adapting.

okay, so it's been days since i last updated.

i was trying really hard to adapt to the new environment after my mummy and aunty left.

i guess, i did quite fine, for now. :)

why?

because mummy and sin skype with me as many time as possible as long as i'm free,

of course, when they are free too. :)

plus, i got all my friends supporting me, caring for me, being there for me,

i just feel bad and wrong to keep staying in the state where all my friends would be so worry about me.

here, i have cowie, and chun. :)

therefore, cong, overall is fine now.

but never doubt her feelings for home, she still wants, and crave to go back very bad!

the first day of class,

i was nervous, afraid and excited..

hmm, weird mixture..but yes! i felt that way.

but in the end? disappointment....

the way the lecturer teach here is so different, also the new subject that i totally have no idea

about..makes me worry even more..

what if i don't get what i use to after i study here?

feeling the pressure already....

after class, i went home..so quiet..

that night, i cried so badly..infront of my mummy..

she teared too..

she told me, i'm not the only one that have to adapt to this new situation,

they back here, have to too...

and then she told me about the story of the eagle?

you know?

Mummy eagle breaks the bone on the wings of her baby eagles and throw them from high up to the ground,

the baby eagle, itself have to learn to struggle and fly..

or else, they'll die..

mummy eagle felt her heart ache inside, but have to be so cruel to train their baby to be this independent..

to be how all people see eagle as.. fierce, strong, ego, independent...

i understand how mummy feels, but i still miss home. :(

daddy saw, and he ask me to book a ticket and come home for sem break, even if it's for only a week plus.

he wanted to send my younger sister over here since she's having holidays,

but i didn't want to waste so much of daddy's money..

now i'm counting down for the day where i can go homee!! :)

the happinesss~~ haha.

mikhail called, jieshen called. :)

xen ask me yesterday night about my class,

about whether did i get bullied.

he said, if i did, call him, the whole HL gang, my boys! ;) will fly over here to help me.

one is already here, and the other, must take a few hours drive to reach here.

haha. stupid boy.

i know he's just saying to make me happy,

but i did feel happy. :)

at least i know, i am still 'there' with them.. :)

i know it myself, he don't have t prove anything anymore, he told me. :D

xen's sick, i wonder did he really listen to me and took medicine before he sleeps, and change at chunkeat's house. grrr.

i wanted to call everyone! since now i have a sim card that can call back to Mas for only half cent per minute!

but i don't have the contacts. :( because LG Ice Cream got into half on the very last day i left Malaysia. lol. how funnny! ;p

pictures, again. :)

aunty, mummy and cong.

on our way to ikea. :)

:)

hearts,

victoria market on Sunday Morning. look at those fairy dresses! so cute and colourful and pretty!like cheesing said, i'm a girl who he can gets present easily, as long as it's something colourful and cute! ;p

mummy and aunty loves market!! :D



Melb aqurarium with chun, may and cowie. :)

a fcuking huge stingray!

cong and mr.turtle! trust me, i ran round and round just to chase him! he can't stop swimming!

mr.sticky! :) i saw starfish that looks like cookies!!

you will never know what the hell is this!!

it's actually, SHARK's egg shell!

and this! the weirdest creature i've ever seen! mr. multi-talented! why!? because he has four legs, sort of the frog kind of species AND he CAN REGROW ANY OF ITS BODY PART! heart, liver, hand, brain, anything!

penguins~~

what long neck does the penguins has! o.o

last but not least, multi colour mouthwatering cupcakes!!! ahhh! :D

love, cong. :)

officially emo

...
it's 6 am in my home country, and 8 am here.
my mummy and aunty is on their way to the airport, flying back to Malaysia,
a place where those i missed most, love most belong..
i wanna go back with them too..
i reallly wanna go...

mummy said i'm a big girl now,
have to control my emotions and learn to grop up...
but i don't want do it here, i don't wanna grow up here..
i wanna go back home...


ming..i wanna go home... :(
dadddyyy.. i wanna go home...
jie..i wanna go home.......................

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3rd day

Enrolment was done. it was kinda easy! :)
but i have class from 6pm - 9pm at night on every Wednesday! what the hell right?
it was DEFINITELY not my choice..urgh! i had it clash with the lecture which cannot be change.
bad lucky me. -.-"
oh well, what's done is done!

i had a late lunch with chun, cowie and may.
i wasn't really use to the oz lunch time, that's why i was late.
we had lunch in this Hong Kongnese restaurant, the foood was okay, but according to them, it's the only and best in town..
hmmm, but i still misses Aman Suria's Char Siew!!! :D
they brought us to an Asian Oriental Market that sells loads of Asian food! feeeel so happy when i saw that, kinda feel a little bit at home.. :)
shopping, shopping, shopping..
for groceries of course! :)
head to cowie's after that, wanna have a peeep at his crib! lol! ;p
and my god! it was beautiful! the view and the space, soooo comfy!!
:)

that's about it. not much!
tomorrow cowie is bringing me to the Victoria Market, and then Melb Aquarium with chun and may. :)

i suddenly had a sad feeling..
just now, when my mummy and aunty was asleep,
the room was so quiet, with no sound but me typing on the keyboard..
and this sucks!
i can't imagine what kinda life would i have when they left on next monday...
hmmm..
:(
this is so sucky suck suck!

urgh!
3 more months till i get home!
i'm counting~~

PICTURES, again. :)

this is my kitchen. :)

and the raviollliiii i made~~ :D it's stuff with beef, cheese and basil! yum yum!

a little bit of parmesian cheeese would be puuurrrfect! ;)


carriage. :) part of my dream~

poooor horsey. :( i think he was too tired, that why he cross his leg and rest....:'(

pooor poooor horse! stupid mankind who choose them as transport agent! grrr!

cowie, may and chun. :)

this is the south bank i guess? or the river near it. one river that seperate me and cowie's place!

cowie's house.

the view from 33rd floor. :)

i called xen yesterday, to ask him something.

the conversion was so funny because our dear xen xen is sooo stupid. ;p

cong : helllllooooo!!

xen : hi...

cong : where are you?

xen : driving home lor..

cong : eh, i thought you going PD?

xen : no ler, this friday..

cong : oh...

xen : who are you?

*.........so many dot dot dots!

cong : TAN ZI CONG LER!!!

xen : oh.!!!! i wanted to ask just now, but the way you talk me is like we know each other very well, so..i feel weird to ask.

cong : lol!

stupid boy, but he was sweet. i feel touch, because he told me to take care of myself which he usually won't! :) haha! you know xen, always the teasing one. :) hehe.

kok called too, again, to ask how am i and all. sweet isn't it? :D

momo was right, even though i left my best buds, i still have the guys from the same gang over here to take care of me! hehe. :)

love love you people!! :D

love, cong

the 2nd day.

HI guys.
miss cong?
trust me, cong misses you as well, maybe more than you think she will.

cong was suppose to attend orientation today.
she had cowiiiiee :) accompanied her to take the train for the first time!!
without him, cong will definitely be lost...it's so complicating!! o.o
so the orientation?
cong skipped!
why?
the road to the campus was far and complicated.
plus, orientation was just about welcoming students.
i don't see the point. ;p
so we head to MacDee for BREAKFAST!! :)
mm-mmm, the sausage mcmuffin was great! even better with bacon~~~ :)
thank you cowie, for the breakfast and the walk to Footscray. :D
say goodby to cowie, cause i wanna go back to sleep. ;p

while i was sleeping, mummy rub oil on my face..brrr.
but she's doing it for my own good, cause the weather is so dry...*i miss Malaysia's weather. :(
mummy and aunty treated me like a pampered kid! haha. kinda love it in a way, had never been treated like this, because i was stereotype as the persecutors and independent one! haha, indeed i am. but, sometimess...just wanna be pampered! ;p *giggles*
soon, we went to Big W (Woolworths) for groceries and some homeware.
and had lunch in Hungry Jack's (cowie introduced). it's Burger King in our place. :)
aweeessssommmmmeee beeeff!! :D yuuummmaaay~

tonight i'll be coooking raviolli. :) hehe.
these are the pictures of my days in Melb..without you guys. :(
still, i'm fortunate to have best friends here, like chun, cowie, kok, kyle and jieshen. :)
they all message me for my number!
kok called yesterday and even today to ask whether am i fine with everything here!
hehe.
he was feeling uneasy when i said : 'thanks for caring kok! :) love you~'
hahahaha! he smiled so robotically~ ;p
chun and kengloonng too. :) they were there when i needed them!!

PICTURES!

cowie in the train. :)
my white berrry. :D


chun bought me mini cup cakesss! :)

macarooonnnnsss. :D

the cup cake family. :D mouthwatering, isn't it?

:)

melbourne's sky - one place without you people.

this pictures was few days back, my departure date, in the morning. :)

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定
抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子 疼你一辈子

KLIA's MacDee. :)

all of them. :)

family photo. :) (1)
family photo (2)

the real deal. :) haha. family photo i mean. :p

the last picture. :)

that's it for now?

about my rooom? later okayyy? need to get it decorated first! ;p haha.

p.s//another lyrics i wanna share. :) also made me tear when i hear this song...

我只想轻轻陪你一生又一世
我只想紧紧抱你一次又一次
我会永远记住这美丽的名字
我愿意好好疼你爱你一辈子

牵着你的手 跟随着河流
一步一步地 走在绿油油
一望无际的天空 没有尽头

不知不觉地 走到这山头
我们的温度 在彼此手中
我愿意躺在你怀中 不要逃走

不用害怕 就算在这森林中
就算失去方向游走
只要紧紧抓住我的手
你就拥有最多温柔

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子 疼你一辈子

牵着你的手 跟随着河流
一步一步地 走在绿油油
一望无际的天空 没有尽头

不知不觉地 走在这山头
我们的温度 在彼此手中
我愿意躺在你怀中 不要逃走

不用害怕 就算在这森林中
就算失去方向游走
只要紧紧抓住我的手
你就拥有最多温柔

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子 疼你一辈子

心跳的声音 穿越时空的感应
走进彼此的眼睛 都是勇敢的坚定
牵着你手心 联系着我们的生命
只要还呼吸 我都不放弃......

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子 疼你一辈子

love, cong.

the hardest thing

baby got these for both if us, i miss him already...

baby got this farewell cak for me, i miss him sooo much.. :(

it's my first day in Melbourne, for once, after my 19year life, i'm far far away from home.

trust me, this feelings sucks! like nobody's business. :'(

when i saw the airplane departing from Singapore, i thought to myself...now, even further from home..

when i land in Melbourne, i thought to myself, welcome my new life! ...way further from my home sweet home with all my wonderful people...

honestly, i cried so many times in the airplane while listening to various songs...

i'm happy with my current life now, you see, with my family, my boyfie and of course, my lovely friends. suddenly, me, myself and i have to throw it all behind and get a new life?

UH-uh. NO WAY. no way in hell..

i miss you guys, so much...

i kept on bugging my mummy, i wanna go home! i miss malaysia!...i wanna see my siblings!

still, nothing could be done.

the moment i step into Melbourne's airport, nothing could be done, nothing can be fix.

i had to face the reality,

the one reality that xen, hamo, chun, kenglooong, kok, ying had to face.

hmmmm,

that day on my departure date,

i felt bad because i was so busy doing last minute packing that i had no time, at all to talk to xen, tee, ru, and yuchung, wen and lee...

then i was shocked! by their attendance in the airport!
moko, cind, cheesing, yih, howelu, rald and sai (rushing after his exam), they all were here!!

they were here!! almost everyone was! the whole gang!

i was so touched, deep down inside.

:)

mummy said it as if she's marrying her daughter to someone. haha!

happiness overwhelmed me, which is why i didn't cry like what majority assumed. haha.

then, i walk down to the boarding gate, i didn't dare to look back, cause i don't wanna cry..

there i go...leaving all i ever wanted behind...

thank god, when i reach, i have chun and kengloong over here to guide me! :)

see, i'm so well loved!!! :D hahahaa!!

princessssssss-ish huh?

my jiejie told me, everyone was moody back home, every had an red eye while having steamboat. it made me tear..i miss everyone!
really...so much...

but i'll stay strong. :)

cause i know, nomatter what i still have you people! :D :D hehe!!

cause i have my video with me! ;)

cause i know through the comments of FB. :D

baby, take care, i love you. and i'll promise to always be your cong! :D

p.s//i never thought that whatever i did was appreciated or realise by my gangs, but now i know, they saw, they feel they know. :) i'm glad...:D

chun bought me macaroonnnsss!! and mini cupcakes~~

so schweeeeettt!! ;D me like it!! hehe.

i took few photographs, but i can't connect the camera to the lappie,anyone knows why?

hmm.

OH, i have whiteberrry!! :D yay!!

guys, i miss you soooooooooooo much! as much as i wanna go home, i will carry on with all your loves with me! hehe.

muacxxxxxxx.

take goood care okay?

pps:// this is the song lyrics where i said i cried when i heard the song, because i thought of you guys! :(

每一天
我在祈祷
　　愿上天保佑那个人
　　赐给他勇气
　　一直到我们遇见

　　我们早就相约
　　从出生那一天
　　只是缘分的线条太迂回
　　每天早出晚归
　　为了爱奔波却不会累
　　相信天使不过
　　一时沉睡

　　沿途爱上了谁
　　都是命运美丽的误会
　　送错的玫瑰
　　也不是谁不对
　　走过人山人海
　　用心栽培可能绽放的花蕊
　　你就是那个天生一对

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会

　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远

　　沿途错碰了谁脸颊的泪
　　都不许误会
　　会懂得感谢
　　也是一种智慧

　　走过人山人海
　　我在预备和未来的你相会
　　答应我你会赴约

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远
　　

也许只差一秒的脚步
　 （一秒的脚步）
　　也许只剩一段路
　 （我在清晨冒着雨等待）
　　幸福就在指尖附近不远处
　　穿越了迷雾
　　就不孤独

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　

流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久找到你
　　对你说好久不见
　　

等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　

迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远

love, cong