♥ smooch me ♥

2012-01-30T14:49:00.003+08:00

岁月真的不留人，

时光过着，如今已一年。

他...不在的事实已烫在我心湖里一年。

伤，仍在淌血...

记忆，仍停在那一年的晚上。

新年又过了，

是没有他的第一个新年。

麻木的过了，还是不知道该说什么。

原来还以为的坚强，顷刻间，支离破碎。

我，好想你...

纵使体谅了，却终究无法释怀。

所以，还是会问，您回来，好不好？

爸...生日快乐...

the end.

2011-08-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

i never regret to always blog.

for now, this blog has been filled with all my memories i've spend with my loved ones.

looking back,

when i said 2010 was a bad year.

i was being a fool

i didn't know.. 2011 was the worst in my whole entire life.

...

the men who i loved most and loved me back like no other men in the whole universe,

left...

everything is shatter into pieces for me now.

i don't seem to have the urge to blog anymore.

it's been 6 months already.

every minute every second i still misses him.

it's like a part of me died when he left.

maybe one day i will blog again, just not now..

love, cong.

新年快乐

2011-02-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

看着别人家开开心心的过着等了一年的大日子，
看着舞狮，鞭炮热热闹闹地迎着新春...
竟令我有一种想哭的感觉。

我好羡慕，
他们能一家子聚在一起吃团年饭，
一起谈笑风声，
一起看电视，
一起玩烟花，
一起说说别人的糗事，
一起吃家乡宵夜，
一起待到深夜...
*我好想回家乡过新年，长这么大，我第一次不再那里过年...

往日种种仍历历在目，
只是看着别人家的时候，
感觉特别的珍贵，特别的期待。
等了一年，筹备了一年，
本想欢欢喜喜和家人度过新的一年，
却无法实现。

原来，
新春佳节的意义，
我今才明白。
然，
却错过了，人生里的其中一个新年。

我没有埋怨，
只是心里那种很期盼，很期盼新春来临的感觉需要得到纾解...

新年快乐。
今年没什么机会说‘恭喜发财’
所以，
恭喜发财咯~

A very late post and a very late happy new year.

2011-01-05T11:35:00.002+08:00

I guess, i'm a WAY better blogger when i'm back in Melbourne.
When i'm home, i don't know why, i literally have NO TIME at all to blog. ;p
i hate spending my time blogging when i can be with my love ones. :)
so yeah, sorry for the superb late one.
A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)
i wish for the best for everyone in this brand new shining plastic year! teehee. *winks

Well, i have a whole list of events and activity i did after i touched down.
took plenty of pictures, because i was thinking to post it on blog here.
unfortunately.. i have no time. ;p or, maybe i'm too occupied! haha. oh well.
as i don't have much time now either ; i just steal some individual time now cause i'm the only one at home to blog - so i hope pictures can tell how HAPPY i am to be back here! :)

gosh, see how my dear Chanel girl grow. yesterday she was like that, and now she's like this!! :)

what a cute couple right?

and may i here introduce our new family member.

MUSHU! :)

he was adopted.

shoooo cute right?

he lives in qian's place now, showered with love!

here me Phumbaa and Mushu boy.
you probably can't tell that Mushu is actually elder than Phumbaa boy. ;p

Then,

Congratulations again to kok's sister! :)

Newly Wed!

teehee.

kok invited us over for a pre wedding dinner.

it's too bad he stayed only for a few days. );

glad that he's coming backie real soon!
kok and sai had post for the picture! :)

those who attended the dinner. :) i mean, my friends. not the whole of the guest!

oh yeah! i have a video of kok trying to burst the balloon, with a toothpick in his mouth.

it was hilarious! xD haha.

but i guess i have to seek for permission first! ;p

In my gang,

every month is there to celebrate,

cause we have babies from January to December.

It was November, and our only November baby is Yih. :)

me and qian baked cuppa cakes for his to celebrate his 20th! :)

but the suprised we plan? FAILURE!

we'd even waited under the rain.. and still it failed!

brrrr.

cute cute? :)

Another November baby, not in my gang,
but one of my family member!
yes!
it's my dear elder sister!
it was her 2*th birthday on November 29!
i ordered this super sweet looking cake for her, and glad that she love it!

yup, baby yellow decorated with shocking pink cream ribbon!
can it be ever cuter? :)))

Time flies,

finally it's the end of the year. and the last month of the year, aka. Holy Month.

it's ME BIRTHDAY! :)

i was born on the Dec 20th, just like Tun Dr.Mahatir - Malaysia's 4th Prime Minister & JoJo - the singer & Patty Hou - Jay's Ex.

well i'm sure there's many more, but these are the ones that i come to know of. :)

sadly,

i was not here to celebrate and sin gave a me pre celebration!

he brought me to this uber super restaurant that i love love love so much in KL! :)

it's known as Cafe Cafe KL.

French Food on the menu yo~ :)

i will, and i know it well that i'll be going back there real soon!

Oh my! the environment is to die for!

it's so my dream house like, Parisian Classic like! ;)

PICTURES? See Below!

not this one! ;p i was disturbing Chanel. xD

me birthday cake! :) like it, but don't love it.
i was actually quite disappointed,
i wanted solid purple not light purple.
i wanted Strawberry Short Cake not Princess Cake. ):
ahh, oh well! :)

haha. on the way to KL. Massive Jam! KL, typical~

okay okay, here goes! :)
this is the toilet!!

this is the corner i sat,
it was with christmas decoration!
breath taking ain't it? (:

mirrors were hung on the wall,
light dimmed that was hung with chain of pearls..
oh.. so romantic!! :D

the table setting..
i'm really curious about the upper floor. but it was closed! );
this! this is what you see when you first step into the restaurant!

i can tell you that i fell in love, INSTANTLY with the restaurant!! :)

Oh~

The next morning,

i hop on a plane and left to Bangkok!

A Shoppin heaven i must say!

Way better than GuangZhou!

Seriously.

IN Guangzhou, only we girls can shop, daddy? no no.

sometimes i feel bad that he didn't get to shop.

But here in Bangkok. :)

Daddy get to shop along too!

i'm so happy and satisfied!!

my dad even said : you can shop until you die here! ;p

HAHAHA!

so i guess,

Bangkok will be our new shopping trip! :)

Besides shopping, i get to see tigers and i even get to hold a baby tiger! :)

and my cousins celebrated my birthday there! ohh.. many many stuffs to talk about!

this is the only photo i show about bangkok cause i'm planning to make an individual post about it later!! :) hehe. Stay Tune.

Siracha Tiger Zoo. Cute Cute big cats!! (:

Came back on the 22nd. :)

and here comes the warmest day of the whole year!

Christmas Eve!

it neve fails to warm my heart!

after having home made western dinner with my family,

instead of partying or clubbing.

i celebrated it in CheeSing's. :)

with few bottles of alcohol, poker cards, snacks and kareoke!
i don't mind being any where as long as i'm celebrating with the right person,

right people? :)

And the list goes on,

we decided to go for Go-Cart on the 29th of December. :)

Alot went!

but i chicken out last minute.

i don't know just feel so insecure about the whol driving in the track idea. :)
but i had fun just watching them race! hehe.

lunch at Taylor's Lake Side in Mikhail's restaurant.

Nice food! :) GO GO GO!

it was 3 in the noon..

we left to get ready for dinner at Tee's.

STEAMBOAT!

i love steamboat for the fact that people get to sit down and talk while waiting for the food,

it's even better when we have it on a cold weather- in Mas, usually after rainining or while raining. :)

hmm, so warmie!!

hehe.

this dinner was intended to be a late celebration for yih's birthday and.. mine? o.0

haha.

it was funny cause i was so embarassed when they sang the birthday song.

i know they did it on purpose, don't get me wrong i wasn't angry or mad.

just... felt embarassed! haha.

but it will be a nicce and sweet memory! :)

thank you guys! muacx.

Group Photos! (:

Last day of 2010.
:)

how should i feel?

sad?!

Hell No.

i'm so glad you're gone, 2010!

cause you took away too many of my love ones!

2011,you listen!

please treat me better, alright? :) muacx.

I care about my family and love ones feelings alot,

so sometimes, i feel restless when i don't get to satisfy both sides.

like Xmas eve,

i manage to have dinner with my family and relatives in The Ship, Damansara. :)

later, i went to join my lovely BFFs in Desa Park City for the New Year Count Down!

i was all hyper and happy that night!

i'm glad that i was able to share my childhood card game with them,

even glad that we all enjoyed the game and had fun! :)

so glad that i get to see my girls!

never can i be more glad that i was able to welcome a brand new year with them! :)

of course, if my family were here, it'd be perfect!

found a good spot to watch the fireworks!

There goes my list for 2010.

i'm still working on my New Year Resolutions!

haha.

i'll post it up ASAP.

though there were hard times in 2010,

there were happy one as well.

and for those good or bad,

i'm so glad i had you all with me.

here,

i sincerely wish for a better year for everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR AGAIN, PEOPLE!

with all my love,

cong.

i'm not dead, YET

2010-11-22T11:18:00.002+08:00

:)
HIYA.
i know, i suckie suck suck.
i reached MAS safe and sound.
wanted to blog so bad. took many photos, but had no time.
);
because i'm too caught up with stuffs here.
i feel that there's too many stuffs to do, but too little time!
but i will blog within this week. (;
muacxx.

another emotional freak.

2010-11-06T21:38:00.005+08:00

' the memories change as i grow older. it use to be on purpose'

i found it in one of the blog randomly. love it.

feeling blue.
i actually wanted to blog in my other blog,
a blog i miss so much..
a blog for 4 girls..
a blog full with friendship, love and dramas.

a blog that reminds me so much of my high school,
the goods, the bads, the worst, the best..
we've been through a lot.
we should be closer to each other right?
but how come...
when i look back to our posts..
i can feel nothing but depress..
i can't smile but tear.

looking back,
momo always revolves around us, jumping up and down demanding for something we should do together,
cind will just suddenly hug me from the back and smile so brightly when she'd startled me,
qian will try sneak out from her class as many time as possible to come over to ours and have fun..
ying will always be the one socialling with everyone, but be my baobei when she's with us..

but what is happening now?
yes, we do still talk and all..
but the times we talk?
not what bestfriends will have.

i really miss those days.
we were once that close, and now..
sometimes, i hate it but have to admit that,
we maybe only just friends that looks really close from the outside..
but what are we inside?
i don't know, i don't dare to think..
of course,
to me,
you girls are still who you people used to be.

what can i do?!
what can i do to save my friendship?
i wander at all times,
what is the proper way to maintain a friendship?
i suck at maintaining friendships..
a total loser!

always using annoying ways to maintain..
they don't even work a bit.
do they?

我真的很不愿意去承认，我们好像都只是空有虚表，就是所谓的‘金玉其外，败絮其中’。
告诉我，
我能做什么？

不是的，

我们没有吵架，

只是我在反省。

总是在反省，

总是拼命的去做好一个朋友该做的本份。

却，每次都用错了方式。

我好讨厌这样的自己，

总是在扮演朋友的角色里，

感到很挫败。

为什么，我竟让自己的友情，一次又一次的从我身边消失，

却依然无法把它掌握好。

....

是我的问题吗？

i'm so stressed out.
Corporate Law is killing me.
but a call from my uncle from Sydney today,
made my day.
he called to ask me to study hard and wished me luck,
something i really need from a family.
...

it's getting late.
i better go..

love, cong.

No men in the world.

2010-11-04T20:58:00.005+08:00

我说，‘世界上没有一个男人会比爸爸更爱我...’

他沉默了一下，说到 ‘那...我前一世一定是你的爸爸...’

for those who can't read Mandrin,

i'm willing and want to share because my friends say it's sweet. (;

i said : 'no men in the world can love me more than my daddy does.'

he paused for a while, and said : 'well.. then i guess i was your father in your previous life...'

honestly,

at first we both thought it was funny because we couldn't stop laughing about it.

plus,

we were having a joking-happy conversation instead of those deep,emos heart-to-heart talk.

when i heard it,

i thought to share on facebook because it was hilarious.

but when i told me dear friend - sing, about it, he said it's so sweet.

and then i get likes and comment from baobei ying that it's sweet.

really?

it is?

when i told my mummy and daddy,

mummy laugh. :) but she means no offense, just laughing ..

maybe at our childish thought?

anyway.

my point is..

when i thought of it again,

it hits me.

it is something really sweet. :)

way much better than iloveyou, youaremywholelife kind of talks. o.o

i kinda think those sweet talks are too cheesy! *NOT WHEN IT'S SAID BY EDWARDCULLEN,though. o:)

♥ --------------------------------- ♥

i did my studying the whole freaking day!

and i'm proud of myself!

i have four more chapters to go, and then i'll be typing notes hardcore! T.T

pity my poor eyes.

while i was studying,

i have this problem. o.o

my eyes felt super dry, and i need to close my lids to let it rest..

this goes on and on until i get frustrated and decided to take a nap.

of course, i did not.

but i'm wondering why? what happen to my eyes?

not only that,

when i'm studying,

i keep having the urge to consume sweet stuffs.

i don't care whether it's chocolate, vanilla slice, brownie, glazed cinnamon, macaroons, milk tea, coke, chocolate milk, fruit juice or whatsoever, I JUST WANT SOMETHING SWEET!

o.o

i feel much better after i consume sweets, like i can finally focus!

so i did.

while the STUPIDFREAKINGIDIOTIC line wasn't working from 5 just now.

i decided to get macaroons!

afterall it's just a 5 minutes walk!

i went to Lindt Cafe in Collins Street. :)

OH MY.

those macaroons are so colourful and pretty!

my happy happy stomach.

♥

the brown one - milk chocolate ; yellow - passionfruit; biege/ivory - champagne ; green - pistachette ; hot pink - strawberry ; baby pink - rose ; white - vanilla. ♥ ♥

mmm-mmm!
my favourite was champagne, strawberry and milk choco. :)
and i have a feeling, very stong one, that i'll be getting it again tomorrow!!!
yes, i've finish it, in like 5 minutes?! haha.

speaking of Macaroons.
:)
i have friends,
qualified in
Diploma in Culinary Arts and Patisserie,
just started a small internet business!
he and she sells MACAROONS!
i don't think there's any official seller of Macaroons in Malaysia. o.o
are there?
anyhoo,
CHECK IT OUT!
i fell in love already with just the pictures!
it can replace cakes for birthdays, anniversaries, or even gift for any celebrations!
i heard it's a new trend that replaces cup cakes! ;p

http://enchantedmacaroons.blogspot.com/

:) TRUST ME! i'm so eager to try the Blackcurrant and Chai Tea. (:
muacxx.

i have to go back to study now. with a happy vibe! ;p
xoxo.

love, cong

i should be studying.

2010-11-02T20:16:00.005+08:00

i was stressed the whole day!
sometimes it's so frustrating to live in cold countries!
seriously, when you wanna leave the house, you'll have to change to jeans, wear a jacket, apply moisturizer on your face, lotion on your whole body *especially in dry cold countries! -.-' and then socks and shoes.
brrr. this is so annoying!
back in my home country,
all we need is just short and flip flops! ); pfffft.

okay, so i took all the trouble to get dressed up and head to my uni to ask about the tuition fees.
guess what?!
it's closed! o.o
i was like, what the hell?! how can a university be closed on weekdays!?
was it because of the Melbourne Cup everyone is talking about? or Halloween holidays? o.o
urrrr.
but it wasn't that bad. i tried this Milk Tea in the new shop, ChatTime, if i'm not mistaken. not bad not bad. :)
it's was on promotion, opening promotion. (;
so i get to buy 1 and get 1 free of any drinks.
usually, people will love it!
but i hestitated, the thought of me drinking 2 cups of Milk Tea is kinda sadistic.
haha. ;p
so i just made 1 ordered, purposely ignoring the buy1 free1 promotion.
but the girl was so nice to remind me...
hmmm. -.-
so i ordered ChatTime Pearl Milk Tea and Grape Smoothie.
it kinda sucks for me to carry two cup of drinks on hand with no one sharing it. T.T
NO WONDER people always say, Sharing is Caring.
i now know, LITERALLY. haha.. doesn't make sense? ;p

so, i spend my whole day studying Corporate Law, ugh.
it's not that i don't like it, you know. it's interesting,
but the fact that i don't have a textbook and i'm doing extra work than the others to write down allllllll important points into words so that i can bring it into the exam hall kills me!! *finish one whole sentence with no pause in one breathe*
D;
i got so discouraged when i look at all the 12 topics i have to study...
i'm still in the crisis of whether to purchase a freaking-119AUD-just-to-use-it-once&only-will-use-it-once textbook or type alllll of the points into the computer and freaking print it?
any suggestions? anyone? WILL APPRECIATE MUCH!
(:

my blog has been so un-picturetified, since the last post where i'd been back home!
i'm sorry. );
first of all,
i don't seem to make up here, or even doll up!
second,
i seriously don't see nothing i can take picture with. i live in the city! what is there to take? cars? or traffic lights? o.o
hmm, but of course, the main reason is no one to take with melarr. ;p as i'm SO NOT A camwhorer. o:)

i miss dolling up for parties, dinners, and dates. (;
i miss wearing lens.
i miss putting on mascara, eyeliner and lashes!
i miss putting on glossssss! :D
i miss heels!!

teehee. (: this was taken last year, before i left for a wedding dinner!

miss that cong? ;p

♥ ----------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥

我认为，

每个人都必须至少有一次的放任自己，

丢掉理智，

抛弃顾虑，

全心全意去完成一件自己一生只会做一次的愚蠢事情。

不在乎别人怎么想，

只想着，我不要后悔！

对不对？:)

我有想要这么对待的事情...会为我加油吗？♥

♥ ---------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥

p.s//my earnings has increase in like a day! muah first time!! xD though not much, but it has increased! haha. :) thank you people!! xoxo *please keep on clicking! nyahaha *evil laughs* o:)

价值增加了~~虽然不多，但谢谢大家~~ 继续哦~呵呵~ ;p

love, cong

One down.

2010-11-01T16:05:00.002+08:00

One down, Two to go.
I've finish my FIM exam.
it was great, turns out the questions i studied all came out! and i manage to finish it within the time given, nah, better! i finish it before the time ends.
but oh my, the words of mine are so horrible!
i had nothing in my mind but all the answers pouring out like a spoil tap - waters kept flowing non-stop.
i sketch, scribble..just to finish it fast.
even i myself cannot stand the handwriting. what to do? limited time.
i wrote two booklets, maybe about, 12 pages?
pheeew. supposingly the time ends at 4.15pm, i finished at 3.55pm.
left the hall, and realise that melbourne's sky is so beautiful on that single moment.
seriously!
the sky was clear, there were breeze, and i was walking on a large green field.
i fell in love with that moment. (;
just that.
because when i travel back to the city.. -.-'
then i thought, nah, maybe i don't really like it afterall.
yes people, i prefer the suburbs so much more!
but my campus is in the city centre. i don't have a choice..);
or else, i'll be living in a small delicate town house, apartment now.
mmm, just the thought of it makes me smile.
C;

anyway, i'll be doing hardcore study from tomorrow onwards for my Corporate Law exam on the 11th. the one thing i'm grateful about? it's an open book exam!
as for Accounts, i've finish it in 2 days before my FIM.
hmm, everything is going okay for me now...
i can't wait to be home.. in like 2 weeks?

i had a deep talk with xen xen xen, yesterday.
it's been so long since we had such talks.
he's been busy, i was busy..
so yeah.
it was great. to know that you still have friends that can talk like that, and what's more, he's a friend of yours fo 8 years. (;
...oh yes people, i sacrifised my study time to talked to an idioit, a.k.a my best buddy!
it gives my heart the warm thrills to think that we were friends for 8 freaking years,
i never thought we could be friends when we were 13.
i mean, we were 13!? and now what? 20?
time flies.
maybe i don't remember everything we've been through, but i know. it's not little, not at all.
i remember we argued, so bad. we laughed, so loud.
i cried, and he was there..
we talk about my wedding, he said he'll be there as my 'ji mui/heng dai'a.k.a Maids of honour, mentioning that i will definitely have more 'heng dai' than 'ji mui'.
he even ask me whether if it's possible for me to be his 'heng dai'? haha.
it's so sweeet that he actually thought of me in his future. (;
i'm feeling nostalgic. isssh.
it really made my day you know?
even sin said, i was smiling as if something really good had happen. ;p
this is not what a normal being who's having finals tomorrow should feel!
haha.

though...
);
i wasn't able to make everyone happy.
i wish i can.
but i just can't seem to wipe away the sorrows from her.
how badly i wish i could.
i tried to talk, tried to comfort.
i know it hurts so bad.
of course, even i can't imagine how will i be if my .. my.. sister left me.
it ached my heart so bad..when i saw her eyes filling with tears.
my heart,quievering ; yet, i could do nothing.
but just to see her in pain...

您落寞的眼神，让我很心疼。
我却无能为力。
多么希望我能够为您分担您心里的痛苦，
时间是世界上最有力的矬子，
把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，
不再搁人。
我不知道我可以说什么，
但我会一直在这里。

love, cong

Halloween Post.

2010-10-31T07:55:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling better already.
because,
she's in a very good place now.
and,
my mummy told me, she left while sleeping.
she didn't suffer from any pain..
and that's a relief.
if she had to leave,
praying for her to not suffer from pain before she leave it's the only thing we want, and wish for her.
i'll always remember her.

i guess i really learn now.
i no longer want the feeling of regret and grudge to torture me.
so, yeah.
seriously, guys.
appreciate the people around you.
and when you think that you have,
ask again,
are you really appreciating?
or just barely enjoying the moment?

if you ask me,
what can you do to show you truly appreciate?
honestly,
i have no answer either.
i guess this is a self-judegement thing...

HAPPPY HALLOWEEN, people!!!
back in my home country, we don't really celebrate.
but,
according to my list down there,
i realise there are readers for other countries that celebrate?
haha. :)
oh well, celebrate or not,
still,
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
what will you be this year?
ENJOY!!

though i'm in Melb now,
i still can't celebrate!
first of all, it would be a disrespect for my aunt to celebrate now..
and,
i'm having my finals tomorrow!! );
how in the world will you expect me to have fun tonight?!
brrrr.
VU arrangements for exam are so sucky! *at times -.-
....a slight moment of wild imagination,
i was just wondering what will i be if non of those happen..
and i still have no idea. o.o
oh well.

good luck for my finals!
i'll be home soon.
and to all my readers, thank you! CLICK CLICK CLICK okay? ;p
thank you..

love, cong

至挚爱的大姨姨

2010-10-28T20:46:00.006+08:00

又一次的分离，

又一次的阴阳相隔，

到底，

上天还要向我应证多少次人生的脆弱？

到底，

要我承受多少次撕心裂肺般的疼痛，

才肯罢手？

。。。

我，

有心无力，

爱莫能助，

百般无奈，

遥不可及，

完全无能，

我连和您见最后一次的机会也是个奢望...

我到底还能为您做什么？

。。。

明明。

明明，在经历了无数次的分离，

我应该已懂得学会去珍惜，

可，

为什么我现在竟会觉得愧疚？

竟会觉得，如果当初我多学着点珍惜，那该多好。

我到如今才发现，

原来对您的了解，是少得那么的可怜...

那些往日所相处的时光，

我不曾忘，

却也没真正去感受过...

这种感觉不停的折磨着我...

。。。

人总是这样，

以为自己和别人都有无数个明天，

所以才会忘记了珍惜，

才会让自己挥霍一去就不再回头的光阴，

总要到失去了，

才后悔，才学着珍惜。

我明明就和自己约定好，

不会再重蹈覆辙，

却还是抓不住...

。。。

我知道您一定会到很好很好的地方去，

却还是忍不住地揪心...

我放心，

却还不能释怀。

我面对，

却还不能原谅。

我明白，

却还不能谅解。

为什么在我们都那么的努力的时候，你却放弃了自己？

不是说好要等我回来一起过新年？

不是说好要做年饼让我吃？

不是笑着说好要目睹我所谓的梦想婚礼吗？

我都还没有能力孝顺您!

您甚至连您自己女儿的婚礼，都还没看,

为什么还是放弃了？

就差那么一点点，

你就可以挨过了...

我真的无法谅解！

。。。

我...

不！

我们，

都不想失去您。

可，

谁又能将离去的您挽回？

谁又忍心见您痛苦？

...

所以，

我们，也放手了。

我们，所有人，

所有爱您的，和您爱的，

都会为你，连着您那份未完的人生，

好好活下去。

。。。

你在那里，一定也要好好活~

不会忘，
因为忘不了。
不会爱，
因为无法再更爱了...
195* - 2010，我们永远的亲人

love, cong

sweetdream

2010-10-28T09:27:00.006+08:00

考试即将来临，

首次，

我完全对考试没信心。

也不知道为什么,

是因为我现在身在何以往不一样的地方吗？

还是，因为我不在家里？

。。。

我慌了。

该怎么办？

如果考试考不好，

我该如何面对爸爸妈妈？

我该如何面对他们对我的期望？

他们失望的眼神？

他们必须反过来安慰我的温柔？

。。。

我不要，

我不要那种事情发生...

我不允许自己会有那么的一天，

我从来都是可以独立面对一切，又让他们放心的小孩，

这次，

也一定不列外，

我可以的！

对..不对？

加油！陈子聪，加油吧~

。。。

也不知道是不是因为这样，

‘她’昨天对我特别的眷顾，

让我发了一场美梦~

那梦，真的好甜，

我知道，在熟睡中的我是微笑着的.. (;

但也清楚知道，那，只会是一场梦。

不会实现。

我多么希望醒来时，会不记得曾经有过这梦，

因为他们说，若醒来不记得的梦，就会有可能成真的一天...

哈哈~

所以，梦就梦吧！

我依然很珍惜~ (:

。。。

刚才忍不住，和自己玩了个游戏，

如果在MallWorld的Wheel of Fashion 幸运抽到的是 mall credit，

那梦一定会成真，

结果，真的给我弄到了！

平常都很难的哦~ *对我来说啦 (;

我很幼稚，对不对？

虽然，只是一种安慰自己的方法，

但我很开心。(;

加油~

。。。

对了，

最近超喜欢听泰国歌，

尤其是深情的。

现在已被ZEE 的一首I'm easy but lonely 迷倒~

you might be thinking, 'WHY!? WHY THAI SONG?'

haha, honestly, i don't know.

i really LOVE their language,

(especially their LOVE songs!!) *AND BABY SIN LOVES IT TOO!!

since i don't know when!

maybe since the day my daddy brought me to HatYai,

which is like..mmm.. i honestly don't remember.. -.-

cause i've been going there all my 20 years life!

though i never understand,

but their language fascinates me,

just like how French and Korean does to me! teehee. (;

i do know how to speak abit,

haha. nah, just 1 to 10 in Thai, 250.. and how much? haha. ;p

oh oh, and Sugar Cane in Thai as well! haha.

not only i love their language, but their food as well!
yum yum!

let's hope i'll be going HatYai again this year,

and maybe this time, i REALLY can take photos of how HatYai is.

*yes, i use REALLY because i failed back in June. my camera spoilt on the moment i reach there. -.-*

。。。

还有，

吴克羣的‘没关系’，和‘我能给的’！

两首超棒的~

‘没关系’是诉说一个男的和自己深爱的女子分手了，

却责怪自己没福气，却又异想天开的爱上她...

我完全被他的歌词打动~

歌词真的好好~

竟然有种似曾相识的感觉... 呵呵~ ;p

至于，

‘我能给的’就是把男人的心声实实在在的写了出来，

每个男的听了，都应觉得超赞的吧！(;

因为，身为女子的我都觉得动容。

赞~赞~赞~

Hmmm, which song should i put into my playlist? (;

p.s// Zee is NOT a boy, but a TOMBOY. i'm so shocked when i heard her voice, totally sounds like a guy~ she's a mix britain and indo but live in thailand. ;p haha.

love, cong.

深夜之反省篇

2010-10-25T22:24:00.006+08:00

今天是我来了墨尔本，第一次到街上逛街，

也是，第一次一个人闲逛，

感触很深。

才明白，原来身边陪的无论是谁，

自己都是幸福的~ (:

。。。

逛街对我来说，从不陌生，

但来到这里，

真的觉得有点别扭，

也不知是为了什么...

找了好久，
逛了几乎一天才买到爸爸，妹妹和姐姐的，
弟弟和妈妈，还有阿姨的，今天暂时放弃了~ -,-

赶紧回家上skype和妈妈分享，

感激，兴奋他们都喜欢。(:

目前可以给他们的，真的不多，

但我会加油~

将来一定可以给更好更好的~~(;

。。。

刚才，做了个决定，

这决定让现在的自己和昔日的自己显得很自相矛盾，

说真的，

我好像真的有点讨厌总是那么‘冲’得自己，

以前的我，

每次说话都说得很绝，

才导致今日如此尴尬和不真实的情况，

因为没留余地，

所以显得如今很做作。

。。。

来了这里，让我想了很多，

以前的我，

总是爱用自己的偏见去评断某个人，

这样似乎有点过分，

所以，现在后悔了，

应该要改了。

如果，他们真如我‘偏见’以为得那样，

那，

到时才放弃，也不算迟，对吧？

这样，最起码，对自己，对他们，都是公平的。

至少，我现在是这么认为。

所以，

在这里，

我代表以前的我，为我曾经说过很过分的话，

真心道歉。

;)

对不起。

子聪，错了。

是所有人噢~

爸爸，妈妈，姐姐，妹妹，弟弟，姨姨，sin，我所有的love ones, 认识的朋友，甚至不认识的陌生人...

对不起。

。。。

或许我可以改，

但我的率性应该改不了吧~ 呵呵~

到最后，努力了，相处了，

如果和我的原则有落差的话，

我喜欢就喜欢，憎恶的还是会讨厌吧~

。。。

毕竟，

我总不能因为配合某人而委屈求全，

失去我的本性，

放弃我的原则！

那不是陈子聪。(;

。。。

可能或许因为这样，

会有人受不了我，而离开..

但留下的，都是我真正的朋友噢~

因为喜欢我的坦率，接受我是个直肠子，

才会了解我，

才会一直待在我身边~ (;

。。。

我只要希望待在身边的人，一直待在身边，

就够了。(:

。。。

妈妈，我想，我渐渐可以明白，您和‘她’一直坚持要我待在这里，不让我回国的原因了...

因为，好像连我自己，都喜欢上这种慢慢摸索进而改进的感觉。(;

。。。

晚安。

love, cong.

wae? means, why in Korean. (;

2010-10-22T20:57:00.008+08:00

YES!

My first question,

last one,
goes round and round in my head for ga-zillion times!
WHY!?

WHY are Korean Guys SO HOT!?

WHY!?

WHY are Korean Dramas SO ADDICTIVE!?

at least,

it makes me go insane everytime. ;p

I LOVE KOREAN DRAMAs!!

TOO BITS!!!

ooops,

and i LOVE KOREAN ACTORS. :)

i don't care they had plastice surgery or what,

i just love them!
looking at them makes me wonder,

how in the world do such BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE exists?

how come i never meet one myself? );

teehee.

so,

cong fell in love, once again. :)

with, Bek Seung Jo - JiHu( from BOF)'s name in Mischievous Kiss!

aiyor, actually,

his real name is Kim Hyun Joong. (;

Picture Puuurrfeccctto!! Of course!! (; there's my junpyo and my jihu! C;

the way he smiles, awww. (; you can fall for him in like what? 1 second?

and of course, he looks great even when he's emotionless. ;p

Seung Jo! :) he even looks great in curly hairr!
i wanted to post more of his photos on the later episodes of Mischievous Kiss, but i can't find it yet. Maybe some other time. (;

Okay.
Kim Hyun Joong/Yun JiHoo/Bek Seung Jo, you guys have met him, like way back on my previous posts.
But,
this guy here, it's his FIRST APPERANCE in my blog!! (;
he's not the sunshine kind of cute guy,
STILL BREATHE TAKING!
seriously, no joke.
especially in BLACK!
black is like, made for him!

i hereby, introduce my new love. (;
*or maybe i should say, introduce another new love into my list! xD

NO MIN WOO!!!

i really love this picture of him! :)
first, he's in black.
second, he's hair is black.

third, he's eyes are black.
fourth, he didn't post for this. i like!! x 10000. C;
teehee.

he acted in My Girlfriend is a 9tailed fox.
as the second male lead.
yup, then again,
the second male lead are always the sweetest!! yet, never gets the girl..
);
in this drama, it's much worst.
because,
the female lead was his lost love few thousand years back,
the grandmama god used her spirit and made the current female lead.
and he never gets her love even then..
what's worst?
he has to suffer this heartbreak for many many thousand years,
since he'll never aged. *yup, he's half demon half human (;
that's what makes this drama so COOOOL! C;
A MUST WATCH!
more more more...

too hot to resist? :)

he's a vet in the drama!! A BONUS!! :) hot compassionate guy. C;

drooling... ;p

!!! (*;

DANG! BLACK makes HIM HOTTTER!!
i ain't joking right? :)

HE SINGS TOO! the SoundTrack for this drama - Trap. Oh my! addictive! ;D it's the song they played everytime he's on screen... verrrry niceeeeee...

speaking of this drama,

i believe you guys have seen the male lead?

Lee Seung Gi.

No?

hmm, well,

i don't know issit just me or what,

but i really think he looks like one of my fav entertainer, Huang Hong Sheng a.k.a Xiao Gui.

YUP! he works with Show Lo in the 100% Entertainment News. :)

COMPARE alright?

this is Lee Seung Gi. C; cute boyy~ love him too!
and i love the female lead, Shin Min Er. :D she's ubbberrrr cutee!!! (;

and this is Xiao Gui.
maybe its the way they smile?
or because, they both have dimples?
they just look alike. o.o
for me lar.. ;p

do they? :)

i had a looong day.

woke up at 11am, went to campus to finish PD project with my groupmates! :)

i had fun! i get to know them more.

and i find that, gosh, i'm the youngest!

one of them is 24, another 23 and one is 21. ..

i'm already the youngest among my gang,

it feels great to be youngest again now.

haha. ;p

anyhoo,

we work till 5pm. o.o

crazy right?

i thought so! never did i stayed in campus for that long!

IT'S BASICALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME IF I WERE BACK IN MAS!

then i left to QV to get some herbal tea.

preparation for all the late night studies. o.o

and had dinner with my groupmates! ;)

oh! they are, Lilian, Simon and Neville. :)

teehee.

nice people! C;

planning to have my PD3 with them again next semester!! ;D

Neville send me home then.

this is the first time i was sent home by car in Melbourne,

usually, cowie, kyle and chun walk me home.

it's great. :) miss riding on a car. haha.

long day,

but.. not so great!

WHY!?

because, Mischievous Kiss ends at episode 16!!

WHAT THE F?!

there don't even have the scene where Ha Ni got into the Nurse Program,

and no scene where Seung Jo is jealous of some other guy. );

....

Not even, the scene where he gave her a birthday present..

pffft.

i want more!!

make a 2nd episode!

me and sing will be the first one to watch!! :)

right?

alright. enough for today. :)

i'm tired.

sweet dreams.

p.s// glad that you stayed! :) please know, we all want you, need you here so much! you still have to attend my wedding!! so STAY. i know you can hear me. iloveyou. (;

love, cong.

冲动和理智之间的挣扎

2010-10-19T21:22:00.002+08:00

讨厌group assignment!

最讨厌了！

以前，都有朋友一起做，

互相互相。

如今，

我却一个人承受所有。

组员又不争气。

一个人真的好累，

真的好想放弃，

放弃那所谓的未来，

那是冲动。

冲动是不被允许的..

我真的快不行了，

我真的快崩溃了，

好想哭，

大声哭，

把心里所有的不甘，不愿，寂寞，无奈，

都哭出来。

可，

又如何？

问题解决不了，还耽误了时间，

能不能告诉我，

我该怎么办？

我应该怎么办？

首次明白，

无奈，真的让人很痛苦，

那种明明知道不可能自己希望在身边的人在身边，

却还是无助地希望着..

原来是这种感觉。

我真的好辛苦...

第七年

2010-10-16T16:44:00.005+08:00

你可曾想过？
我们之间的擦肩而过，
是你的意愿，我的不情愿，还是缘份的坚持？

那年，
我们还是小孩，
我，被青春迷惑，
你，置身事外，却愿意陪我沉沦..

你一直假装着，
我一直相信着，
我们彼此都没说破，
是希望它有一天能成真？
还是明白了开始是错误的？

错，就错吧。
我宁愿就这样错一辈子！
可你呢？

我，
是真的喜欢过。
可你呢？

我不要有天使为我祷告的一天，
却被迫接受那可悲的施舍。
由理想变成泪水，
由相恋变成暗恋，
许多年后的我们，
你依然是你，
而我，多了许多习惯，
习惯在夜里念着你，
习惯一个人傻笑着，
甚至，
习惯单恋你的感觉...

我，
依旧习惯。
更痛的是，习惯竟被事实伴随着。
原来那么爱我的你，和那么爱你的我，
都停滞在曾经的时候，爱情...就结束了

我会学着，
让你在没有我的地方疯狂，
让我在没有你的世界坚强。

外面下雪了，
又过一年了吗？

时间仍在，飞逝的，是我们。

♥ THE REAL PROPOSAL OF THE YEAR! ♥

2010-10-16T11:21:00.011+08:00

i'm am, too late to post this,

but i really just saw it, THIS MORNING!

and i hurried to share this with my family, and now here, with my love ones!

OH MY GOD!!

this is SOOOO a fairy tale came true!

every girl long and dream to have such proposal and wedding!! C;

and she, Leng Yein - a Malaysian Hot Model had what every girl wanted!

she got married on 10.10.10.

and was proposed on 09.09.09.

it's so sweet to think that her husband had planned it for so long! ♥this is one printed on the Star Newspaper. shocking enough?? :)

it's not at all, wait till you see the second one!
yup! on the billboard around Tropicana City Mall!
awww! every girl will burst into tears to see that. ;)
and then..

another proposal dinner suprise! in a Mamak. :) because they love Mamak.
it's all so pinktified and dreamy~

oh my! it's like a princess's tea time, full with pink&white flowers, AND cuppie cakes!!

♥

feel the love in the air! C:

this is her, the lucky girl. :) LengYein.

the cake. :)
the decorations!
the souvenirs of that night. :)
and of course,

the one thing that indicates you're taken by him/her FOREVER.

OH MY! :)

i heard it's from DeGem.

captivating? fascinating isn't it? :)

even the band it shaped as a heart. :)

touching enough?
girls, can't take it already?
wait till you see the wedding!
it was breathe taking!
swept me off my feet!!! C;
seriously,
is THAT great! awesome! use any word that describe something bazaarly great!
but i don't think i can post any pictures of the wedding here,
it's not right. i guess?
but it's on LengYein's facebook!
trust me, girls. go have a look.
and you'll be thinking,
' DAMN, how ever more lucky can she be! that's what i want for my wedding too! '

trust me!
or maybe is just me being so caught up with the wedding idea.
teehee. :)
but seriously, go have a look.
it's beautiful!
they even had their wedding photos taken at the snow moutain to present a white fairy tale theme! :)
the wedding dinner venue was decorated with a man made tree, known as the love tree, all white, leaves hanging down,
you know, like the avatar tree!
the cocktail dinner and the flower decorations! :)
the dress, the shoe, the makeup, the car, the wardrobe! and the people.

the link to view her wonderful wedding :
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=lf#!/lengyein?v=photos
there's total 6album! :)

this is the link to view her wedding video :
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=452282396796&ref=mf

my, it's really wonderful. :)
i envy her so much.
so here, i wish LengYein and her husband,
永远幸福快乐！
百年好合！
执子之手，与子偕老！♥

and also, for everyone that's inlove, soon to be in love or still searching for love,
愿天下人有情人终成眷属！♥

♥ LOVE IS SO IN THE AIR! C; ♥

love, cong. C; going back to do meet her biggest enemy - assignment. D;

the ultimate sweetest cuppie cake!

2010-10-11T21:09:00.002+08:00

i'm enjoying BIG M's chocolate milk. :)
damn! their chocolate milk tastes better than ours back in Mas. huhu~ ;)
it's the only thing i drink other than skyjuice.
i was thinking, since i want something sweet yet not fattening or unhealthy,
might as well take milk than softdrinks. C;

i've been back here in Melb for quite some time,
of course, one thing you should never doubt that i am, always, will always be missing you wonderful people back in Mas.
the feeling is very confusing,
sometimes, it hurts so bad.
yet, sometimes it's tooooo sweet that i can't help it but smile. ;3
so i'll tell myself, cong! few more weeks, just hold on for few more weeks and you'll be home sweet home!
yup! that's the only motivation i have given myself from the very first day!
the assignments are killing me!!
i have two dued next week, on the freaking same day! brrrr.
but then again, what's a student life without assignments, right? :D
oh well!

nothing special happen over here.
but how's everything over there?
doing fine, everyone? :)

being here, far far away from home gives me loads and i mean LOADs of time to think stuffs through..*maybe too many! xD
my sister said i've changed on the last trip home.
it makes me wonder.
did i?
she said, to her, i give her a more mature feeling now..
is this a good thing?
then again, i thought..
my mummy used to say that i have this merit, advantage or whatsoever you called it.
she says, i'm the happy-go-lucky kind,
the kind that in a cantonese sayings, 'even if the sky falls down, he/she will take it as a blanket..'
did i get it right? ahh, it's 天塌下来也当被盖。
it describes a person who basically takes everything easily and happily.
but am i?
i doubt so,
maybe i used to be, but no longer.

if i am,
how come i can't accept changes?
if i am,
how come i can't stop missing home?
if i am,
how come i keep wanting to go home?
if i am,
how come it hurts when conflicts happen between me and my love ones?

do i have to lose myself like that?
to lose the only advantage i have in me?
grr, i hate growing up. it makes you lose the original you.
and the worst of it?
you can't get it back,
because when you do, you're literally trying to force/gain something back.
people will say you're fake.
boohoo.

what to do?
life...
so full of worries...
:)

love, cong.

my mid sem break in MAS. :)

2010-10-09T10:24:00.022+08:00

PREPARE FOR A SUPERRRRBB LONG POST!

i had my mid sem break back in MAS.
it was great, no! more than great, to be home! :)
the moment where the plane touched down, and the captain said, '...to visitors, welcome to Malaysia, and to Malysians, welcome home.'
gosh, i almost cried that very moment! tears were already in my eyes. but i held on.
lol. i bet people will think that i'm nuts! ;p
anyhoo,
i reached safely..
and sin was standing right there to welcome me !! ;) lee as well.
we had MACDEE for breakfasttt!!
miss having macd breakfast with sin, or to say, with someone. haha. (;
my eyes were superrrb red though, why!? didn't sleep AT ALL on plane..

i was darn hyper on the way home! :)
missed MAS's car and car no.plate. lol! silly me. ;p
first thing when i reach home!?
call for PHUMBAA BOY!
and guess what? he still remembers me!
he ran, jump on the sofa where i was, and started merajuk-ing! C;
awwwww, i miss phumbaa doing that to me.
overwhelmed with happiness!
then went to kiss Felix and welcome Chanel!!
after all those lovey-dovey scenes, i dug out all snacks i carried back from oz!
my whole bag was practically full with snacks! haha. :)
i even brought Macaroons home! heh. C;
the next thing i did!? hop on my bed and roll on it..
ahhhh. the best thing in life is to get to sleep on your own bed huh?

i slept for like an hour only.
because i have to get prepared for a wedding dinner in bentong.
exciteddd! because my first dinner is gonna be cuisines made for wedding!!
OH MY! the dishes was GREAT! especially the TONG-BO MEAT.
my mummy had to stop me from eating. imagine. o.o
the satisfaction, the wonderful people around me..
mmm. :) love that night.
busy, busy, busy..
next morning, my family left to raub for a soft lauch of my daddy's project!
cong is so proud of her daddy! because the housing project was awesome!
i never knew how my daddy's project looks like, it was great to get to see his signature under the 'pemaju' titled. haha.
i was even joking to my brother when he wanted to touch the house model where people weren't allow to touch..
i was like : boy, i know this belongs to your father, still don't touch it!
justjoking. :)
but i had fun, like uberrrrb fun! i love hanging with my family!!
we talked and laugh!! i can't believe i missed it sooooooooooooooooooooooo muccch!

later that night, i went dinnner with my awesome love ones!
it was a dinner to celebrate for out september and october babies! :)
awwwwww.
i miss them mucch! so so so so so so so happy to get to see them!!
though not all of them, but happy enough!
went to tee's after the dinner, enjoying, relaxing, chilling and OF COURSE, toook plenty photos!!
this part me of me never change. ;p
i had the best sleeep that night, never felt better. mmmmm~~

3rd day, went for a movie with my family. :) The Legend of Fist - Chen Zhen. :)
i felt super pampered and love, because my family asked me what i wanted to eat!
so i chose Canton-i.
was kinda disappointed though, they had better food before.
and there's no more roast goose. D; big no no!

then my mummy's birthday celebration, C; we had dinner in a chinese restaurant!
got mummy a small LongChamp bag. she wanted a marketing bag, so yeah, marketing bag as you wish!! teehee.
and yammchaa with my peeeps, :) didn't stay as late as i expected! xD but tonnes of fun!
Malacca food trip with sing, yih, qian, sin and yih!! i was real happppyyy!! even now i still miss it! it's was wonderfull. we should do it again!
the next destination will be penang and langkawi, alright!? :D
mmm, ohhh! Picnic in FRIM with my family and relative..it was kinda celebration for my brother's birthday as well! hmmm, what should i get him!? :) hehe. shhh, it's a secret.
i wanted a nice cake for him too, but it was too late. ;( feel bad... haiseh..
MY OH MY, though i feel grateful about mother nature..and i heart it too,
but please never ask me to BE IN IT for too long..
i hate it. the GIGANTIC ANTS, the annnoooyyyinng cold leeches..
GRRR!!!!! BIGGIE NO NO!!
but i had to admit, the scenary and the greens was great!!! :)
we should do it too? right guys?
another yamchaa in Ss2 with to see kok and cowie and chunkeat!! :D
all and all i had funnn!!

ONE WORD to sum it all up,
FANTASTIC!
i really love being back in MAS. :)
i'm thrilled to see all my love ones, and i hope you guys feel the same as well. C;
this trip back home made my life here in oz so unreal.
being back home makes me feel that i was never in oz, never lived alone here in oz, never had left home..i don't know why. but i like! :*)
and and, somehow i felt daddy was happy too. daddy never really shows how he felt, but this trip home..i actually felt daddy and mummy was glad that i was home. :)
evidence :
daddy was in the petrol station paying for petrol, usually he just pays, get his cigarette and leave..but that day, before he pays, he came out and ask us what do we wanna buy!
awww. i know to some of you, it's nothing. but to me, it was touching. :) hehe. even mummy was like, what's up with him today, why so nice? haha!

on the day itself where i was about to leave, i went shopping with mummy in MNG. :)
phewww. misssed shopping! i manage to get two pieces, mummy too!
the day before, both my sistas got some from MNG as well!!
loveee shopping with themm!!
guess we are all MNG lovers!! C;

let pictures tell the story alright? (;
it goes backwards - from picnic to Malacca then mummy's bday and finally the sep+oct babies celebration!

re-acting the lionking scene, where simba was shown to all on the pride rock! ;p - FRIM

boy is officially 9!

Malacca (;
we da pao pork satay and eat at the roadside when the shop is just one block beside!! xD

Mummy's birthday. C;

phumbaa boy kiss kiss!!

mummy's prettty pretty cake! :)

i wanted to show more! especially the family photo.. but..

i manage to grab this corset petite dress from topshop last minute! and it's only rm70! love it!!

Sep + Oct babies birthday celebration!! :Dmummy tied my hair for me!! cong love it!! C;
group 1, with cheesing. :)
group 2, with kwankit and his girl. :)
dinner in de italian restaurant! i love foood there! yum yum! will be back soon! :)

i'm counting down again,

10 days was too short.

i can't wait to go back again!! :)

i want the CAKE!!

love, cong.

Happy MoonCake Festival! (;

2010-09-21T22:00:00.005+08:00

♥ 中秋节快乐！♥

this is the first year in my whole entire life,

i'm celebrating MoonCake festival alone, without any mooncakes.

this sucks. ;(

it feels utterly suck when you're alone oversea during festivals.

plus, the mooncake over here so are damn expensive!! o.o

thanks to skype (though the line sucks so bad), at least i get to talk to my family when they are having dinner, and chitchatting just now. :)

AND,

THANK GOD that i'll be in the plane tomorrow at this hour!

haha.

;)

i feel so lucky.

so so lucky.

i've been praying few weeks ago that attendance will be poor on my presentation day.

and guess what?

my wish came true!

i don't know why, maybe because of the mid-sem break,

attendance for both PD and FIM are poor.

i manage to finish my presentation, okay-ly. ;p

will i always get this luck? hope so. :)

the internet over here sucks,

it was suppose to be 66AUD per month with unlimited GB, but now they've limited it.

grrr.

no more hardcore dramas. D;

what the hell am i gonna do without dramas?

my life would be sooo freaking boring over here.

way way much more boring than my current one.

brrrr.

now i know,

how good Malaysia is.

This is my Favourite Part of They Kiss Again. i've rewatch this over ga-zilliion times

and i still find it sweeeeeet!!!

the best ever in the whole drama.

i find ZhiShu UTTERLY hot in the yellow raincoat and his short hair! (he looks like edison chan abit, right?)

i find XiangQing cute when she was crying. xD

i find ZhiShu is sooooooooooo gentle to her.

especially when he said 'if something happen to you, what would i do?'

AHHHHHHHHH.

2010 MoonCake Festival's wish :

I WANT A HUSBAN LIKE ZHISHU! (;

'If ever should these waiting lips,

touch softly on your face,

they'll leave a trail of passion...

time will ever erase.'

do you know?

all packed!! just waiting...

love, cong.

another lost love.

2010-09-21T18:57:00.004+08:00

19 September was real shocking.
i had to, no not only me, my family as well..
had to suffered the pained of losing another one we love.
one of my relative passed away..
i felt utterly bad as i can't be there.
this is, the first time i'm not in a place where i'm obliged to be..
later that night,
my family (aunts and qian's family) left to bentong for the funeral,
when they reach bentong..
my aunt's dog, princess, passed away..
what made it worst was, that day was my aunt's chinese birth date..
i can't imagine how depressed she can be..
she had always loved princess like her daughter,
i felt even worst not to be there for her..
my aunt loved me alot, took care of me since i was a kid..
i really wish i could be there for here.
and princess dear girl,
though i'm not real close with her, but she came in on the same day as brownie,
i have too tonnes of memories about her..
i use to bully her alot when i visit qian's...
i know i'll miss her.
may you rest in peace.
i know you'll be fine. brownie, simba, fifi and pongo will be there to keep you accompanied, right girl??
always we will miss you...

thank god i'll be back in two days.

i found this in my old blog..and i really like it..
i can't believe i've write such things so many years ago. or did i get it from elsewhere?
i guess, i really did love him. :)
it was a post about me struggling, deciding whether to move on or hold on..
of course, i've moved on..
but it sure was tough, a really long way,
it wasn't easy, not even a bit..
back in those time, i can still remember how i wish a rain can just wash away the person right in my heart, or maybe get injured on the head and had a memory loss..
haha.
but now that i look back, all this seems funny and beautiful. :)
funny because i was this annoying!
beautiful because i have really loved someone. those were real...
and all this pain, made me a better person, lead me to a better person. ;)

Holding on:
You showed me the world,
When I was all locked up inside,
You reached out your hand,
And took me on a magic carpet ride,
One look at your smile,
And I could see the light shining everywhere,
People like you don't come out of thin air,
People like you is hard to find...

AND,

Moving on:
Forget about that guy,
Forget about the way you fell into his eyes,
Forget about his charms,
Forget about the way he held you in his arms,
Walking on air's obnoxious,
The thrills,
The chills,
Will make you nauseous!
And you'll never get enough.
Just forget about love!
Forget about romance,
Forget about the way your heart begins to dance,
Then you feel the blush..
When he's spouting out some sentimental mush.
Love really is revolting!
It's even worse than when you're moulting.
Enough of this fluff!
Just forget about love!

i'm glad i had the blog. it recorded so many of my past, some i don't even remember until i read it. :)
i really did have fun with my classmates, friends, and teachers.
thank you. :)

p.s//i'll be having presentation tomorrow. ;( scare death!

love, cong.

They Kiss Again

2010-09-18T17:47:00.004+08:00

i've been watching drama all day,
:)
not only day, but days.
seriously, now all i do is watch drama and wait for the day that i can hop on the plane and say BYE to OZ and I'm HOME to Mas. ;)
as the date comes nearer, time seems to pass slower.
brrr,
so i've finish watching They Kissed Again today,
because My girlfriend is a 9talied fox and Mischievous Kiss ony renewed every thursday and friday on pps.
so yeah.
and my god!
i fell in love with this drama!! INSTANTLY!
though i dislike the first one, but the second one is soooooooo, wayyy much better!
at least, Xiang Qin is not that dumb.. and ZhiShu, sooooo much sweeter!!!
it's the only drama so far i've seen that talks about the after marriage life.
it' toooo sweet how ZhiShu treats his wife, XiangQing.
he loves her so much,
never the way she wanted or understand,
but definitely the right way.
though he may seem cold to her,
but when he's sweeet, my good! it melts my heart... so bad. ;(
i especially love episode 16! where she went to tell him she got through the test.
aisehhh.
plus, i realise she's prettier in this series, i wonder why.
but..
that's not the main point,
the main point is,
i really really love this drama, because it's about the life after a marriage and how husband and wife live with each other..
somehow,
i kinda make a decision,
never i was this sure..
I WANT A HUSBAND LIKE ZHISHU!
seriously!
*no more JunPyo or JiHu... because i don't know how they treat their wife..so no no no..
of course, i don't expect him to be a genius, but he must MUST be smarter than me..
very reliable..tall, and can faces problem calmly..like, emm, somehow i know i can depend on him! you get me?
he can treat me cold sometimes, must always sweet the other time.
just like ZhiShu!!!!!
i know this is insane, but i actually dream of ZhiShu twice in a row. ;p
shows how determined i am huh? :)

i really really wanna be the wife of someone like ZhiShu. :)
i really really hope my husband will be like ZhiShu. :)
so pray for me.
haha.
okay, Joe Cheng as ZhiShu is HOT! and Ariel Lin as XiangQin in the ISWAK2 is cuter than the first one. :) :)
but i still like ZhiShu more than Joe Cheng. ;p though my ZhiShu should be as tall as Joe too. xD haha.
love, cong.

chanel girl :D

2010-09-12T17:19:00.001+08:00

Daddy bought mummy a birthday present!
daddy bought mummy Chanel girlll!
it's a female chowchow!!
her name is Chanel Tan. ;)
i named her! hehe.
AHHH! i can't be there to welcome her and this suckss! :(
thanks to skype, i can still see her.
hehe, she's Phumbaa boy's future loverrr!
we will make them fall in love!!! :D :D :D

i'm Chanel Tan. :)

love, cong

Mischievous Kiss ♥

2010-09-12T11:05:00.005+08:00

my dear cousin adeline says my post is always emo...

SORRY ABOUT THAT!

but this will definitely be a HAPPY one! :D

though i felt sour that i wasn't able to attend my family's Raya gathering. *pfft*

trust me, it sucks to see over the webcam that all of them are having fun while you're stuck alone over here. grrr. but oh well! ;) hehe,

i'm fine. ;) really.

suppose to be doing my assignment. -.- the Pebblepad? heard of it? it's some software use to create a webfolio with your CV/resume.. o.o

but i decided to blog first!! since i've stop progressing from friday till now.. so, what's another 20 minutes to blog? haha. ;p

i'll do it hardcore today! i HAVE to finish it! :) wish me luck~~

wooohoooo! love this new song on my playlist?

it's from the Korean Drama Mischievous Kiss, ♥ ♥ ♥

Ji Hoo is the Male lead! :) huhu~ he's just HOT. :)

ga ga ga, though the female lead.. is well.. normal, but then she looks cute after a few episode.

the more you look at her, the more she gets cuter! ;p

honestly speaking, i myself kinda have doubts on this drama,

i used to DISLIKE the TAIWAN VERSION - It Started With a Kiss (恶作剧之吻) !

not because of the Male lead, he's cute.. tall and smart.

the one i DISLIKE, or ANNOYED to see is the Female lead, 湘琴. she seriously gets on my nerve!

don't get me wrong, i DON'T DISLIKE 林依晨, the girl who acts as 湘琴,

i just don't like her acting in this drama, it's tooooooooooooooooooooooo over!

she makes the female lead loooks so STUPID, so DUMB that i feel like strangling her!!

SERIOUSLY. it's not cute, but annnnoyyyinnnnggg!

that's why i never like the drama, *sorry qian, i know you LOVE it so much.

but still.. i have to be honesttt. that's my own view though..

hmmm.

but suprisingly, the korean version wasn't like this! THANK GOD!

the female lead in this version is way better, though she's dumb too, but not annoying!!

TRUST ME. :)
NO comment of both version's Male lead. they both look gorgeous!!! :)) ♥

Ji Hoo (i know i know, that's not his real name. but i prefer to recognise him as JiHoo. haha. xD)as Baek Seung Jo :)

Oh Ha Ni. :)

Only 4 episode is out. D;

i don't know how long i have to wait.. it's only showing on every Wednesday and Thursday over there in Korea. haisehh.. it's gonna be a looooonnng and torturing wait. +.+

THEREFORE, i went searching for others..

and guess what i found?!

Itazura Na Kiss - Anime Version. :) :) ♥ ♥ ♥ it!!

this is the original version, i mean.. compared to the Taiwan one - which is the only one i've watched all of it so far.. the Korean one is not done showing, so i don't know yet. :/

hmm,

anyhoo, even from the Original, the female lead wasn't as DUMB and as ANNOYING as the taiwan version female lead.. so i guess, they were overdoing.. -,-'

then again, it's my own view. :)

i ♥ the anime version!

i'm not really the anime kinda, i only watched few..

mm, Cardcaptor Sakura, Alice Academy. OH and Naruto! :) haha,

but this is a GOOOD ONE!!!!

i watched all 25 episodes at once yesterday!!

i can't stop!! it's tooooo goood!!

hehe. :)

this one is better!! they had the relationship part, the marriage part and even after marriage all in one!

after watching the whole series,

something kinda hits me. ;p

it's like i'm more more more sure that my life goal is to get married to a great guy and be a good wife, a good mother. :) haha!!

i'm too easy to be influenced? haha.

seriously, seeing her getting pregnant makes me wanna be a mother too! :) i wonder how will my hubbie react and how will he take care of me? huhu~~ *having wild fantasy here.. *

i've always wanted that, this anime only made me more keen and sure of it.

haha.

maybe having a guy like Naoki (Male lead) isn't that bad..

though cold, but the once in a while tender is so OMG. ;p

maybe having the way how Kotoko (Female lead) gets her right one, isn't so bad..

though there's loads of heartbreaking, but at least there's no regret. and.. after so many years of liking, she finally gets the guy..

hmmm, how sweeeeet ♥

cong is dreaming again. ;p

yeap! sometimes i wish my love life was somehow like the anime/drama series..

you know?

those series where the couples known each other since young..

then something happened, and they were seperated,

the guy had always liked the girl, even till now when it's already, i don't know, maybe.. 15 years?

he approached her without letting her know..

she likes him too.. always had but he don't know that she does, and she don't know that's him!

HAHA. thinking too much aight?

haiseh.. how is it possible?

i'm already 20. o.o

so maybe i'll make it possible for my daugther! *very sure about it!

seeing Kotoko so persistence kinda makes me feels weak,

i kinda wonder what if i was as persistence as her?

what if i endure all the hurt and held on with it..?

will things be different??

:) just wondering.

maybe that's the only thing i've regretted so far..

oh well! :)

i like my life now!!

Itazura Na Kiss

There you go. the poster of this Anime. :) the guy may looks NOT SO ANIME HOT kind here, but he's kinda cute and hot in the series. ;p
A MUST WATCH!
i'm gonna rewatch it when i finish my PebblePad. brrrrrr.
till then,

AZA AZA FIGHTING! ♥ :)

p.s// 1* days till hommmeee~~

love, cong. :) :) full with lovey dovey moood!

给你。

2010-09-08T12:11:00.004+08:00

毕竟我们都是曾经，
只是，
原来的曾经是那么的可悲。
不，
是可笑吧？

我一路向北，
离开有你的季节，
你说你好累，
已无法再爱上谁，
风在山路吹，
过往的画面，
全都是我不对，
细数惭愧我伤你几回。

我一路向北，
离开有你的季节，
方向盘周围，
回转着我的后悔，
我加速超越，
却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲，
细数惭愧我伤你几回，
停止狼狈就让错纯粹...

‘如果一對男女在分手後，不是朋友的話，不是一方從未付出真心，就是一方永遠都在默默付出...’

祝你幸福...

love, her.

Farewell Assignments. :) for now.

2010-09-07T15:33:00.008+08:00

Annyong~~ :0

haha. saying farewell to my assignments!

packing up, jumping up and down to go home!

can't wait!! :)

although assignments are gone for now,

as i still have two more to due after my semester break,

but nothing can bit the feeling of going home!!!!

i'm so happyy now.

which is why i love this song!

it gives me more and more smile when i replay it. :)

haha!

did it hit you too? did it make you smile as well?

the cheerie, lovey dovey feeling? haha.

just like the sweeetest cuppiecake. ;)

it's a Korean Drama my younger and elder sister intro me. :)

My GirlFriend is a Nine -Tailed Fox(GuMiHo).

i have to thank both of my beloved sistas! :D
cause this drama is god damn good! :)
it's a fusion of modern love story and ancient myth, why?
the female lead is REALLY a 9tailed fox. :)
the male lead and second male lead, one is cute and the other is HOT with some itsy bitsy evil-ish. :) the female lead is supperrb cute!! :)

female lead. :)

male lead. :)

second male lead. :)

the whole drama is so cheeery and sweet!! :) though it too have some heartbreaking scenes,

but then again, which drama don't? *winks
i'm only at episode 8, because there's only 8 so far in pps, i'm not sure about youtube. :)
this song! haha. so cheery oh?
you will never guess the lyrics of the song is somehow sad,
i'm not sure about the entire,
but its something like,

I think i lost my mind at that time
how could i left you
i only loves you i’m really sorry
i could only cry
I think i lost my mind at that time
how could i left you
i really miss it. i miss you
please forgive me~ i think i lost my mind

yup! the whole song is about a guy asking his girl back. :) but in this cute song? haha.
i love it tooo bits!!
though BOF fever is still on, this will be my current addiction too ya know? :) oh and Mischievous Kiss as welll! hehe.
i still have the urge to rewatch BOF, but then, not too soon, if i can remember what happen next in every scene..it's very much kinda spoiling isn't it?
so..i'll wait patiently for now. ;p
however, once in a while i do randomly choose an epsiode to watch. hehe. can't get over it just yet. huhu~ ;)

another thing that made my day? :)
i bought cupcakess!! mmmm, deliciousssss!
mouthwatering! though i can't have lemon meringue pie, but i got lemon meringue cuppiecakee!!

it's so yummmy that i can finish all four at once. but i wanna save it for later, in case there's any sudden cravings at night, like yesterday. -.-"
i'm such a failure,
i kept on promising myself not to eat anymore snacks other than proper meal..
but i can't. D;
and i don't wanna get fat! help! ! !

HOME SWEET HOME in 10+ dayss!!

how's your day guys? :) goood?

love, cong

am i 20?

2010-09-03T00:25:00.008+08:00

ying baobei!
these are alll my 'beautiful' photos! lol! just kidding. ;p
nah, i camwhored. reason? because assignments are tooo boringgg. booohooo!
but i'm glad one more is downn!! i have another to go!
i'll be starting it later, or.. tomorrow. we'll see.
i just wanna sit back and relax for a while. :) woohooo!

today's my coussiee birthday! :)
Leong, Happy Birthday yeah!! haha.

i feel bad for him, i mean, maybe he might not feel that way,
but if it's for me, i will be .. well.. just down.
cause i won't be able to celebrate my birthday with my love ones. yeap. he's in US now. :)
working hard for his future!
welcome the soon-to-be engineer yoo!! ;) *winks
this makes me wonder,
maybe it's fate..on the very moment i gasped for air.
i was born on december.
then now i'm studying overseas,
if i were to be born between febuary and june or august till october,
i might not be able to celebrate my birthday at home.
so, i wonder,
was it fate all along?
that i was born on december,
that semesters end at november,
haha!
just guessing? who knows? it might be.
i always believe that one is suppose to walked his/her own path that was already set by fate. :)
is just the matter of how you handle it, and then maybe gain a bonus or suprise?
but in the end..fate will bring you back to where you're suppose to be.
the process of going through it is for us to learn..
that's life for me. :)

haha.
i'm happy!
that i was born in a family like that, and fated to have friends like this! haha.
woooooooo~
i'm hyperrr! haha.
i'm 19 days to home!!!
and assignments are alomost done!
:) :) :)

YING!!! pictures for you~
PURE cong...without make up.. ;p
beeen real lazy on make up. not much different from with-make-up cong right? *crossing finger,praying* HAHA!
do i look like i'm 20?? o.o
AND, my daddy and sin says i look fairer now? really? i don't think so. :/

this is me, this is real. :) NO MAKE UP!

this, below. i'm with eyeliner and mascara only. :)
was heading out with jieshen, kyle for late lunch!! :D
omg, jieshen's still jieshen.
he is like stuck in secondary one! haha. :) he remembered alot about it, when i don't. haha.
we were suppose to be in st.kilda beach now. :( but he has assignments like me. sooo.. we postponedd!
i'm hoping for it to be here sooonnnn!! :)

BOF fever still on~
currently watching Mischievous Kiss by Dear JiHoo. :))
but i don't really like it, cause the lead female..is kinda... welll...normal. too normal. -.-
plus, i don't like the female character in the drama..tooo STUPID!
AND, i can't accept JiHoo not being JiHoo. he loooks waaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy HOTTER in BOF. :)
i'll try to enjoy! haha.

love, cong.

The After Story.

2010-09-02T11:47:00.007+08:00

:)
i'm getting on my assignments! just handed up my AIS assignment.
feel real good, as one is down,
plus, i'm nearer to home!! :D

while i'm still in BOF fever,
:) *i kinda think i forever will be
i wanted to share the most touching part ever in the whole movie,
where JanDi throw herself into the pool to make JunPyo remember her,
yea, he sorta got into an accident and lost his memory..
that part nearly made me dehydrated! haha.
tears ducts are broken.. goes on and goes..
hmm,
I GOT IT!! I FOUND IT!! YAY YAY!!!

Boys Before Flowers Episode 25 Part 3/6 ENG SUBS

SADDENING and TOUCHING right!?
haiseh,

anyhoos. :)
this is the After Story of Boys Over Flowers :)
it's about what happen to them 5 years later.
love it.
too sweeeet!
ENJOY!

F4 After Story, 5 years later - Episode 1 So Yi Jeong

because in the drama, it did really mention whether Ga Eul got together with YiJeong. so they made this short movie.. :) love them! they look superb cute together!! :D

F4 After Story, 5 years later - Episode 2 Song Woo Bin

like i mention on previous post, WooBin doesn't really play much in the drama. that's why he's still single. :( and i don't like that! grrr. i guess without love he still has his boys!! BRO-MANCE!! i love BRO-MANCE. ;)

F4 After Story, 5 years later - Episode 3 Yun Ji Hu

JiHu's the most heartbreaking one. the whole short movie is about how he misses JanDi. you call see nearly all the scenes where he was there for her, nomatter what. he's like JanDi's firefighter, whenever her emergency bell rings, he's always there to put off whatever hard time she's going through. i love him..

F4 After Story, 5 years later - Episode 4 Gu Jun Pyo

SWEETEST among all! the happy ending that i love!! My god, this short movie just made me love him even more. he looks good in everyway! how sweet of him to make cookies for JanDi. :) like the song the sang, My everything - you're my first as well as last. he's just perfect. Gu Jun Pyo~~

i wanna have my own JunPyo. :) heartss!
that's all i wanna share. :)

love, cong.

아마 당신은 모를거야 내가 얼마나 많이 사랑하는지

2010-09-01T21:16:00.008+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!!
I'M PRACTICALLY GOING CRAZY!
INSANE, BERSERK!
i don't know, i'm SO OUT OF MY MIND!
as you know, i've been watching Boys Over/Before Flowers,
WHEN i have an assignment due next monday and another one due next friday!!
i know, i know, i can't help it!
they're TOOOO GORGEOUS!
blame them!
seriously, everytime when i watch an episode, i'll be like 'okay, after this i will do my work'.. again and again,
i just can't help but to hit the play button!
if i said,
F4 Taiwan was my love,
F4 Korea WAS, IS, and ALWAYS WILL BE my ♥
SERIOUSLY!
i don't know how many times i've cried over and over again watching the drama,
sad, happy, sweet, touch, helpess, heartache, mad, insane..i've gone through all that with just one drama!
this is TOO MUCH!
how can they make such a good drama with all 4 drop dead gorgeus guys and pretty actress through out the whole drama!!!!
GAHHH!!
my whole head is about BOF now.. every bits of it.. i can't think straight!
they have four different guys inside which i love. :(

Gu Jun Pyo - F4's Strongest Leader

my all time favourite! hot, cute, childish in a way but bad boy all the time, the type of guy that rather broke all his ribs then letting anyone hurting his girl, sweeet, and will love you till the very end! Once he knows its you, forever it will be. not to forget, LOYAL too. :) ALWAYS never fails to fascinate me. ;D

Yoon Ji Hoo - F4's Fairytale Prince

AHHH! the secret guardian. again hot, cute, sweeet and LOYAL. but the way he loves a girl, heartbreaking.. he's always there whenever you need him, the 'firefighter' or 'handkerchief' that will wipe away all your tears and sweats, though will never get loved back. it kills me to see him loving JanDi like that. i love him more now! :(

So Yi Jeong - F4's Official Casanova

basically they are all hot, cute and sweet! :) that's a fact that no one can doubt! UH-UH! *shakes head* anyway, YiJeong sunbae can totally knock you down in 5seconds with his killler smile! though he acts cool and bad, but he's the kid who's sacred for love, pure and passionate.. he knows girls real well. ;)

Song Woo Bin - F4's Cute and Charamistic

H+C+S ! :) he's the MAN-est within the F4, yet, funny and gentle. :) although he does not play much in BOF, but i really love him! they way he kicks ass and cared for his friends! so so so attracting! he's a real mannnn!! ;)combination of cooolness and extra cute~~

they are all tender boys. :)

i wish, i can have any, ANY one of them as my guy!! ;) and then the rest as my guardian, like how f3 takes care of JanDi. :( i envy her muchhhhh~~

this is almost the end, i love it, because she reminisce on what f3 did for her! :) haiseh haiseh haiseh.

grant me wish please. :) i want nothing more in my life to have my dream guy !!

isssh.

nice?! :) the later part about JunPyo and JanDi, is heartbreaking yet touchinng! anyhoo, now you can see how well is JanDi loved by f3!? i wish i had that too. :(
i have to say goodbye to BOF.

i finished it just now.

i will rewatch it once i finish my assignments!! :) :)

ahhh, i hate the feeling of wanting more about the drama yet all i can watch is watched !!

Grrr. they should have BOF 2!! :(

nomatter how much i blabb about them, i can never get enough,

and you guys will be sick.

so, i should stop. :) cheers!

BOF FOREVER! :)
love, cong

p.s// 생일 때늦은 생일 축하...

kiss the rain

2010-08-29T19:12:00.004+08:00

i've been searching this song, for sooo long..
i thought i will never ever able to find it, since no one i know, heard the song before..
i gave up.
then,
today, while i was watching Boys Over Flowers, i found the song!!
i'm so overwhelmed!!
this is the best piano song i've heard... ever..
Kiss the Rain - Yiruma

it's so.. sad.. yet so beautiful...
in chinese, we called it 凄美...
just like the rain,
its always saddening when it rains,
yet,
its so beautiful to see every droplets kiss the green...
it gives me the feeling of a girl.. a girl who's near to her death bed..
she's so weak, so weak till it hurts just seeing her..
yet, she kept on smiling.
she told me..there's still so much in this world, this world is too pretty..
but..
she's not that fortunate to have this...
she gave me a smile,
then..
fell asleep...

i'm suppose to be doing my assignment,
but i really need a break. so i watched BOF. :)
it's the best and my favourite series...
really.
i love the boys. Gu Jun Pyo, Yun Ji Hu, So Yi Jeong and Song Wu Bin. :)
they are all wonderful guys, how i wish i can have them in my life..
then again, Jun Pyo is my priority.
but now?
i'm not so sure anymore,
looking at how Ji Hu loves JanDi suffocates me..
it's so sad. he loved her so much, yet..JanDi loves Jun Pyo..
and i love Jun Pyo too.
i was wandering, who will i choose, if i were JanDi..
it's too much, too difficult.
Jun Pyo - loves you with all his heart, so passionate...yet
Ji Hu - always there for you when you need him..silently..
i wonder if i have a JiHu in my life..
i wish i have. then again,
how can i be so selfish?
i'd rather not..
because it's killing him..

cong is going crazy again..
she's so emo..
and she don't know why...
i need a reason break down and cry.
or else,
i'll go insane.
it's suffocating me..
pushing me towards the edge..
i need to cry to get it out..
i need to..

i can't take it no more...

help....
...
..
.

this is a song sang with the music, Kiss the Rain. not so bad. but i love the lyrics...
....

2010-08-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

i'm not happy...

so not happy..

i want my junpyo, my jihoo, my yijeong, my woobin...

..
..

haiseh

uberbb busy

2010-08-27T09:50:00.002+08:00

i'll be uberrrrr busy. :(
have tonnes and tonnes of assignment to finish.
so,
i guess. won't update much often from today. :)
sorrry. :D

before i end this post,
yesterday,
i saw this..one...'thing'
it made my heart beat tilll sooooooooooo FAST!
oh my gosh!!!!!

;) :) :)

superrrrrrrrrrbbbbb happppyyyy!! :D

i
SAW
a
BOOKSTORE!! that rent my favourite novels!!! :D :D

love, cong.

青春纪年册

2010-08-23T23:03:00.005+08:00

i'm suppose to do my assignment, but i was busy searching songs to listen,
i found this old song of ours. :)
i can't help but to post it here!

i was listening to this songs while skyping with sin...
then sin called me 哭包。
yup, so i guess i don't have to mention how was i when the song was playing...
but when i listen to it again just now,
i smiled. :)
it's just...too much!
the song, the music video, the lyrics,
brings back all my high school memories!!
i really really really miss those days!
going to school, attending class, skipping class, having break,
talking, joking, laughing, crying, pissing..
oh my gosh!
what a life i had back then! :)

are you already sick of my post?
sorryyy! really.
i am abit worried that you guys are,
haha. ;p
but i really really wanna share this song and the lyrics here.
i hope you guys can feel what i feel from the lyrics..
those the happy moments of high school..
i can practically can see it crystal clear in my mind,
of us,
sitting in 5 Galileo talking,
sitting at the corridor joking,
having lunch in the cafeteria,
all studying for exams,
entering the MPH for SPM,
looking at each other with smiles after SPM,
birthday celebrations..
ohhh!
i do not like to live in the past,
but i do like to reminisce. ;)

seriously,
i miss you people.
and seriously,
i thank god i have you guys!
thanks for the memoriess! :)

maybe i'm not part of yours,
but you can have no doubt that you're already in mine,
so deep, so clear that it can..i know, it will..last forever. :)
even when all my hair turn white,
i will never forget how we used to laugh, and cry!
those days,
are always the ones i wish i could once live again... ;)

here's the video. i can't embed it. :( :( nor can i find it on mixpod!!! or else i will play it straight away!! i think because it's an old sonnnnng. :( :( :(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSwx1XBAJtE

给你我的心作纪念
这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜
睁开眼就看见永远

给我你的心作纪念
我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册

去年夏天数着贝壳和浪花的海边
我们祈祷着明年的天
还能够保持这样无忧笑脸
你是夏天有海风吹过棕榈的蓝天
让我忘记了眼泪有多咸
你一出现就是晴天

还想听你任性的说
要带我去环游世界
就算整个世界都改变
也不改变为你勇敢的自己

给你我的心作念
这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜
睁开眼就看见永远

给我你的心作纪念
我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大我也会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册

一年以后我们踏上了各自的旅途
虽然经历过不同的故事
仍记得海边的约定

还想听你任性的说
要带我去环游世界
就算整个世界都改变
也不改变为你勇敢的自己

给你我的心作纪念
这份爱任何时刻你打开都新鲜
有我陪伴多苦都变成甜
睁开眼就看见永远

给我你的心作纪念
我的梦有你的祝福才能够完全
风浪再大会勇往直前
我们的爱镶在青春的纪念册 ( 是永远噢~)

p.s// i miss going to the beach with the whole gang!! let's do it again!! or Genting also can! please? :)

love,cong.

realization

2010-08-21T18:53:00.006+08:00

i realise i cried easily now a days...

and i think the reason behind this,

is because i'm here in Melbourne?

yes, i admit. i do cry alot.

watching touched or moved moments will make me tear easily,

watching someone said sweet things to another will make me tear,

someone just doing something small for me, would make me tear too..

but now?

by listening to songs, will make me cry..

looking outside window during night time when everyone is busy, asleep or having dinner, will make me tear too...

even sometimes when i'm bathing, the thought of home, sin and my dearest..makes me cry too..

yeah..just the thought of you guys can make me tear easily..

i'm starting to think i'm being more pessimistic!

but i'm not!
and i don't wanna be..

i still laugh when i read something funny from the novels, watch drama,

i still sing. :)

i hum to myself, :D

i make fun of myself, when i think i'm silly. ;p

i talk to myself. ;)

i still talk alot when i'm out with cowie, chun, kyle or jiekai. haha.

of course, i still talk and gossip with my family, sin and you guys. :)

i can still think properly, listen to my friend's problem as well..

so, i don't think i'm pessimistic!

right?

i just.. miss home more. that's it! :)

but.
the only problem i have..
is sleeping.
i used to sleep before 12 back home! and all my close ones know...
that's why i'm never the clubbing type.. ;p *giggles*
now?
i can't sleep until 2! i mean, Melbourne's time.
which disturbs my beauty sleep! :(
i had no choice though,
the feeling of sleeping, offing the lights with silence everywhere,
terrifies me.
i will have to toss and turn, toss and turn, and then fall asleep at i don't know when.
but i always have loads wandering in my mind, and the most frequent one? 'can morning come faster?'
yup,
i don't know why...
why?!
i hate it most, because my skin must rest between 10-2, and i start to sleep only at 2?!
arrrrggghhhh!
no worries, i'm fine.
i can overcome it by myself.
i'm cong.
;)

that day, everyone was busy, no one online and facebook was boring..
i had the sudden urge to listen F4's songs. :)
and gosh! all those high school memories, the crazy over F4 periods, all came back!
i had to admit, F4 was part of my high school memories!
and METEOR GARDEN! oh my gosh! it was THE HIT! everyone everywhere were talking about them, not only Asia, but even in Western Countries! haha. :)
Dao Ming Shi, Hua Zhe Lei, Xi Men and Mei Zhuo! oh, of course, San Chai!
they practically made the word 'meteor' popular!
people were like hoping to see meteor rain after that drama.
it definitely affected me! :)
even though Boys Over Flowers is what i prefer right now, but back then.. F4 was my love!! haha.
they are old now. ;p hehe. i used to love Vic Zhou, better known as Zai Zai, :) but, i think the hottest for now is Vanness Wu! :)
their songs.. remind me so much...

流星雨，第一时间，我是真的真的爱你，要定你，为你执着，绝不能失去你，烟花季节，爱的领域，TeAmo, Can't help falling in love, 爱在爱你....
oh my god, oh my god!!
F4 is my Forever memories wei!
lol.
how can you forget the one thing you used to love?
even though you don't love it no more now,
but the moments when you really love it,
is something you can never get it out of your mind..
simply because, you really loved.
right?

can i just pull out my drawer, expect that i can jump into it,
and have a walk down to my memories?
i promise i will come back and i won't change anything that is done..
i just wanna go back and feel..the feelings that i used to have,
that i will no longer have...
those moments were great. :)
without worries, enjoying school life everyday!
now i know, when the adults say that school life, being a student is the best part!

this feeling is like, i don't know how to describe,

helpless? berserk?
you want something so bad that you can break down and cry any minute,
but then..you also realise that,

there's nothing you can do, nothing can be done..
because.. what's done is done..what's gone is gone..
nomatter what happens,
noone, can ever..go back to their past.
maybe that's why memories are so precious?

i promised sin for these pictures. :)

ABC soup. :)

Melted Butter & Diced garlice steam with scallops! :) *yummmss* the reason for not using a proper plate is because i don't know whether my plate can be use to steam. i'm afraid it will crack!

my whiteberry, engraved cover! it's freeeeee! :)

Pasta. :) before me eat!

Pasta. :) when i eat!! LOADS of PARMESIAN CHEESEE!!! :D

fried cabbage with prawn & carrots ; fried egg with prawn. :) like i said, i don't know how to fry egg properly, like flip it? no..-.-' haha!

my family's recipe. :) Beef rice, we have to eat because we need bloooodd! haha.

:) my marie socksss!! i love ittt~~

all my dishes are home dishes,

not restaurant type.

i wanna learn those!! :) one day! haha.

p.s// 空出我的怀抱，随时都为你保留......我只是舍不得用双手把你反锁在我怀中。这份爱，任凭你去挥霍，任凭你去要求，我还是为你执着，不管走到了最后是否会一无所有。就算你不懂我的心痛，不懂我的脆弱，我还是为你执着。不管多久，我会一直在这个角落...... -（为你执着- 仔仔）

love, cong.

the cost of growing up

2010-08-18T13:37:00.005+08:00

i saw a video just now on facebook,
i guess everyone saw it already...
like always, i'm the slowest, the most out-dated one.. haha
i'm eeyorre~
anyways, what i'm trying to say is,
i get it. i so get it.
how you use to believe in your dreams, your idea..helplessly!
no matter who says whatever, you'll still believe in it!
those were the days,
when we were still young, still kids...
remember how hard it was for your parents to keep you silent for a certain tinkle idea in your mind?
but now...how hard issit for you to persuade yourself, to be persistence on that particular idea...

now?
like i said,
because we're no longer kids.
we grew up,
have tonnes of freedom that we didn't had when we were kids,
did loads of things that we wish so much when we were kids,
remember those days when we used to cross our fingers so hard? or telling a friend in a conversation?
'oh god! i can't wait to grow up!' and 'i wanna be an adult le!...ish..' or 'i wanna grow up faster! i want freedom!'
i remembered, and i regret.
how foolish i was to ever have said that!
i should have known, being a kid is only once a while, not even a quarter of your life..
but being an adult? you have THE REST of YOUR LIFE to be! to do whatever you want..
but a kid?
you can never do things like a kid again,
you can never see things like a kid again
you can never think ike a kid again,
you can never dream like a kid again!
like the video stated,
not believing in your idea OR being creative but with doubt..that's how you believe as an adult now..
it is..the cost of growing up..
everyone love that video,
but i have no idea why..
i cried when i watch the video..
because of the ugly truth..i guess.
or was it something else?

i know, to some, they might think they still can believe,
but how strong is your believe?
even if you wanna believe like a kid,
you know you can't..
cause reality..will soon change you, without you even realising..
that's life.

sad, isn't it?
no point regreting on the past,
cherish now! that's the best solution to this fragile life! ;)

uh uh, DON'T GET ME WRONG,
i'm not saying we don't believe anymore,
just with more doubts, more buts, more 'what ifs' and more worries. :)
i do believe myself, but also, there's a small voice down in my heart,
asking me, myself..
what if..? but.... can it be?

JUST IN CASE some of you guys haven't seen it yet,
here's the link. log in to FB first ler. ;) it's not a youtube video.
http://www.facebook.com/#!/video/video.php?v=483830584745&ref=mf

p.s// I'M NOT BEING PESSIMICTIC okay? :) just..getting to know the truth. :D
p.p.s// i realise one thing... maybe on the next post.. or else i have no other stuffs to post. :)

love, cong.

Jay Chou

2010-08-12T17:29:00.002+08:00

Jay Chou.
he has been my all time favorite singer. :)
i mean, who doesn't?
mostly all the ones who understand chinese, love his songs!! :)
i personally love him toooooo much!
i grow up with his songs.
you know? :)
his love songs are always always touching...
different song of his, means different stages in my life.

when i was still secondary one,
晴天，reminds me how well was i loved by him.
暗号，reminds me of me and rald, modeling for Cultural week. with yih and chun too. ;)
安静，....the phone conversation everynight...
简单爱...

then, secondary two,
回到过去，....the heartbreaks,
开不了口，..it's what i wanted to let him know...

secondary three,
黑色毛衣，still..about him..
一路向北，....
轨迹，i was trying really hard...to forget

secondary four,
珊瑚海，... 海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一种意外。
听妈妈的话，my mummy and brother started liking JAY! :)
菊花台，..mummy's favorite Jay's song.

secondary five,
世界末日，....it's what i wanna tell alll my best buddiees...

post secondary life,
彩虹， ... the past..
兰亭序，....if only i could turn back time.
给我一首歌的时间，reminds me of sin..:) :) :) <3>

you see? all his songs are there with me while i grow up!
i love him so mucch!
but mostly, of course..it reminds me of my past.
because his love songs are so sad. :(
i still like Jay though! irreplaceble wei!! :D hahaha.
below are my TOP FAVROTIES song by Jay, from different album.
if i'm not mistaken, he has 19 albums, and 194 songs. :)

周杰伦- 同名专辑
可爱女人
星晴
龙卷风
黑色幽默

范特西
爱在西元前
爸我回来了
简单爱
开不了口
上海一九四三
安静
蜗牛
你比从前快乐
世界末日
威廉古堡

八度空间
半兽人
半岛铁盒
暗号
龙拳
火车叨位去
分裂
爷爷泡的茶
回到过去
最后的战役

叶惠美
晴天
三年二班
东风破
你听得到
爱情悬崖

巡找周杰伦
轨迹
断了的弦

七里香
我的地盘
七里香
借口
外婆
搁浅
园游会

11月的萧邦
夜曲
发如雪
黑色毛衣
枫
浪漫手机
珊瑚海
一路向北

依然范特西
听妈妈的话
千里之外
退后
红磨坊
心雨
白色风车
迷失香
菊花台

我很忙
牛仔很忙
彩虹
青花瓷
阳光宅男
蒲公英的约定
我不配
甜甜的
最长的电影

魔杰座
龙战骑士
给我一首歌的时间
花海
说好的幸福呢
兰亭序
时光机
稻香

跨时代
说了再见
烟花易冷
好久不见
雨下一整晚
我落泪。情绪零碎
超人不会飞

:)
last week, i watched Inception with cowie. it was damn right a great movie!
hots guys + great story line! love ittt.. :)

i don't know what to blog larrr. :/
wrote something when i was emo...

有时候，我还蛮喜欢一个人的夜晚。
因为，我可以，无所顾忌的放任自己的心沉沦。
沉沦在属于我自己的世界，
沉沦在属于我自己的回忆，
回到我不可能会再有的过去，
尽情地，回味着。

没有别人，
没有未来，
没有现在，
只有我和那被设定为禁忌的过去。

不再属于我的你，依然美丽，
而我，却只能眼睁睁地看着你，
幸福地离去。
我原本以为坚强的心，
顷刻间，
支离破碎。

haha,
enough!!

love, cong.

boring friday

2010-08-06T19:26:00.007+08:00

today is friday. DUH!

i used to Love Fridays, like seriously. because i can hang out with my friends, have dinner with my family, movie with sin or anything!

but here,

Fridays is always a day for me to think hard!

thinking how to kill timeee!!

o.o

gahhh!

whatever. :)

i can't help myself to be emo again,

my family is going out for dinner and a movie later.

i wish i could be there, so freaking bad!

then i thought,

if studying here two years is for my future,

then issit worth it to sacrifice my time that i could have spend with my family for my future?

my answer?

NO, not at all worth it. Not even a single bit.

but then, my mummy say Yes, it is worth it.

because i'm not spending my whole life with them, yet my future is my everything, my whole life.

so i kept quiet.

i know she would have said No if it's isn't for my future. i know it so well.

but i still don't agree.

she don't know. i would rather lose half of my future than losing the time i could spend with them.

like she said, i don't have my whole life with them. which is why i should spend more time with them ; which is why, it's not worth it to give up my family for my future.

seeing them all getting prepared to go out, kills me.

i kept thinking to myself, i used to be a part of it.

i can't stop remembering how it felt like to get prepared for the outing,

my sisters will always annoy me while i'm making up, coming into my room borrowing stuffs, or even coming in just for the sake of coming in..

daddy will always be the first one to get done!

waiting, impatiently for us.

when the Estima growls,

we know, we have to rush down now.

or else, daddy will be the next one growling.

the road to the malls?

i assure you, i can remember every bits of the view...

talking, yelliing, joking in the car is always where small bits of laughter arises.

then the car park, walking around the mall, yam-cha when daddy get tired, then walk again..

oh, i miss it to bits!

the early breakfast in ss2,

the afternoon yam cha in Bukit Raja Old Town,

the movie in Tropicana City,

Bat Kut Teh's in Bao Xiang,

Wan Tan Mee in K.L,

i miss those days. :(

but i can tell no one, i can't.

i'm forbid to.

i had all day to myself.

cleaning the whole house was the only thing i did today.

my brain was wandering everywhere while i was cleaning.

Pyramid came into my mind. :)

and sin, after that.

i can imagine if now, i'm in my home country,

i'll be walking aroud with him in Sunway, dragging him to all the shops in the mall.

he'll be asking me what food do i wanna take?

i'll be saying, anything. and so does he.

end up, he'll always bring me to the ones i wanna go.

because, sin is worried that i don't eat. that's why.

when choosing what to eat,

sin will always scold me 'one dollar also wanna save! eat only ler'..

after eating, he will say 'i know someone miss home already, wanna go?'

sin always knows what i want, what i'm thinking and what i need...

i miss it so much, to be pampered by him.

holding his hands in the mall,

leaning on his shoulder in the movies,

disturbing him while he's driving,

watching him sleep in the afternoon,

and waking him up in the morning..

my friends?

of course i miss them.

the yamcha session!

with qian, cheesing, yih and howelu in MacD. we'll be ending up in cheesing car's and talk for hours,

bitching, joking, laughing, reminiscing...

with rald, tee, sai, wen?

always the one to get bullied, not by rald. :) he'll never, but no doubt on tee and wen!

for sai? he'll just blab something out that make you can't stop laughing!!

dinner with xen and sai?

how could i ever forget? :) both of them are sooo.. words can't describe!

we always have tonnes of fun in the Park.

actually, i know..

xen, i know what i am to you. and i know you never have to prove anything.

but sometimes, i just feel slightly lost and i need you to bring me back to where i'm suppose to be.

you know?

i will never forget how you'd ask me to take care of myself back in your house.

sorry if i ever cause you problem. you know i only care for you. :)

dinner every once a month, the birthday celebration slash gathering?

is the best!

i get to see everyone.

my girls! :) cind, mo, ying, ru and kimmy! we will talk of anything possible! but usually, different topics with different girls! haha. but i love it. i love them! you know i do, right?

and the boys?! too many to talk to one by one..

but their attendance had say it all. by just seeing them talking to others,

joking and laughing with others makes me smile too.

i don't know why, but it just will.

kok? yuchung? hamo? chun? kengloong? wai wai? lee?

i won't miss them out, of course. ;)

kok, like i said, lame sometimes, crazy all the time! he can always make us laugh!

yuchung, the always absentee. but i know, he wanted to come soooo much! right? :D i forgive you.

hamo, my future family doctor!! talking to him always makes me feel better. he can tell me so many facts that i need to learn!

chun and kengloong? are the only ones left i have here in aussiee. :) thank you!!!

waiwai, aiyoor. too caught up in his own world. :) but like it that he is still him. haha.

lee, tsk! BOSTON is all i can remember! no, wait! Melaka too. haha!

and the after dinner session? usually in tee or cheesing's, sometimes even cong's.

that's when we are allow to go crazy~

because we are no longer in public! haha. :)

reveal the true us. *giggles

alchohol + coke is our favourite!

poker cards is something we can't forget!

FINALLY, the group photo a.k.a FAMILY photo! :)

i'm sorry that i was never a good photographer,

soory for all those yellings. *winks

i'm sorry that i'm emo,

but i just can't help it.

if only i could,

then i won't be me anymore.

i guess, things will be worst if it isn't for cowie and chun.

thank you! really.

and, thank you..i know you've been watching over me. thank you so much!

maybe this is inappropriate, maybe you will never see this, or will you? hmm. anyways,

i love you... :)

this may sound totally unbelievable,

i only realise it now, maybe it's too late,

but, i, ATZC, actually had fell in love with Malaysia long time ago.

i miss IT too. :)

i miss you guys, i miss you guys, i miss you guys,

when i said it 3 times, it means i really do mean it!

OKAY, enough!

Mike He, Mike He, Mike He. :) *just to annoy cheesingg. ;p

i promise cheesing to post this up.

is what i coook for dinner.

fried rice with beef and egg. :)

white rice with beeef and vege. :)

p.s//i had a dream last night. but, why issit you?

love, cong.

why? why? ♥

2010-08-05T20:37:00.005+08:00

pictures can't show how charming and how lovable he is..
so i decided to post a video here,
hoping to share with you my favourite moments in the drama,
of course, there's more..
but, this is the cutest~ <3>
enjoyyy~~
WARNING : don't fall in love with Huo Da a.k.a 霍家恶少♥ BECAUSE he's MINE ♥

like it? cute?
AWWW! i just love the way he kisses her!!!!! AHHH! ;D
there's more.
their Behind the Scenes are cute too.
you can see they have really close relationships, especially Huo Yan. :)
he's totally different when he's out of the camera. :D ♥

saw it? haha.
i have no better things to do,
my family ask me to go walk around in the city, don't just stay at home.
but the thing is,
i don't know where to walk or what to walk?
hmmm.

love, cong.

:)

2010-08-04T13:21:00.002+08:00

Yes!

i fell BACK in love with him. :) no idea why, but did.
haha.
the character he played in Why Why Love as Huo Da, is tooo cute + hot + bad + sweet + considerate!
everything i ever wanted. ;)
also in Devil Beside You - Jiang Meng. *i'm sure you guys are familiar with. haha. :)
yup both of him, me like it!
me love it. :) :)
aiyoorr, Edward and Huo Da and Jiang Meng..
how?
:(

there's another GOOOOOD guy, 100% good guy, gentlmen, everything.
He's King One :), 王传一，he acted as Huo Yan in Why Why Love, and Yuan Yi in Devil Beside You. cutteenesss~ :)
haha.
kill me. i'm annoying, i know.

but there's always this choice between a gentlemen and a bad boy.
the bad boy always gets the girl.
hmm, i wonder if that will happen in real life. :/
as much as i love bad boys, i think in real life, i will choose the good one.
because, it's better to be loved than love someone right? haha.

anyway,
i'll never forget the one quote. ;p
'girls like nice guys, love bad boys, marry rich guys!'
hahaha!
NOT ME. :) i fall in love because of love.
;)
which reminds me,
hmmm, you know the thing they say about,
if you really love someone, you should let them go, and if they're happy you will be too?
IF, love, is reallly really, with no other definition fits the one i mention above,
then i realise,
we, ALL, love better when we were kids as compared to now.
isn't it?
when i was a kid, i used to remember the feeling of just liking someone, you know?
so what if i know he likes another girl, i'm just happy because i can like him, and happy that he's happy.
but now?
you think this is possible? hmm, maybe. but the chances are real low..
so, base on my own opinion,
i think we love someone better when we were kids.
maybe it's because we were still young,
we know nothing,
we were strangers with jealousy..
we were not friends with obsession.. *haha*
or i should say, owning. ;p
so..

...
am i right?

love, cong.

because we're no longer kids.

2010-08-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

i know that!
because we're no longer kids,
that's why..
we can't always be together,

because we're no longer kids,
that's why..
sometimes, we can't speak without thinking!

oh, how i wish i could be a kid again,
i can just tell the adults what i want!
most importantly, without thinking...

but now, i'm an adult myself..
i have to think before i speak,
it is what people expect from me,
we, adults must say things that will not hurt, offend, insult, and affect another one's feeling.
which is why, some of the truth are hidden..
just for the sake of meeting other's expectation..

being an adult,
it's something everyone should learn. and hard to get it.

oh, how i wish i can be a kid again...
telling my family how much i miss them..
at least, when i'm a kid i won't get scolded, or get someone irritated...
i hate myself too, you know?
do you think i feel all so proud telling everyone i miss home?
NO!
i hate myself for saying i miss home!
it makes me sound like someone who only knows how to whine and complain about the happening!!
i hate myself for sounding so weak!
i don't wanna be the victim!
but i really do!
what's so wrong about expressing my feeling?
and you tell me you're sick of listening?
do you ever ever know how i felt?
leaving home for the first time in my 20 years life!
living all by myself and adapting to this brand new life!?
look,
i AM trying REALLY hard..
and you from all...
say that you're sick??
i thought you of all, should know me well,
should know that i like being at home,
i cherish all the moments i had with my family.
doesn't that prove to you?
doesn't that give me a solid, concrete, strong reason to say i miss home?

...
...
...
...
...
...
or maybe... it is like what i thought,
though i don't want this, ever, ever to happen,
but,
is it okay already that i left?
......
the thing that i worried most is happening?
that.. we are already drifting apart?
please no!
no,
i don't want this..

as much as i miss home, i will never ever say it infront of you again.
cause,
that's what you want from me,
that's what you expect from me...

and you!!! you come into my life and ruin everything i have!
grrr. you make me sound like some mad woman trying to grab what she's losing!!!
i don't want that from myself!
i don't!!
but, you...you are helping you...
brrrrr.
i promise myself, promise sin, promise kok not to think about it anymore.

love, cong - so not cong..

adapting.

2010-07-30T12:28:00.009+08:00

okay, so it's been days since i last updated.

i was trying really hard to adapt to the new environment after my mummy and aunty left.

i guess, i did quite fine, for now. :)

why?

because mummy and sin skype with me as many time as possible as long as i'm free,

of course, when they are free too. :)

plus, i got all my friends supporting me, caring for me, being there for me,

i just feel bad and wrong to keep staying in the state where all my friends would be so worry about me.

here, i have cowie, and chun. :)

therefore, cong, overall is fine now.

but never doubt her feelings for home, she still wants, and crave to go back very bad!

the first day of class,

i was nervous, afraid and excited..

hmm, weird mixture..but yes! i felt that way.

but in the end? disappointment....

the way the lecturer teach here is so different, also the new subject that i totally have no idea

about..makes me worry even more..

what if i don't get what i use to after i study here?

feeling the pressure already....

after class, i went home..so quiet..

that night, i cried so badly..infront of my mummy..

she teared too..

she told me, i'm not the only one that have to adapt to this new situation,

they back here, have to too...

and then she told me about the story of the eagle?

you know?

Mummy eagle breaks the bone on the wings of her baby eagles and throw them from high up to the ground,

the baby eagle, itself have to learn to struggle and fly..

or else, they'll die..

mummy eagle felt her heart ache inside, but have to be so cruel to train their baby to be this independent..

to be how all people see eagle as.. fierce, strong, ego, independent...

i understand how mummy feels, but i still miss home. :(

daddy saw, and he ask me to book a ticket and come home for sem break, even if it's for only a week plus.

he wanted to send my younger sister over here since she's having holidays,

but i didn't want to waste so much of daddy's money..

now i'm counting down for the day where i can go homee!! :)

the happinesss~~ haha.

mikhail called, jieshen called. :)

xen ask me yesterday night about my class,

about whether did i get bullied.

he said, if i did, call him, the whole HL gang, my boys! ;) will fly over here to help me.

one is already here, and the other, must take a few hours drive to reach here.

haha. stupid boy.

i know he's just saying to make me happy,

but i did feel happy. :)

at least i know, i am still 'there' with them.. :)

i know it myself, he don't have t prove anything anymore, he told me. :D

xen's sick, i wonder did he really listen to me and took medicine before he sleeps, and change at chunkeat's house. grrr.

i wanted to call everyone! since now i have a sim card that can call back to Mas for only half cent per minute!

but i don't have the contacts. :( because LG Ice Cream got into half on the very last day i left Malaysia. lol. how funnny! ;p

pictures, again. :)

aunty, mummy and cong.

on our way to ikea. :)

:)

hearts,

victoria market on Sunday Morning. look at those fairy dresses! so cute and colourful and pretty!like cheesing said, i'm a girl who he can gets present easily, as long as it's something colourful and cute! ;p

mummy and aunty loves market!! :D

Melb aqurarium with chun, may and cowie. :)

a fcuking huge stingray!

cong and mr.turtle! trust me, i ran round and round just to chase him! he can't stop swimming!

mr.sticky! :) i saw starfish that looks like cookies!!

you will never know what the hell is this!!

it's actually, SHARK's egg shell!

and this! the weirdest creature i've ever seen! mr. multi-talented! why!? because he has four legs, sort of the frog kind of species AND he CAN REGROW ANY OF ITS BODY PART! heart, liver, hand, brain, anything!

penguins~~

what long neck does the penguins has! o.o

last but not least, multi colour mouthwatering cupcakes!!! ahhh! :D

love, cong. :)

officially emo

2010-07-26T06:08:00.003+08:00

...
it's 6 am in my home country, and 8 am here.
my mummy and aunty is on their way to the airport, flying back to Malaysia,
a place where those i missed most, love most belong..
i wanna go back with them too..
i reallly wanna go...

mummy said i'm a big girl now,
have to control my emotions and learn to grop up...
but i don't want do it here, i don't wanna grow up here..
i wanna go back home...

ming..i wanna go home... :(
dadddyyy.. i wanna go home...
jie..i wanna go home.......................

....
...
........
..

3rd day

2010-07-22T18:09:00.004+08:00

Enrolment was done. it was kinda easy! :)
but i have class from 6pm - 9pm at night on every Wednesday! what the hell right?
it was DEFINITELY not my choice..urgh! i had it clash with the lecture which cannot be change.
bad lucky me. -.-"
oh well, what's done is done!

i had a late lunch with chun, cowie and may.
i wasn't really use to the oz lunch time, that's why i was late.
we had lunch in this Hong Kongnese restaurant, the foood was okay, but according to them, it's the only and best in town..
hmmm, but i still misses Aman Suria's Char Siew!!! :D
they brought us to an Asian Oriental Market that sells loads of Asian food! feeeel so happy when i saw that, kinda feel a little bit at home.. :)
shopping, shopping, shopping..
for groceries of course! :)
head to cowie's after that, wanna have a peeep at his crib! lol! ;p
and my god! it was beautiful! the view and the space, soooo comfy!!
:)

that's about it. not much!
tomorrow cowie is bringing me to the Victoria Market, and then Melb Aquarium with chun and may. :)

i suddenly had a sad feeling..
just now, when my mummy and aunty was asleep,
the room was so quiet, with no sound but me typing on the keyboard..
and this sucks!
i can't imagine what kinda life would i have when they left on next monday...
hmmm..
:(
this is so sucky suck suck!

urgh!
3 more months till i get home!
i'm counting~~

PICTURES, again. :)

this is my kitchen. :)

and the raviollliiii i made~~ :D it's stuff with beef, cheese and basil! yum yum!

a little bit of parmesian cheeese would be puuurrrfect! ;)

carriage. :) part of my dream~

poooor horsey. :( i think he was too tired, that why he cross his leg and rest....:'(

pooor poooor horse! stupid mankind who choose them as transport agent! grrr!

cowie, may and chun. :)

this is the south bank i guess? or the river near it. one river that seperate me and cowie's place!

cowie's house.

the view from 33rd floor. :)

i called xen yesterday, to ask him something.

the conversion was so funny because our dear xen xen is sooo stupid. ;p

cong : helllllooooo!!

xen : hi...

cong : where are you?

xen : driving home lor..

cong : eh, i thought you going PD?

xen : no ler, this friday..

cong : oh...

xen : who are you?

*.........so many dot dot dots!

cong : TAN ZI CONG LER!!!

xen : oh.!!!! i wanted to ask just now, but the way you talk me is like we know each other very well, so..i feel weird to ask.

cong : lol!

stupid boy, but he was sweet. i feel touch, because he told me to take care of myself which he usually won't! :) haha! you know xen, always the teasing one. :) hehe.

kok called too, again, to ask how am i and all. sweet isn't it? :D

momo was right, even though i left my best buds, i still have the guys from the same gang over here to take care of me! hehe. :)

love love you people!! :D

love, cong

the 2nd day.

2010-07-21T15:05:00.008+08:00

HI guys.
miss cong?
trust me, cong misses you as well, maybe more than you think she will.

cong was suppose to attend orientation today.
she had cowiiiiee :) accompanied her to take the train for the first time!!
without him, cong will definitely be lost...it's so complicating!! o.o
so the orientation?
cong skipped!
why?
the road to the campus was far and complicated.
plus, orientation was just about welcoming students.
i don't see the point. ;p
so we head to MacDee for BREAKFAST!! :)
mm-mmm, the sausage mcmuffin was great! even better with bacon~~~ :)
thank you cowie, for the breakfast and the walk to Footscray. :D
say goodby to cowie, cause i wanna go back to sleep. ;p

while i was sleeping, mummy rub oil on my face..brrr.
but she's doing it for my own good, cause the weather is so dry...*i miss Malaysia's weather. :(
mummy and aunty treated me like a pampered kid! haha. kinda love it in a way, had never been treated like this, because i was stereotype as the persecutors and independent one! haha, indeed i am. but, sometimess...just wanna be pampered! ;p *giggles*
soon, we went to Big W (Woolworths) for groceries and some homeware.
and had lunch in Hungry Jack's (cowie introduced). it's Burger King in our place. :)
aweeessssommmmmeee beeeff!! :D yuuummmaaay~

tonight i'll be coooking raviolli. :) hehe.
these are the pictures of my days in Melb..without you guys. :(
still, i'm fortunate to have best friends here, like chun, cowie, kok, kyle and jieshen. :)
they all message me for my number!
kok called yesterday and even today to ask whether am i fine with everything here!
hehe.
he was feeling uneasy when i said : 'thanks for caring kok! :) love you~'
hahahaha! he smiled so robotically~ ;p
chun and kengloonng too. :) they were there when i needed them!!

PICTURES!

cowie in the train. :)
my white berrry. :D

chun bought me mini cup cakesss! :)

macarooonnnnsss. :D

the cup cake family. :D mouthwatering, isn't it?

:)

melbourne's sky - one place without you people.

this pictures was few days back, my departure date, in the morning. :)

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定
抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子疼你一辈子

KLIA's MacDee. :)

all of them. :)

family photo. :) (1)
family photo (2)

the real deal. :) haha. family photo i mean. :p

the last picture. :)

that's it for now?

about my rooom? later okayyy? need to get it decorated first! ;p haha.

p.s//another lyrics i wanna share. :) also made me tear when i hear this song...

我只想轻轻陪你一生又一世
我只想紧紧抱你一次又一次
我会永远记住这美丽的名字
我愿意好好疼你爱你一辈子

牵着你的手跟随着河流
一步一步地走在绿油油
一望无际的天空没有尽头

不知不觉地走到这山头
我们的温度在彼此手中
我愿意躺在你怀中不要逃走

不用害怕就算在这森林中
就算失去方向游走
只要紧紧抓住我的手
你就拥有最多温柔

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子疼你一辈子

牵着你的手跟随着河流
一步一步地走在绿油油
一望无际的天空没有尽头

不知不觉地走在这山头
我们的温度在彼此手中
我愿意躺在你怀中不要逃走

不用害怕就算在这森林中
就算失去方向游走
只要紧紧抓住我的手
你就拥有最多温柔

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子疼你一辈子

心跳的声音穿越时空的感应
走进彼此的眼睛都是勇敢的坚定
牵着你手心联系着我们的生命
只要还呼吸我都不放弃......

我爱你
就算遇到任何天气
漫天风雪还有雨
也只会让我更加坚定

抱着你
走在湖水里看着你
屏住呼吸吻着你
闭上眼睛
就这样子疼你一辈子

love, cong.

the hardest thing

2010-07-20T18:18:00.005+08:00

baby got these for both if us, i miss him already...

baby got this farewell cak for me, i miss him sooo much.. :(

it's my first day in Melbourne, for once, after my 19year life, i'm far far away from home.

trust me, this feelings sucks! like nobody's business. :'(

when i saw the airplane departing from Singapore, i thought to myself...now, even further from home..

when i land in Melbourne, i thought to myself, welcome my new life! ...way further from my home sweet home with all my wonderful people...

honestly, i cried so many times in the airplane while listening to various songs...

i'm happy with my current life now, you see, with my family, my boyfie and of course, my lovely friends. suddenly, me, myself and i have to throw it all behind and get a new life?

UH-uh. NO WAY. no way in hell..

i miss you guys, so much...

i kept on bugging my mummy, i wanna go home! i miss malaysia!...i wanna see my siblings!

still, nothing could be done.

the moment i step into Melbourne's airport, nothing could be done, nothing can be fix.

i had to face the reality,

the one reality that xen, hamo, chun, kenglooong, kok, ying had to face.

hmmmm,

that day on my departure date,

i felt bad because i was so busy doing last minute packing that i had no time, at all to talk to xen, tee, ru, and yuchung, wen and lee...

then i was shocked! by their attendance in the airport!
moko, cind, cheesing, yih, howelu, rald and sai (rushing after his exam), they all were here!!

they were here!! almost everyone was! the whole gang!

i was so touched, deep down inside.

mummy said it as if she's marrying her daughter to someone. haha!

happiness overwhelmed me, which is why i didn't cry like what majority assumed. haha.

then, i walk down to the boarding gate, i didn't dare to look back, cause i don't wanna cry..

there i go...leaving all i ever wanted behind...

thank god, when i reach, i have chun and kengloong over here to guide me! :)

see, i'm so well loved!!! :D hahahaa!!

princessssssss-ish huh?

my jiejie told me, everyone was moody back home, every had an red eye while having steamboat. it made me tear..i miss everyone!
really...so much...

but i'll stay strong. :)

cause i know, nomatter what i still have you people! :D :D hehe!!

cause i have my video with me! ;)

cause i know through the comments of FB. :D

baby, take care, i love you. and i'll promise to always be your cong! :D

p.s//i never thought that whatever i did was appreciated or realise by my gangs, but now i know, they saw, they feel they know. :) i'm glad...:D

chun bought me macaroonnnsss!! and mini cupcakes~~

so schweeeeettt!! ;D me like it!! hehe.

i took few photographs, but i can't connect the camera to the lappie,anyone knows why?

hmm.

OH, i have whiteberrry!! :D yay!!

guys, i miss you soooooooooooo much! as much as i wanna go home, i will carry on with all your loves with me! hehe.

muacxxxxxxx.

take goood care okay?

pps:// this is the song lyrics where i said i cried when i heard the song, because i thought of you guys! :(

每一天
我在祈祷
　　愿上天保佑那个人
　　赐给他勇气
　　一直到我们遇见

　　我们早就相约
　　从出生那一天
　　只是缘分的线条太迂回
　　每天早出晚归
　　为了爱奔波却不会累
　　相信天使不过
　　一时沉睡

　　沿途爱上了谁
　　都是命运美丽的误会
　　送错的玫瑰
　　也不是谁不对
　　走过人山人海
　　用心栽培可能绽放的花蕊
　　你就是那个天生一对

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会

　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远

　　沿途错碰了谁脸颊的泪
　　都不许误会
　　会懂得感谢
　　也是一种智慧

　　走过人山人海
　　我在预备和未来的你相会
　　答应我你会赴约

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远
　　

也许只差一秒的脚步
　（一秒的脚步）
　　也许只剩一段路
　（我在清晨冒着雨等待）
　　幸福就在指尖附近不远处
　　穿越了迷雾
　　就不孤独

　　等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　

流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　迷了路那么久找到你
　　对你说好久不见
　　

等我们遇见
　　某年某天
　　完成了思念
　　实现漫长的约会
　　流过的泪水
　　唯有你能赎回
　　

迷了路那么久却在你身边
　　看见永远

love, cong

almost there

2010-07-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

I had my results todays,
i couldn't check it online,
so i went back to Uni to check..
guess what??
for my PD, which i had to work with a group members...
I SCORED A FREAKING CREDIT!!!!!
A FREAKING CREDIT.

honestly, i'm really pissed off,
i don't want this,
they don't deserve credit for doing only that much of thing, well, some of them..

then again, what can i do?
i was almost there to be the, well, the student i wanna be,
but guess what!?
I'm SO FREAKING FAR from it now, because of what?
a stupid group work?!

i scored HD for subjects that do not require any group work.
how sucky is that?
ugh!!!

love, cong

buddy

2010-07-09T22:30:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY XEN!! :) :)

HEART HEART HEART YOU~

love, cong.

ECLIPSE!!!!!!

2010-07-08T21:47:00.002+08:00

I WATCHED IT!
I WATCHED IT!
finally, i get to date My Edward. :)
still, he dazzles me like how we just met! ;)

melting, melting, melting....

BUT, it's Eclipse you see.
that's why the Eclipse anger came right on me on the scene where Ms.goody-Bell kissed Mr.oh-wow-Jacob!
ughhh.
i felt the pain like Edward.
really.
like i said before,
i could, and i will love Edward better.

anyhoo, it ended up well. :) like expected. haha.
i wanted to remember the one line Edward said to Bella.
but i couldn't.
maybe the other time, when i watch Eclipse AGAIN. :)
was suppose to, just now at 8pm, with my mummy, sisters and brother, of course sin.
but then it was full house, the next was on 10.30pm which is quite late.
so yeah.
booohoooo!!!

have faith in me! i will watch it again, reeeeaaaaallll soon! ;)
hehe!

OH OH!
baby and i each got a GAP jacket. double like!! haha.
mine is pink and he's in grey~~~
heartss ittt!! :D :)

p.s// Edward : Isabella Swan, i promise to love you forever, everyday of forever. will you marry me??
cong : yes i woulddd!! ( but i can never be her..;p)

love, cong.

the inspiracy

2010-07-08T08:27:00.006+08:00

i wonder what's the population of the whole world?
people who live in different country are socialized with different culture,
therefore, different perception, thinking, beliefs, value and even roles.
however, i still think there's 3 roles in life who everyone will play.
the three roles?
1) victim.

2) saviors.

3) persecutors.

or so i say,
the meaning of those words are completely obvious.
however, who are there words directing to?
well, for victims, you know?
those people who act as if they are so pity and hence need help from the saviors.
to saviors, victims are always right, and they feel the need to protect them.
hence, the one saviors will scold right on the face will be the persecutors.
what does persectuors do?
haha! ask me, ask me!
obvious. they know what victims are doing, or i should say 'playing',
because they know, because it's wrong for the victim to do so,
to keep asking for help and symphaty,
to not moving on and learn what they need to,
persecutors had to come out and tell them it's WRONG!
but what do they get?
scolded by the so callled saviors to protect the poooor pooor victims.

this cycle goes round and round every single day!
some even happen in my life.
i always had to play the persecutors roles.
and my boys? no doubt the saviors!
the victims...you know.. i don't have to mention...

why? do i look like the born to be persecutors?
or do 'they' look like the born to be victim?
i just don't get it.
how come the saviors will never get what the persecutors actually mean!
boys...

one day,
just one day,
when everything fits into pieces,
maybe you'll know.
just like a triangle relationship.
the mistress always gets to go over limits,
Mr. will always listen to whatever mistress says.
why?
because mistress can act! act that she's weak and needs sympathy.
whereas the Mrs? she can't beat the mistress, oh no.
because Mrs can't act. all that she know is to do the right thing! which is always not what the Mr will accept.
so i guess, until the right time,
Mr can finally see the fact!
crossing my fingers real hard...

**anyhoo, i promise i won't complaint about 'they' anymore! i wanna be a nice person. what for talk or be mad about 'them', when i know it's not worth it!**

Oh! i got this watch from Aunt Karen & Aunt JN as a farewell gift. :) i love it. but i have too many watches already. one from sin, a Pink Guess. and another from my daddy, Brown Emporio. ...-.- plus, i'm not so a watch kinda person.
BUT still, i wanna thank Aunt Karen and Aunt JN!! :D
THANK YOU SO MUCH! I LOVE IT. :) :)

this song played is the OST of a Japanese drama i used to watch, old one. you know the series? it's called With Love. it's about 2 person who fell in love through mail/ICQ without realizing they know each other in real life. ;) sweeet!

p.s// i can't believe there's only a week or plus left.....
p.p.s// GERMANY LOST! that's for eliminating England and Argentina! haha

love, cong.

Malacca. :)

2010-07-07T11:29:00.007+08:00

Malacca trip can be remembered as the BEST worst trip i'd ever had. :)

it's best because i get to go with sin darling. :p

but then, for the worst...

i can start with A Famosa...

we reach there at 10 plus in the morning, and then we realise we can't check it until it's 4 in the noon!

can you believe it? usually international check in time are at 12 isn't it? gosh!

we decided to go water park then. :)

at first, it was fun! really. :) with no huge crowd queing for the rides, we manage to played all the rides!!!

but what disgust me is...you know the so called 'river' that goes around the lagoon?

yeah, they had one in A Famosa too, but the water..was soo..... yellow-greenish...o.o

i told sin, instinctively 'I'M SO NOT GOING IN THERE!! '

sin told i was being all melodramatic, but then when i told him what i saw when he was in the rides. he felt disgusted as well!

guess what i saw?!

a malay girl, soaking in the so called yellow-greenish 'river', happily taking a sip of the yellow-greenish water...gargle it, and then spit it back out in the 'river'.

you still wanna have fun in it?

DEFINITELY a NO WAY for me! HELL NO!!!

but we were lucky, real lucky. :) it was a cloudy day, you know? my kind of day! greyish sky and windy~~

no need to be afraid of the UV rays! ;) haha.

2 plus, we insisted to check in and was allowed. the apartment was one of a kind. ;)

newly furnished, homie kinda feeling. :D

aircond was cooling..clean..

we were really happy about it!

lee even gave qian a surpised cake for her late brithday celebration! :)

then...

this is where the worst part startsss..when we get home after watching the footie match ( which kills me so bad. i wanted Argentina to win! :( i even wore a blue dresss!! grrrrr Germany. ugh!)

anyway, where was i? okay!! so, when we get home, after bathing and all...

the air cond SUDDENLY stop functioning!!!!!!

lee and sin went insane and complaint.

we were allowed to change room. :) from 3139 to 3138.

5 minutes later...

air cond stop, complaint. change room from 3138 to 3137.

15 minutes later,

air cond stop AGAIN, complaint AGAIN. change room from 3138 to 3133.

3+ in the morning,

AIR COND STOP ONCE AGAIN! LEE and SIN went totallllyyyy BERSERK!

they stomp down to the reception, insisted to see the manager and argue for a refund!

according to them, it's not worth it to pay such amount for just few hours sleep.

we got the refund, and we check out!

YES! 3am in the morning!

people who's watching the 2.30 match gave us 'what the hell is wrong with them?' stare.

i feel so embarssed! :D

but it was exciting! 3 am in the morning, we are driving to Malacca! haha.

we reach at 4 plus, went hunting for a decent hotel..

guess what? the receptionist told us that it's full house,

went another, got the same answer,

and another, he replied : it's weekend! the whole city's hotel are all full!!

OH MY GOSH! that moment, i felt so helpless...i was totally blank out!

but then, thank god!! 皇天不负有心人. :) we got a room!
although it's kinda eerie and freaky.

but we had to take it!! had to.. force to..

the next morning, we check out early! ;p

went around Malacca. got to eat the FAMOUS chicken rice ball!! :) :)

yum yum~

we left home after that. :)

GPS brought us down to Sri Petaling and then only back to Shah Alam.

sweet baby jesus!

love, cong. :)

sex and the city 2

2010-06-28T23:31:00.004+08:00

i was without any make ups! i swear! :)

seriously. i like! :D

haha. i find myself getting weird-er and weird-er.

i find myself getting weird with make up on! i know, right?

how awkward is that?!

oh well. :)

i went to watch Sex and the City 2, this evening, and

unsuprisingly i love it! ;)

i knew i will love it, with the heels, the dresses, and the bags. how will i not?

i wanna live a life like that!! :)

that's why i'm working hard now. haha.

guys, do i look younger than my actual age?

i don't think so. but i keep having people think that i am younger!

for those who think that i'm bragging or any intention you think that i have but is not at all my intention,

seriously, keep quiet. don't make me upset like how someone did. -,- my dear ones know how i was drove up the wall! grrrr.

anyway, as we were saying,

yup, i look younger than my actual age.

because,

fact 1:

that evening when i accompanied my mummy to get my sister's new car, the sales man, Mr.Anthony said : How are you gonna drive 2 cars back home?

Mummy : there. *pointing at me* she can drive.

Mr.Anthony : huh? she can!? how old is she? *look at me* 18?

Cong : 20. *SMILE!*

Mr. Anthony : 20!!??? i thought you were like form4 or 5. you look so young!

haha. :)

fact 2:

sin was getting the tickets for SATC 2, i went to check out for drinks and came back.

Ticket girl : Is she 18?

Cong : i'm...20. *:)*

Ticket girl : oh!! sorry. ;p

Ticket guy from other counter : sorry! but you should be happy since you look young.

again, haha. ;p

so, do i really look young? my elder sister says that i look younger without make up on, but with make up on..i look way mature... :) :)

so is that goood or bad?

i wonder.

however, i'm kinda enjoying it while i can! hah! ;)

at least better than those who are mistaken that they are older than their actual age!! *winks*

mmm, mmm, mmmm...

life has been great. ;) especially when sin's exam are over! and mine too!

i spend everyday with him and my family~~

AHH!! also my NOVELS!!! i love them, heart heart heart them~~ :) :) :)

( i'm planning to buy a collection and bring it over to OZ with me!! honestly, i cannot survive without them. ;) )

i do spend time with my love ones too...my dear friends!! all that i can.

seriously! i sleep late lately. which is so unusual for me! you know me? my eyes starts to shut when the clock strives at 11. so, i'm trying hard to, doing the best i could to meet everyone. :)

i love you. guys. ;)

few days back i met up with hugo, kam and yuva!

god! how much have i missed out from their life, and how drastically they had changed!

good or bad? i have no right to judge,

but some changes, are really, based on my perception, not acceptable.

oh well. :) i hope they know what they are doing!

:) did i mention i'm in MacDee now?

haha.

feel so tired....

love, cong.