i'm not dead, YET

:)
HIYA.
i know, i suckie suck suck.
i reached MAS safe and sound.
wanted to blog so bad. took many photos, but had no time.
);
because i'm too caught up with stuffs here.
i feel that there's too many stuffs to do, but too little time!
but i will blog within this week. (;
muacxx.

another emotional freak.

' the memories change as i grow older. it use to be on purpose'

i found it in one of the blog randomly. love it.

feeling blue.
i actually wanted to blog in my other blog,
a blog i miss so much..
a blog for 4 girls..
a blog full with friendship, love and dramas.


a blog that reminds me so much of my high school,
the goods, the bads, the worst, the best..
we've been through a lot.
we should be closer to each other right?
but how come...
when i look back to our posts..
i can feel nothing but depress..
i can't smile but tear.


looking back,
momo always revolves around us, jumping up and down demanding for something we should do together,
cind will just suddenly hug me from the back and smile so brightly when she'd startled me,
qian will try sneak out from her class as many time as possible to come over to ours and have fun..
ying will always be the one socialling with everyone, but be my baobei when she's with us..


but what is happening now?
yes, we do still talk and all..
but the times we talk?
not what bestfriends will have.

i really miss those days.
we were once that close, and now..
sometimes, i hate it but have to admit that,
we maybe only just friends that looks really close from the outside..
but what are we inside?
i don't know, i don't dare to think..
of course,
to me,
you girls are still who you people used to be.


what can i do?!
what can i do to save my friendship?
i wander at all times,
what is the proper way to maintain a friendship?
i suck at maintaining friendships..
a total loser!

always using annoying ways to maintain..
they don't even work a bit.
do they?

我真的很不愿意去承认，我们好像都只是空有虚表，就是所谓的‘金玉其外，败絮其中’。
告诉我，
我能做什么？

不是的，

我们没有吵架，

只是我在反省。

总是在反省，

总是拼命的去做好一个朋友该做的本份。

却，每次都用错了方式。

我好讨厌这样的自己，

总是在扮演朋友的角色里，

感到很挫败。

为什么，我竟让自己的友情，一次又一次的从我身边消失，

却依然无法把它掌握好。

....

是我的问题吗？

i'm so stressed out.
Corporate Law is killing me.
but a call from my uncle from Sydney today,
made my day.
he called to ask me to study hard and wished me luck,
something i really need from a family.
...



it's getting late.
i better go..



love, cong.

No men in the world.

我说，‘世界上没有一个男人会比爸爸更爱我...’

他沉默了一下，说到 ‘那...我前一世一定是你的爸爸...’

for those who can't read Mandrin,

:)

i'm willing and want to share because my friends say it's sweet. (;

i said : 'no men in the world can love me more than my daddy does.'

he paused for a while, and said : 'well.. then i guess i was your father in your previous life...'

honestly,

at first we both thought it was funny because we couldn't stop laughing about it.

plus,

we were having a joking-happy conversation instead of those deep,emos heart-to-heart talk.

when i heard it,

i thought to share on facebook because it was hilarious.

but when i told me dear friend - sing, about it, he said it's so sweet.

and then i get likes and comment from baobei ying that it's sweet.

(:

really?

it is?

when i told my mummy and daddy,

mummy laugh. :) but she means no offense, just laughing ..

maybe at our childish thought?

anyway.

my point is..

when i thought of it again,

it hits me.

it is something really sweet. :)

way much better than iloveyou, youaremywholelife kind of talks. o.o

i kinda think those sweet talks are too cheesy! *NOT WHEN IT'S SAID BY EDWARDCULLEN,though. o:)

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i did my studying the whole freaking day!

and i'm proud of myself!

i have four more chapters to go, and then i'll be typing notes hardcore! T.T

pity my poor eyes.

while i was studying,

i have this problem. o.o

my eyes felt super dry, and i need to close my lids to let it rest..

this goes on and on until i get frustrated and decided to take a nap.

of course, i did not.

but i'm wondering why? what happen to my eyes?

not only that,

when i'm studying,

i keep having the urge to consume sweet stuffs.

i don't care whether it's chocolate, vanilla slice, brownie, glazed cinnamon, macaroons, milk tea, coke, chocolate milk, fruit juice or whatsoever, I JUST WANT SOMETHING SWEET!

o.o

i feel much better after i consume sweets, like i can finally focus!

:)

so i did.

while the STUPIDFREAKINGIDIOTIC line wasn't working from 5 just now.

i decided to get macaroons!

afterall it's just a 5 minutes walk!

i went to Lindt Cafe in Collins Street. :)

OH MY.

those macaroons are so colourful and pretty!

my happy happy stomach.

♥

the brown one - milk chocolate ; yellow - passionfruit; biege/ivory - champagne ; green - pistachette ; hot pink - strawberry ; baby pink - rose ; white - vanilla. ♥ ♥

mmm-mmm!
my favourite was champagne, strawberry and milk choco. :)
and i have a feeling, very stong one, that i'll be getting it again tomorrow!!!
yes, i've finish it, in like 5 minutes?! haha.

speaking of Macaroons.
:)
i have friends,
qualified in
Diploma in Culinary Arts and Patisserie,
just started a small internet business!
he and she sells MACAROONS!
i don't think there's any official seller of Macaroons in Malaysia. o.o
are there?
anyhoo,
CHECK IT OUT!
i fell in love already with just the pictures!
it can replace cakes for birthdays, anniversaries, or even gift for any celebrations!
i heard it's a new trend that replaces cup cakes! ;p

http://enchantedmacaroons.blogspot.com/

:) TRUST ME! i'm so eager to try the Blackcurrant and Chai Tea. (:
muacxx.

i have to go back to study now. with a happy vibe! ;p
xoxo.

love, cong

i should be studying.

i was stressed the whole day!
sometimes it's so frustrating to live in cold countries!
seriously, when you wanna leave the house, you'll have to change to jeans, wear a jacket, apply moisturizer on your face, lotion on your whole body *especially in dry cold countries! -.-' and then socks and shoes.
brrr. this is so annoying!
back in my home country,
all we need is just short and flip flops! ); pfffft.

okay, so i took all the trouble to get dressed up and head to my uni to ask about the tuition fees.
guess what?!
it's closed! o.o
i was like, what the hell?! how can a university be closed on weekdays!?
was it because of the Melbourne Cup everyone is talking about? or Halloween holidays? o.o
urrrr.
but it wasn't that bad. i tried this Milk Tea in the new shop, ChatTime, if i'm not mistaken. not bad not bad. :)
it's was on promotion, opening promotion. (;
so i get to buy 1 and get 1 free of any drinks.
usually, people will love it!
but i hestitated, the thought of me drinking 2 cups of Milk Tea is kinda sadistic.
haha. ;p
so i just made 1 ordered, purposely ignoring the buy1 free1 promotion.
but the girl was so nice to remind me...
hmmm. -.-
so i ordered ChatTime Pearl Milk Tea and Grape Smoothie.
it kinda sucks for me to carry two cup of drinks on hand with no one sharing it. T.T
NO WONDER people always say, Sharing is Caring.
i now know, LITERALLY. haha.. doesn't make sense? ;p

so, i spend my whole day studying Corporate Law, ugh.
it's not that i don't like it, you know. it's interesting,
but the fact that i don't have a textbook and i'm doing extra work than the others to write down allllllll important points into words so that i can bring it into the exam hall kills me!! *finish one whole sentence with no pause in one breathe*
D;
i got so discouraged when i look at all the 12 topics i have to study...
i'm still in the crisis of whether to purchase a freaking-119AUD-just-to-use-it-once&only-will-use-it-once textbook or type alllll of the points into the computer and freaking print it?
any suggestions? anyone? WILL APPRECIATE MUCH!
(:

my blog has been so un-picturetified, since the last post where i'd been back home!
i'm sorry. );
first of all,
i don't seem to make up here, or even doll up!
second,
i seriously don't see nothing i can take picture with. i live in the city! what is there to take? cars? or traffic lights? o.o
hmm, but of course, the main reason is no one to take with melarr. ;p as i'm SO NOT A camwhorer. o:)

i miss dolling up for parties, dinners, and dates. (;
i miss wearing lens.
i miss putting on mascara, eyeliner and lashes!
i miss putting on glossssss! :D
i miss heels!!

teehee. (: this was taken last year, before i left for a wedding dinner!

miss that cong? ;p

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我认为，

每个人都必须至少有一次的放任自己，

丢掉理智，

抛弃顾虑，

全心全意去完成一件自己一生只会做一次的愚蠢事情。

不在乎别人怎么想，

只想着，我不要后悔！

对不对？:)

我有想要这么对待的事情...会为我加油吗？♥

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p.s//my earnings has increase in like a day! muah first time!! xD though not much, but it has increased! haha. :) thank you people!! xoxo *please keep on clicking! nyahaha *evil laughs* o:)

价值增加了~~虽然不多，但谢谢大家~~ 继续哦~呵呵~ ;p

love, cong

One down.

One down, Two to go.
I've finish my FIM exam.
it was great, turns out the questions i studied all came out! and i manage to finish it within the time given, nah, better! i finish it before the time ends.
but oh my, the words of mine are so horrible!
i had nothing in my mind but all the answers pouring out like a spoil tap - waters kept flowing non-stop.
i sketch, scribble..just to finish it fast.
even i myself cannot stand the handwriting. what to do? limited time.
i wrote two booklets, maybe about, 12 pages?
pheeew. supposingly the time ends at 4.15pm, i finished at 3.55pm.
left the hall, and realise that melbourne's sky is so beautiful on that single moment.
seriously!
the sky was clear, there were breeze, and i was walking on a large green field.
i fell in love with that moment. (;
just that.
because when i travel back to the city.. -.-'
then i thought, nah, maybe i don't really like it afterall.
yes people, i prefer the suburbs so much more!
but my campus is in the city centre. i don't have a choice..);
or else, i'll be living in a small delicate town house, apartment now.
mmm, just the thought of it makes me smile.
C;


anyway, i'll be doing hardcore study from tomorrow onwards for my Corporate Law exam on the 11th. the one thing i'm grateful about? it's an open book exam!
as for Accounts, i've finish it in 2 days before my FIM.
hmm, everything is going okay for me now...
i can't wait to be home.. in like 2 weeks?


i had a deep talk with xen xen xen, yesterday.
it's been so long since we had such talks.
he's been busy, i was busy..
so yeah.
it was great. to know that you still have friends that can talk like that, and what's more, he's a friend of yours fo 8 years. (;
...oh yes people, i sacrifised my study time to talked to an idioit, a.k.a my best buddy!
it gives my heart the warm thrills to think that we were friends for 8 freaking years,
i never thought we could be friends when we were 13.
i mean, we were 13!? and now what? 20?
time flies.
maybe i don't remember everything we've been through, but i know. it's not little, not at all.
i remember we argued, so bad. we laughed, so loud.
i cried, and he was there..
we talk about my wedding, he said he'll be there as my 'ji mui/heng dai'a.k.a Maids of honour, mentioning that i will definitely have more 'heng dai' than 'ji mui'.
he even ask me whether if it's possible for me to be his 'heng dai'? haha.
it's so sweeet that he actually thought of me in his future. (;
i'm feeling nostalgic. isssh.
it really made my day you know?
even sin said, i was smiling as if something really good had happen. ;p
this is not what a normal being who's having finals tomorrow should feel!
haha.

though...
);
i wasn't able to make everyone happy.
i wish i can.
but i just can't seem to wipe away the sorrows from her.
how badly i wish i could.
i tried to talk, tried to comfort.
i know it hurts so bad.
of course, even i can't imagine how will i be if my .. my.. sister left me.
it ached my heart so bad..when i saw her eyes filling with tears.
my heart,quievering ; yet, i could do nothing.
but just to see her in pain...

您落寞的眼神，让我很心疼。
我却无能为力。
多么希望我能够为您分担您心里的痛苦，
时间是世界上最有力的矬子，
把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，
不再搁人。
我不知道我可以说什么，
但我会一直在这里。


love, cong