the ultimate sweetest cuppie cake!

i'm enjoying BIG M's chocolate milk. :)
damn! their chocolate milk tastes better than ours back in Mas. huhu~ ;)
it's the only thing i drink other than skyjuice.
i was thinking, since i want something sweet yet not fattening or unhealthy,
might as well take milk than softdrinks. C;

i've been back here in Melb for quite some time,
of course, one thing you should never doubt that i am, always, will always be missing you wonderful people back in Mas.
the feeling is very confusing,
sometimes, it hurts so bad.
yet, sometimes it's tooooo sweet that i can't help it but smile. ;3
so i'll tell myself, cong! few more weeks, just hold on for few more weeks and you'll be home sweet home!
yup! that's the only motivation i have given myself from the very first day!
the assignments are killing me!!
i have two dued next week, on the freaking same day! brrrr.
but then again, what's a student life without assignments, right? :D
oh well!

nothing special happen over here.
but how's everything over there?
doing fine, everyone? :)

being here, far far away from home gives me loads and i mean LOADs of time to think stuffs through..*maybe too many! xD
my sister said i've changed on the last trip home.
it makes me wonder.
did i?
she said, to her, i give her a more mature feeling now..
is this a good thing?
then again, i thought..
my mummy used to say that i have this merit, advantage or whatsoever you called it.
she says, i'm the happy-go-lucky kind,
the kind that in a cantonese sayings, 'even if the sky falls down, he/she will take it as a blanket..'
did i get it right? ahh, it's 天塌下来也当被盖。
it describes a person who basically takes everything easily and happily.
but am i?
i doubt so,
maybe i used to be, but no longer.

if i am,
how come i can't accept changes?
if i am,
how come i can't stop missing home?
if i am,
how come i keep wanting to go home?
if i am,
how come it hurts when conflicts happen between me and my love ones?

do i have to lose myself like that?
to lose the only advantage i have in me?
grr, i hate growing up. it makes you lose the original you.
and the worst of it?
you can't get it back,
because when you do, you're literally trying to force/gain something back.
people will say you're fake.
boohoo.

what to do?
life...
so full of worries...
:)

love, cong.