Michael Joe Jackson

i watched the MJ's memorial. i feel very sad about it. especially, when Stevie Wonder sang a song just for him, one of those lines, made me teared. i couldn't help it. it just comes to me. he did nothing wrong, nothing bad! why? why does he have to leave so soon? the line is 'Michael, why didn't you stay?' so sad...i answered him, as if he wanna leave.
and those foolish people who wanted his money! please, so so so so disgusting of you to do that! you know how much he's been through just to earn those cash?
you know how hard he trained to get what he has now?
you know the pain he has to go through?
you know the lost he had just for what he had today?
he started sinigng since he was 4! when everyone was enjoying their childhood, playing dolls, cars, mudds, water..anything but earning livings. his father, scolded him, beated him..those pain....he never had a good childhood, which is why he built Neverland. not only for the poor kids, but for himself. deeply, inside of him, he wanted all these while he was a child. but he couldn't have it that time, that's why now, when he can, he did it. to me, he's still a big kid. so, HOW IN THE WORLD will he MOLEST CHILDREN!? you know how awful the accusation was?
'Micheal put his tongue in my mouth, i told him i didn't like it, then he started crying.'
'He masterbated me to a climax'
all those...my gosh!! please, if you want cash! go earn it yourself! seriously. what are you? useless pile of sh**! ughhh. disgusting people. how can you people even did this?! risking people's life, reputation, harming them to benefit yourself? how could you?!

and to MJ, may you rest in peace. i know, sometimes later, you may not be that of a influence anymore. you see, no matter how great his performance was...when he left us, it's like he too brought away all the glimmer and shines. sometimes later, people will eventually forget, or i should say, they don't pay that much attention on 'it' anymore. life still goes on... BUT, MJ, you are a legend. a great legend, you set the history for the entertaining world. you were the best, and always will be. be proud of what you had done..you are a great man, and a good one. may god bless your soul, and rest in peace. we will continue your legacy for you....although i'm not really your fan, but...i respect you for you are a great person. love, cong.

whenever i hear this song, a wanting-to-cry feeling always crawl towards me...i feel very wasted for him to leave like that. i'm not very much a fan, but i like him. and his life story made me..feel very awful for him...
taken from his song 'though you're far away...YOU are not alone...; though you're far apart...YOU'RE ALWAYS in my heart..' you'll always have us..

p.s//i just come back from shopping. i spend all the cash i have in my wallet, which i'd promised sin to save it. i'm so sorry! but i couldn't help it!! i bought two heels. :p maybe... just maybe, i am a potential shopaholic?

love, cong.