had a looong day.

woke up at 11am, went to campus to finish PD project with my groupmates! :)

i had fun! i get to know them more.

and i find that, gosh, i'm the youngest!

one of them is 24, another 23 and one is 21. ..

i'm already the youngest among my gang,

it feels great to be youngest again now.

haha. ;p

anyhoo,

we work till 5pm. o.o

crazy right?

i thought so! never did i stayed in campus for that long!

IT'S BASICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME IF I WERE BACK IN MAS!

;p

then i left to QV to get some herbal tea.

preparation for all the late night studies. o.o

and had dinner with my groupmates! ;)

oh! they are, Lilian, Simon and Neville. :)

teehee.

nice people! C;

planning to have my PD3 with them again next semester!! ;D

Neville send me home then.

this is the first time i was sent home by car in Melbourne,

usually, cowie, kyle and chun walk me home.

it's great. :) miss riding on a car. haha.

long day,

but.. not so great!

WHY!?

because, Mischievous Kiss ends at episode 16!!

WHAT THE F?!

there don't even have the scene where Ha Ni got into the Nurse Program,

and no scene where Seung Jo is jealous of some other guy. );

....

Not even, the scene where he gave her a birthday present..

pffft.

i want more!!

make a 2nd episode!

me and sing will be the first one to watch!! :)

right?

alright. enough for today. :)

i'm tired.

sweet dreams.

p.s// glad that you stayed! :) please know, we all want you, need you here so much! you still have to attend my wedding!! so STAY. i know you can hear me. iloveyou. (;

love, cong.

冲动和理智之间的挣扎

讨厌group assignment!

最讨厌了！

以前，都有朋友一起做，

互相互相。

如今，

我却一个人承受所有。

组员又不争气。

一个人真的好累，

真的好想放弃，

放弃那所谓的未来，

那是冲动。

冲动是不被允许的..

我真的快不行了，

我真的快崩溃了，

好想哭，

大声哭，

把心里所有的不甘，不愿，寂寞，无奈，

都哭出来。

可，

又如何？

问题解决不了，还耽误了时间，

能不能告诉我，

我该怎么办？

我应该怎么办？

首次明白，

无奈，真的让人很痛苦，

那种明明知道不可能自己希望在身边的人在身边，

却还是无助地希望着..

原来是这种感觉。

我真的好辛苦...

第七年

你可曾想过？
我们之间的擦肩而过，
是你的意愿， 我的不情愿， 还是缘份的坚持？


那年，
我们还是小孩，
我，被青春迷惑，
你，置身事外，却愿意陪我沉沦..


你一直假装着，
我一直相信着，
我们彼此都没说破，
是希望它有一天能成真？
还是明白了开始是错误的？

错，就错吧。
我宁愿就这样错一辈子！
可你呢？

我，
是真的喜欢过。
可你呢？

我不要有天使为我祷告的一天，
却被迫接受那可悲的施舍。
由理想变成泪水，
由相恋变成暗恋，
许多年后的我们，
你依然是你，
而我，多了许多习惯，
习惯在夜里念着你，
习惯一个人傻笑着，
甚至，
习惯单恋你的感觉...

我，
依旧习惯。
更痛的是，习惯竟被事实伴随着。
原来那么爱我的你，和那么爱你的我，
都停滞在曾经的时候， 爱情...就结束了

我会学着，
让你在没有我的地方疯狂，
让我在没有你的世界坚强。

外面下雪了，
又过一年了吗？

时间仍在，飞逝的，是我们。

♥ THE REAL PROPOSAL OF THE YEAR! ♥

i'm am, too late to post this,

but i really just saw it, THIS MORNING!

and i hurried to share this with my family, and now here, with my love ones!

OH MY GOD!!

this is SOOOO a fairy tale came true!

every girl long and dream to have such proposal and wedding!! C;

and she, Leng Yein - a Malaysian Hot Model had what every girl wanted!

she got married on 10.10.10.

and was proposed on 09.09.09.

it's so sweet to think that her husband had planned it for so long! ♥this is one printed on the Star Newspaper. shocking enough?? :)

it's not at all, wait till you see the second one!
yup! on the billboard around Tropicana City Mall!
awww! every girl will burst into tears to see that. ;)
and then..


another proposal dinner suprise! in a Mamak. :) because they love Mamak.
it's all so pinktified and dreamy~


oh my! it's like a princess's tea time, full with pink&white flowers, AND cuppie cakes!!

♥

feel the love in the air! C:

this is her, the lucky girl. :) LengYein.

the cake. :)
the decorations!
the souvenirs of that night. :)
and of course,

the one thing that indicates you're taken by him/her FOREVER.

OH MY! :)

i heard it's from DeGem.

captivating? fascinating isn't it? :)

even the band it shaped as a heart. :)

touching enough?
girls, can't take it already?
wait till you see the wedding!
it was breathe taking!
swept me off my feet!!! C;
seriously,
is THAT great! awesome! use any word that describe something bazaarly great!
but i don't think i can post any pictures of the wedding here,
it's not right. i guess?
but it's on LengYein's facebook!
trust me, girls. go have a look.
and you'll be thinking,
' DAMN, how ever more lucky can she be! that's what i want for my wedding too! '

trust me!
or maybe is just me being so caught up with the wedding idea.
teehee. :)
but seriously, go have a look.
it's beautiful!
they even had their wedding photos taken at the snow moutain to present a white fairy tale theme! :)
the wedding dinner venue was decorated with a man made tree, known as the love tree, all white, leaves hanging down,
you know, like the avatar tree!
the cocktail dinner and the flower decorations! :)
the dress, the shoe, the makeup, the car, the wardrobe! and the people.

the link to view her wonderful wedding :
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=lf#!/lengyein?v=photos
there's total 6album! :)

this is the link to view her wedding video :
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=452282396796&ref=mf

my, it's really wonderful. :)
i envy her so much.
so here, i wish LengYein and her husband,
永远幸福快乐！
百年好合！
执子之手，与子偕老！♥

and also, for everyone that's inlove, soon to be in love or still searching for love,
愿天下人有情人终成眷属！♥

:)

♥ LOVE IS SO IN THE AIR! C; ♥

love, cong. C; going back to do meet her biggest enemy - assignment. D;

the ultimate sweetest cuppie cake!

i'm enjoying BIG M's chocolate milk. :)
damn! their chocolate milk tastes better than ours back in Mas. huhu~ ;)
it's the only thing i drink other than skyjuice.
i was thinking, since i want something sweet yet not fattening or unhealthy,
might as well take milk than softdrinks. C;

i've been back here in Melb for quite some time,
of course, one thing you should never doubt that i am, always, will always be missing you wonderful people back in Mas.
the feeling is very confusing,
sometimes, it hurts so bad.
yet, sometimes it's tooooo sweet that i can't help it but smile. ;3
so i'll tell myself, cong! few more weeks, just hold on for few more weeks and you'll be home sweet home!
yup! that's the only motivation i have given myself from the very first day!
the assignments are killing me!!
i have two dued next week, on the freaking same day! brrrr.
but then again, what's a student life without assignments, right? :D
oh well!

nothing special happen over here.
but how's everything over there?
doing fine, everyone? :)

being here, far far away from home gives me loads and i mean LOADs of time to think stuffs through..*maybe too many! xD
my sister said i've changed on the last trip home.
it makes me wonder.
did i?
she said, to her, i give her a more mature feeling now..
is this a good thing?
then again, i thought..
my mummy used to say that i have this merit, advantage or whatsoever you called it.
she says, i'm the happy-go-lucky kind,
the kind that in a cantonese sayings, 'even if the sky falls down, he/she will take it as a blanket..'
did i get it right? ahh, it's 天塌下来也当被盖。
it describes a person who basically takes everything easily and happily.
but am i?
i doubt so,
maybe i used to be, but no longer.

if i am,
how come i can't accept changes?
if i am,
how come i can't stop missing home?
if i am,
how come i keep wanting to go home?
if i am,
how come it hurts when conflicts happen between me and my love ones?

do i have to lose myself like that?
to lose the only advantage i have in me?
grr, i hate growing up. it makes you lose the original you.
and the worst of it?
you can't get it back,
because when you do, you're literally trying to force/gain something back.
people will say you're fake.
boohoo.

what to do?
life...
so full of worries...
:)

love, cong.

my mid sem break in MAS. :)

PREPARE FOR A SUPERRRRBB LONG POST!

i had my mid sem break back in MAS.
it was great, no! more than great, to be home! :)
the moment where the plane touched down, and the captain said, '...to visitors, welcome to Malaysia, and to Malysians, welcome home.'
gosh, i almost cried that very moment! tears were already in my eyes. but i held on.
lol. i bet people will think that i'm nuts! ;p
anyhoo,
i reached safely..
and sin was standing right there to welcome me !! ;) lee as well.
we had MACDEE for breakfasttt!!
miss having macd breakfast with sin, or to say, with someone. haha. (;
my eyes were superrrb red though, why!? didn't sleep AT ALL on plane..

i was darn hyper on the way home! :)
missed MAS's car and car no.plate. lol! silly me. ;p
first thing when i reach home!?
call for PHUMBAA BOY!
and guess what? he still remembers me!
he ran, jump on the sofa where i was, and started merajuk-ing! C;
awwwww, i miss phumbaa doing that to me.
overwhelmed with happiness!
then went to kiss Felix and welcome Chanel!!
after all those lovey-dovey scenes, i dug out all snacks i carried back from oz!
my whole bag was practically full with snacks! haha. :)
i even brought Macaroons home! heh. C;
the next thing i did!? hop on my bed and roll on it..
ahhhh. the best thing in life is to get to sleep on your own bed huh?

i slept for like an hour only.
because i have to get prepared for a wedding dinner in bentong.
exciteddd! because my first dinner is gonna be cuisines made for wedding!!
OH MY! the dishes was GREAT! especially the TONG-BO MEAT.
my mummy had to stop me from eating. imagine. o.o
the satisfaction, the wonderful people around me..
mmm. :) love that night.
busy, busy, busy..
next morning, my family left to raub for a soft lauch of my daddy's project!
cong is so proud of her daddy! because the housing project was awesome!
i never knew how my daddy's project looks like, it was great to get to see his signature under the 'pemaju' titled. haha.
i was even joking to my brother when he wanted to touch the house model where people weren't allow to touch..
i was like : boy, i know this belongs to your father, still don't touch it!
justjoking. :)
but i had fun, like uberrrrb fun! i love hanging with my family!!
we talked and laugh!! i can't believe i missed it sooooooooooooooooooooooo muccch!

later that night, i went dinnner with my awesome love ones!
it was a dinner to celebrate for out september and october babies! :)
awwwwww.
i miss them mucch! so so so so so so so happy to get to see them!!
though not all of them, but happy enough!
went to tee's after the dinner, enjoying, relaxing, chilling and OF COURSE, toook plenty photos!!
this part me of me never change. ;p
i had the best sleeep that night, never felt better. mmmmm~~

3rd day, went for a movie with my family. :) The Legend of Fist - Chen Zhen. :)
i felt super pampered and love, because my family asked me what i wanted to eat!
so i chose Canton-i.
was kinda disappointed though, they had better food before.
and there's no more roast goose. D; big no no!

then my mummy's birthday celebration, C; we had dinner in a chinese restaurant!
got mummy a small LongChamp bag. she wanted a marketing bag, so yeah, marketing bag as you wish!! teehee.
and yammchaa with my peeeps, :) didn't stay as late as i expected! xD but tonnes of fun!
Malacca food trip with sing, yih, qian, sin and yih!! i was real happppyyy!! even now i still miss it! it's was wonderfull. we should do it again!
the next destination will be penang and langkawi, alright!? :D
mmm, ohhh! Picnic in FRIM with my family and relative..it was kinda celebration for my brother's birthday as well! hmmm, what should i get him!? :) hehe. shhh, it's a secret.
i wanted a nice cake for him too, but it was too late. ;( feel bad... haiseh..
MY OH MY, though i feel grateful about mother nature..and i heart it too,
but please never ask me to BE IN IT for too long..
i hate it. the GIGANTIC ANTS, the annnoooyyyinng cold leeches..
GRRR!!!!! BIGGIE NO NO!!
but i had to admit, the scenary and the greens was great!!! :)
we should do it too? right guys?
another yamchaa in Ss2 with to see kok and cowie and chunkeat!! :D
all and all i had funnn!!

ONE WORD to sum it all up,
FANTASTIC!
i really love being back in MAS. :)
i'm thrilled to see all my love ones, and i hope you guys feel the same as well. C;
this trip back home made my life here in oz so unreal.
being back home makes me feel that i was never in oz, never lived alone here in oz, never had left home..i don't know why. but i like! :*)
and and, somehow i felt daddy was happy too. daddy never really shows how he felt, but this trip home..i actually felt daddy and mummy was glad that i was home. :)
evidence :
daddy was in the petrol station paying for petrol, usually he just pays, get his cigarette and leave..but that day, before he pays, he came out and ask us what do we wanna buy!
awww. i know to some of you, it's nothing. but to me, it was touching. :) hehe. even mummy was like, what's up with him today, why so nice? haha!

on the day itself where i was about to leave, i went shopping with mummy in MNG. :)
phewww. misssed shopping! i manage to get two pieces, mummy too!
the day before, both my sistas got some from MNG as well!!
loveee shopping with themm!!
guess we are all MNG lovers!! C;

let pictures tell the story alright? (;
it goes backwards - from picnic to Malacca then mummy's bday and finally the sep+oct babies celebration!

re-acting the lionking scene, where simba was shown to all on the pride rock! ;p - FRIM

boy is officially 9!

Malacca (;
we da pao pork satay and eat at the roadside when the shop is just one block beside!! xD

Mummy's birthday. C;

phumbaa boy kiss kiss!!

mummy's prettty pretty cake! :)

i wanted to show more! especially the family photo.. but..

i manage to grab this corset petite dress from topshop last minute! and it's only rm70! love it!!

Sep + Oct babies birthday celebration!! :Dmummy tied my hair for me!! cong love it!! C;
group 1, with cheesing. :)
group 2, with kwankit and his girl. :)
dinner in de italian restaurant! i love foood there! yum yum! will be back soon! :)

i'm counting down again,

10 days was too short.

i can't wait to go back again!! :)

i want the CAKE!!

love, cong.