busy

superb busy. :(

god's jealousy

god's jealousy,
can be so...
scary.

god is jealous of him,
that's why he took him away?
right?
he wants him back.
because god is jealous.

life can be so fragile,
so unfair.
he's only 36!
not even half of his life he had gone through.
just married, with a child of one.
he's a good boy, a good guy, a good man.

he didn't even get a change to complain he had such ...
and then he left.
after 'feeling' his wife is here with him..

so infair.
what has he done to deserve this?
what has his parents done to get this?
losing a daughter 12 years ago when she was 19,
and not the son, when he's still so young!

is it true?
is is for real that god is mad and sick of all the bullocks?!
but what had he done?

...
life is so fragile, so unpredictable,
so petty.
...
appreciate is the right act to handle this ... petite life.
....
i really don't know what to say,
..
stay strong.

may you rest in peace.
you'll always be inside their thoughts, memories and heart.


love,cong.

17th, 18th and 19th part 2

:)

this post is more to 18th, only a small but important part of 19th. :D haha.

so, on the 18th of April, is my beloved sister sweet sixteennn! :)

to make it special, we ordered a really lovely cake!! it's light purple in colour, with sugar fonde of hearts and flowers.

i personally love the cake!! :)

i told sin i want ont before i leave. hehe.

we had our dinner at Tram Car. i don't know why daddy likes that place so much!

the foood was okay, but the environment? not so goood. it's kinda noisy in there.

then i found out, my daddy knows the owner.

so i guess, that's the reason?

and, he loves the onion soup there!! :) haha.

this was the outfit i wore. :) i love the chiffon blousee. i'm gonna get more of these!! :)

it's very light to wear, and.. it make girls look more girl-ish. which is something i need!

i'm look more like a TOM BOY. not enough girly~ grrrrr.

hungry daddyy!! haha. :) he was so hungry that he ignored the women of his life when she was talking to him! haha.

typical daddddy. foood is his first priority!!!

nah, just kiddding.

mummy is always daddy's first priority. ;) then followed by us. :) this i know!

right after we finished dinner,
we rushed home for the final episode from AOD.
not me, but my daddy mummy. :)

below is a photo my sister took!
i couldn't stop laughing because daddy was soooo obviosuly forced to take this picture!!
look at the way he smilesss!
my gosh!
he didn't really like to take photos outside.
why? i don't know.
but before that, he scolded me 'always take picture everywhere, like your house only!! people who don't know you, will comment that you're such a 'san fan'!! ( in cantonese it means, uncivilised people, who comes from ulu ulu place! ) hahaha!! xD
then mummy defended me by saying ' she's not taking the place also, she's only taking herself. cannot meh?'
daddy kepy quiet. :) hehe.

i love this picture. :) :) love love love it!! i miss you. :( ♥

scroll down then you'll know where i got this ribbon from!! haha.
we were camwhoring! so yeah. :) played with all the accessories we had!! :)
girls..*rolls eye* xD

this is the birthday girl! :) i guess she's wishing that i'll be prettier! haha.
no lerrr. :) maybe for her prince to arrive sooon?
hehe.
i hope she loves the present i got her.
hmmm, it's a pair of flats. :) pale pink with blings blings on it!! :D
it's a lot her style...girlish-ie~ ♥

yup! that's the ribbon i tied on my head. :)
this is the cake. :) pretty isn't it?
as for the real real cake.
it's below. :)
remarkably awesome right??
i'm really satisfied with the design of the cake.
not overly decorated, simple and prettttyy. :)
like the old english style. :)
mmmm, and the colour! so sweeeet~~
of course, the cake was delicious in everyway!!
we finished it in 2 days!! :) usually, the birthday cake in our family will be left for a week or two?
can you imagine how goood the cake is? :D


a nice and perfect family photo will wrap this up. ;)
i love taking family pictures! so does mummmy!! :)

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19th of April!
someone was born on 19th April 1990.
a very important person to us. :)
lame sometimes, crazy all the time. *winks!
but a really nice guy.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KOK!! :) :) ♥ ♥
i hope you enjoyed your birhtday!! :) :)
muacxxxx~~



p.s//about my flight time, i don't think i should be telling it here. :) hehe.
p.p.s//THANK S GUYS!! for the one who wished my sister on the FB. thank you so muchh!! :)



love, cong.

17th, 18th and 19th part 1

heyyyloo! ;)
i'm done with the busy-ness!! :)
i'm slightly free now,
which is why i'm here to blog what had happen when i was MIA-ing. haha.
on the 17th, me and my family attended my cousin's wedding. :)
it was real sweeeeet. haha. i love the wedding photos she took!!
so freaking sweeeet!!
had me the urge to get married!! haha. just for the photos though! xD
sin was at my place, studying my accounts to teach me during the weekends. :) thank you darling. ♥ ♥ :) :)

that's the newly wed couples!! :)
everyone was happy for her. :)
we were happy that we can gather together and chat! haha. ;p
the dinner starts at 7. but daddy rushed like nobody's business and we arrived at six sharp! o.o
my god!!! we waited for 2 hours to get our dinner started!!
all of us were starved by softdrinks. o.o
seriously.
but it was wort to wait. everything went on well. :)
the earliest to come, the earliest to go.
brrrrr.
we wanted to stay longer, but then, daddy and my brother wanted to go home eagerly.
urgghhh.
but it was okay, because daddy and my brother was feeling unwell. :) so yeah.
plus. i had to go gome. sin waited tooo long. :D hahaha!

pictures tells the story.
i'm too lazy to edit the photo one by one! it's too much!!
haha.
well, i am a lazy blogger, plus i'm not the pro one. so it's okay! :)
no one will snatch my photos or anythingg. :):)

the cousins and nieces plus nephews. :)

mummy. :) ♥
i had my make up done in Shu Uemura. :) it was free, so yeah.


daddy!! ♥
my brother. :)

younger sister.
elder sister! my god!! i love her dressss!!!

of course, i ♥ mine too. my precious. :)

Mr and Mrs.Tan ♥

she complains that my camera only take good pictures of me!! :D haha!! but i don't think so.

i think my camera always bully me. :( pffft.

adeline, leng~ ♥
:)

the bride..and the bridesmaid! haha. just kidding. :)

i precisely love this photo. ♥ :)

camwhoring. it's in the blood line huh? xD

cheeeers!! :D

knowing me,

you should know i tooook toonnnnnneeees of photo but only keeep it to myself!! haha.xD

maybe, i'm weird.

or maybe, i'll uploads it in the next post. ;)

but for now,

time for me to rest. ;p

next post, 17th, 18th and 19th part 2 - will be on my younger sister's birthday!! :D

and my departure time. :)

love, cong.

occupied

i'm really occupied for these few days,
and maybe until next tuesday! :(

mid semester test, assesments, online tests and so much more. :(

girls, maybe i'll inform you about the idea sooner okay? :D
thanks darlingss. :D
but be prepared, it's freaking crazy!


love, cong

to you.

i know there's not much i can say,
you're always so caught up in your own thoughts, your own point of view...
but really,
hear me.

you remember when our dear brother came to us?
2.10.2002.
i remembered,
we used to be fighting badly, just to hold him in our arms.
it was still great, no, better.
you were still so close to us...

back when we were younger,
the three of us used to play games together,
imagined there we're teacher teaching students,
playing with cooking utensils, using sands and newspaper to play hawker stall, imitating OL's with mummy's handbags and heels, and the hopping game with a rumberband rope...
do you remember those days?
i can still remember so clearly, the happiness we had.
we loved each other so much!
but then, still, you never had let us know what were you really thinking..

now, it's even worst,
when you're in success now,
you tend to throw every bit of happiness behind..
you keep to yourself even more now.
i know you have the ability to take care of your own matter now,
but we just wanna be informed about your life,
we don't wanna miss anything in your life,
simply because,
we are your family.

nomatter how strong or capable the one person is, sometimes, he or she still needs a shoulder to cry on, to held well in one's arms.

mummy loved you so well,
maybe never the way you wanted,
but always the right way.
look how well of a person you have become?
it's because of the love from her that you never wanted.

we care, but are we allowed to? are we given any chance to?
when you don't even wanna tell us stuffs.
we cared.
for you, also in a wrong way that you never wanted.
what do you expect, especially from her?
she gave you life,
she loved you from the minute you were layed inside her.
how can she be not worried? how can she be not over protective?
look at how the society has became.
can you not be worried for me if i were in your shoes?

she loves you. he loves you. we love you.
she said 'how many times does she wanna stabb right into my heart to realise how hurt i am?'
i remembered 'you're crying, but my heart is bleeding. can you see that i'm tearing inside?'
....
doesn't this already prove how much she loves you.
like the old one once said '爱得越深，伤得越深。'

remember how she had to stayed up late nights to take care of you when you were sick?
remember how she stayed in the hospital with you?
remember what she did for you during your Secondary school in KuenCheng?
remember how she guide you from your problem when you were crying on the phone?
remember how she had tried to help you to fix things?
so please, love her. love him.
love her, love him in the right way.
the way a daughter should. just like how she and he did, a way of parent's love to their daughter.
she's just trying to protect you with all she can...
because you're her daughter!

both of them are getting older day by day, year by year,
look how we had grown from a child to now, a young lady.
can't you see how time flies?
do you honestly don't care?

nomatter what happen,
even if the whole world abandons you.
we will still be here with you.
because we love you.
because we care for you.
because we are family.
and this, will never change.

please consider what i said,
and then decide.
decide issit right to just let everything be,
or issit the time for a little change?



love, cong

feeling better

i'm feeling way much better, after yesterday's incident.

thank you, sin.

thank you, daddy and mummy.

thank you, jie. :)

i was down this morning. but sin cheered me up!! :)

which made me had this really CRAZY IDEA~~~

QIAN, CIND, MO, KIM, WEIRU!! (ying bao bei, i don't know if you can make it back. :)if you can, welcome~~) i have this reallly crazy idea to share with you girls!!

i don't know if it's gonna work.

i hope it does,

but we have to give in, BIG TIME!

hmmmm,

still considering.

even sin have no idea about this! haha. :)

DATE NIGHT was funnny! :)

laugh so bad with dear sin.

again, thank you. :) :)

i have nothing much to blog. :(

kill me.

p.s// i hate UNI! i want HOLIDAYSS!!

love, cong

restless

i'm proud that i got you.
are you proud that you have me?

don't judge me so easily,
you've known me so long.
why?
stop hurting my feelings over and over again.
i have.. only a paper heart...

i feel..
restless.
upset.
bad.
why!?!?!

but then,
i feel..
even worst..
to have to hurt her..
like that.
i'm sorry...

love, cong.

a sunday post

first of all,

i wanna say thank you to catherine. :) really, thank you so much girl. you know why. ;) *winks

secondly.

i would like to apologise. to whom?

tee. :) sorry dear teee. i know you're really really double extra sweet to forgive me stupidness. :D *weiru...:) sorry about yesterday too. please help me lessen tee's disappointment/anger or anything ..:) you're my shield!! hehe. thank you! muacxxxx!*

yesterday, i sent my sister to OU to hang out with her friends.

i stayed there as well. i didn't wanna waste petrol and toll. most of all, i didn't wanna get stuck in a jam.

if i were there, i can make her go home. if no one is there, at the same mall with her, she would probably go home anytime she wants. ;D haha!

i'm a fool to let myself alone!! so, i invited qian. :)

we waited for sin and lee.

as we were walking randomly around,

suddenly.... :( a guy came from behind and grab us on the arm!!!

!!!!

it's just rald and kimmmy!! :D hahahaa.

they were here for movie and lunch. we didn't wanna delay them, so we ask the sweeet couple to go on with their plan and we stay to wait. :)

took a photo with them..:) :)

soon, this photo will be 1960's, literally. haha. when all our hair goes grey! :)

after meeting up with sin and lee, we went to have lunch.
it was crowded everywhere!
why are people so free to hang out in OU when it's weekday?
hmm.
pissed me offf!
i wanted Nandos, but it was FULL.
TGI Friday? WORST....
my god!
what's wrong with the universe?!
at the end, we went for Garden. *i don't think the food is nice...from my point of view, maybe you're only paying for the environment?

:)
i couldn't take a full photo of qian, cause my camera coverage is too small. :( *pffft*
oh well. :)
lee suggested food massage!! everyone agreed! everyone was loving the idea!!! :D
but then, we end up shopppiinnggg. correction - window shoppping. :) hehe.
i wanted the Zara Boyfriend Jacket, but there's no size 2, only size 6 and more. grrrr.
went to Topshop, yeah they do, one single piece..under reservation..:( :( grr grrr.
someday, somehow i will own one!! and a motorcyclist jacket too! i already spotted that one!!! ;))

Ou was boring for me and qian. we walked everywhere. but still, time creeps so slow..-.-"
finally it went four! and we chao de mao~~
i was so grateful!
i reached home, then...
phumbaaa run towards me. and welcome me..:)
he's the most adorable living thing !! *aherm, felix and my other dogs too, of course. :)*
don't get fooled by he's apperance.
he may look fierce,
eventhough sometimes, he is fierce.
but there's anothe side of him only close related will get to see. :)
the Merajuk phumbbbaa~~
look at him!! :)

isn't he just cute?

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today, i finally get to watch Clash of the Titans.
rald and my sister told me it's not what you expected.
but i actually like it! :)
instead, i think i love it. :D
it was nice...funny..and well, dreammyy~
i wish i have a pegasus too. white fir and pink wings~~ :D it would be perfect !!

remember the part, where they had to wait for the Faron - the ferryman ( is that it's name? ) to take them to Medusa's? i heard a joke from the guy next to me!
i wanted to laugh so badly, but i couldn't. :)

Guy said : "thatmustbeonmu'sboat.youcanrideanytimeaslongasyoupay" :) haha.

小小提示: 试着从右至左读某个字。

*those who don't get it, ask me privately. ;)

love, cong.

stalker?

i barely know anyone in Uni.
i barely talk in Uni.
like rald said, i always run after classes.
yet, ......

they tend to know stuffs about me!
i'm not lying,
not trying to let you know how 'well-known' i am in uni.
heck no!
i'm just, slightly terrified.
some know what car i drove, when i don't even know him.
some know what result i have, when i never told anyone, except for one close uni friend.
some know i'm not single when i barely see sin in campus...

am i being paranoid?
or this is really something i should be worry about.

however, the 'some'S are, well, my course mates.

if you think i'm trying to show off how 'well-known' i am,
please. i'd rather be transparent in Uni.
just stay in my own little world and study.

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this morning i had breakfast with mummy and her friend, aunt C*
through their conversations, i can tell,
marriage is something everyone should learn.
it's a deep knowledge that requires tolerance, acceptance, courage and love.
are there still couples who gets married and live happily ever after?
i wonder.
if so, why are divorce rate increasing?
why can't couples just live like how happy endings are written in novels, and stories.
you chose your life time partner, why then decide to leave them?
what's wrong with the world?
what's wrong with homosapiens? or i should say, so called 'modern homo'..

i don't wanna be one of the divorce victim..
all my life,
i dream to have a happy family.
a caring, charming, sophisticated, dedicated, responsible, reliable husband, that loves me for who i am,
and lovable childrens,
my parents and siblings,
also my closets friends...
that's what i always wish for every night before i go to bed.

...and maybe loads of girl's dream too.

so please, guys who thinks they are not ready to get 'burried' by marriage, don't promise anything to the women you love!
don't try to act like you can be the reliable one, then decided that you can't try harder anymore or realising finally we don't match, i love her..all the bullocks!, and just left!
don't be irresponsible..
girls are meant to be loved, not fooled.
*i don't mean to offend anyone who are divorced or... had a broken family. if i did, i'm really extremely sorry*
*sorry if i'm too harsh, i mean no harm*


love, cong.

one night only

i had dinner with rald yesterday night. :) kimmy knows, and sin knows. :D
haha.
we had Pasta Zanmai. :)
it was great!
thank you, rald.
hmmm, maybe i don't need to thank him. he owed me this dinner. xD he knows why. lol! just kidding. :) thanks! really. and kimmy, thank you too. ;)) muacx. thank you, sin. MUACX~
we were arguing on how to fry vege, whether is sugar needed? :)
after we parked, so coincidently i saw sin and lee at the gate. although i know sin is in pyramid, but i never thought the world is so small. :) :)
or maybe, this is what we all fate? :D *giggles*

rald was busy on the phone, with kimmy? or wen again? hmmm. i forgot.
but it could be only them. :) :) hehe.
after the dinner, we went Kota Damansara's, Original Kayu to meet up with tee, qian, wen and yih. :)
yamcha~~
joining sai later at MJ. :) he was with yunxin, hao and some college friends.
i only said HI to yunxin. :) then i left.
i don't know anyone of them, ...lazy to know. :p haha.
maybe some other time?
i was exhuasted yesterday. sorry!!
reach home arround 12. went to bed. superb tired.
had a nice dream. :) :)

p.s// i like qian's new hair cut okay!! it's nice!! BUT GUYS, i just don't get it. they always have some issue with BANGS. why!?!?

p.p.s// goood luck for your mid term, kimmy!! :D

love, cong.

i ♥ F1

i ♥ F1!
:)
nah. i don't.
maybe, on the red bull team!! :) Sebastian~~
i just went to work in F1. me and my cousins, all went mad and decided to sign up for the job. :D
damn! we all regreted, well not all. but i definitely did!
you know what's so unfair?
the UGLY one gets to stand under the shades!
uggggggghh. i hate her! grrrr.
it was hell noisy! and freaking hot!
the sun has no mercy~~!!! :( my nose is so sun burnt! it's all red. now i look like rudolf-the-red-nose-raindeer. grr.
and sin? his face is so freaking dark! like tee said, an immigrant! x)
my sister turn freakign dark now, my elder sis has her eyes all red, my dear cousin adeline, her face is like ffreshh red tomatoe..my god! everyone got burnt under the HOT SUN!
but well, in a way it was fun! why? because the one we work with are cousins and friends. ;)
we had like small picnic thing. everyone brought different thing for lunch. some brought ice box with soft drinks, some bought fried noodle, some brought fruits, some brought fingers foods, and some brought herbal tea. :D :D :D hahaha!!
the bus trip was cool. it's like we're not coming home from work but a trip! xD
nice memorable thing. :))

thank god the weather was slight cloudy on the grand finale, where we have to stand right under the SUN!
i saw so many foreigners!
some of them are smoking hot!;) with just simple singlet on. haha. :p
loads of people took photo with us. i don't know why. o.o
i over heard that they thought we were Petronas Girls. NO way.
they are way much better. at least they get to have a huge freaking fan infront of wherever they stand. *pffft*
oh well. :)
some said i look gorgeous. :) :) and some commented on my too-short- shorts. some said i have nice legs and blah..:p hahahahahahaaha! okay okay, sorry. i should keep it to myself huh? forget about it then. o:) lol lol lol!!
llalalala.
it's over. and i think, we're not working for it anymore!
well, maybe on second thought, for those cute guys, i will reconsider. xD haha.
my gosh! i forget to tell what were we selling. okay, we were selling the Official Programme Books. which cost rm50 for one!
i know, freaking expensive right?!
it was funny, because one Mat Salleh commented on his friend after getting one, and i overheard. :p he was like '50 dollars for a fcuking programme?!' haha.
it was real funny. loads happen.
sin had to chase this small boy because that boy runaway with the programme book! haha. :D :D
here's are some shots i took. ;)

red bull.


sunway pyramid at 7am. :)

a video i took during the qualifying session. :) my battery was out, that's why it's so short. :p

love, cong.

my precious~

i have a confession to make.
it's... well, a lateaprilfool aprilfool!
but i really did manage to aprilfool you guys! :p
it's an early joke though.
my partner? Tan Karl Xen.
yup, we purposely fight on FB and post it up.
well, you know why. :) *sorrryyyy*
it was super funny.
me and xen was webcaming whiling thinking what to scold each other on each's wall! ;p
haha.
sorry to make you guys worried for us.
we are fine. :) we didn't quarrel. he didn't defend her, he didn't chose her over me.
in fact, in case you're wondering who's the 'her', ...
the 'HER' don't exist. it's a fiction! haha!
HAPPY BELATED APRIL FOOL! :) sorry loves.

about my precious. :)
there you go.
i really love it. i purposely drove from pyramid to OU just to get the one lucky last piece of XS on the same day, within an hour. :)
before i, had my eye on it. another young lady did too.
but she didn't ask for extra pieces on other outlets. and i did. :)
thank god! i'm soooo lucky!! :D

nice? i find it astonishing! :)

muacx muacx muacx, baby~ i let him down once again, yet, he still loves me so much. ;)

i didn't see sin the whole day. :(

well, the whole afternoon. he's working now.

i can't, before i had test today. so, i'll be joining him tomorrow. :D hehe.

i went over to tee's with cheesing after my class, and then had lunch. :)

we had lunch at Wong Kok, Giza. :) talk about short and long sighted! haha.

a reflection for today.

i was in PD tute class. then i saw this group who were made up of really close friends.

not friends that are made on week 1of the sem, but friends from long ago, many years. like us.

it was nice to see them wroking together, discussing, preparing for presentation.

it reminds me of us.

how long have i not work in a group with you guys?

boy oh boy, i miss those days.

when we can work in groups, discuss about ideas. laugh at each other ideas!!

don't you just miss it too? :D

p.s// 7 years ago, April 1st. Leslie Cheung's death - the forever Hong Kong talented singer.
...... it's a pain. i still remember, when my friend text me about it, i scolded them for lying. what i didn't know is...it was the truth afterall...
a huge loss for song lovers.. *i especially love this song of his.*

love, cong.